CANONBALL

[Axelle Flint]

This book is a collection of pictures, random thoughts and drawings belonging to Axelle Flint

~ Do you know my mother picked out the name Mae for my middle name? How lame is that? My first name is Axelle, she could have put a little effort into it I could have been way cooler.

List of potential names

Axelle Marley Flint
Axelle Vixen Flint
Axelle Tempest Flint
Axelle Badass Flint
Axelle Artemis Flint
Axelle Landen Flint ~ no ew, that's weird, badass was better

[Axelle Flint]

I don't like brussel sprouts anymore....

[Axelle Flint]

Prius is red
Mustangs are blue


I can't write poems

[Axelle Flint]

[Axelle Flint]

OMG MY DAD SAW MY JOURNAL!!

AND HE GAVE THE TALK ABOUT SEX AGAIN.

I DON'T NEED IT AGAIN I'M OLD ENOUGH TO KNOW.

OMG HE USED THE SAME POWER POINT HE USED WHEN I WAS TWELVE. I KNOW WHAT A PENIS LOOKS LIKE THANK YOU!!

I KNOW it's because he found those pictures. He said that if I was "comfortable enough to leave it out, then I should be comfortable enough to deal with an adult conversation."

I DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS. THOSE GUYS ARE REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, RIDICULOUSLY GOOD LOOKING. AND MUSCLES....they don't look like I could snap them in half if I sneezed while hugging them.

THAT WAS ALL I SWEAR.

WHAT DOES MY DAD THINK I'M DOING WITH THIS JOURNAL???

[Axelle Flint]

Papa said that he got me a new engine for my mustang! I can't wait for it to get here so that I can put it into my car! I get to do it all by myself this time! I've been practicing just like Grandpa taught me and I think I can do it. We just have to wait for it to be shipped and stuff because it's coming from Washington. I want to go on a cross country trip after graduation I think. It would be fun to do something before starting school in the fall again. Well vocational school. I have serious doubts about making it to college.

[Axelle Flint]

[Axelle Flint]

I found him...my dream man. I know this can't be real but what if he WAS?!

Like a Meta-human who could make food? Or you know really just a guy that looked like that who could cook and then SEND ME food? I could out in the garage working on something and he can cook and then the next thing I know there's this little tap and he sent out a plate of brownies because he loves me and he knows I need snacks?!

UGH I WOULD DIE.

I'M DYING NOW THINKING ABOUT IT.

Dear god of "muscled guys just chillaxing with nothing better to do with their time than look totally awesome and perfect and~" yeah anyway. Please, please, please, please PLEASE send me one for Christmas that can cook. Oh that's nice and stuff obviously, don't gyp me on personality either.

AMEN.

[Axelle Flint]

LIFE GOALS

Graduate from school
Take over shop
Find a cook
Muscle him up if necessary
Marry him
LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER WITH MUSCLEY COOK HUSBAND

[Axelle Flint]

Some huge blond jerk busted down the door to the training room today and interupted my relaxation time. He's some sorta technopath I think, he fixed my CD player when it was skipping. Then he was asking me all sorts of questions about my power and then he left.

UGH.

[Axelle Flint]

When I think about him my heart does little flippy-floppy things.

I haven’t known him for very long and everything that I’ve read or seen on the subject has led me to believe that these things that are happening to me are because I MUST be in love with him. But there are all these little doubts niggling at the back of my head. I know that if we touch he can feel everything I’m feeling, that my emotions could overwhelm him, that I might undo him if I’m sad or anxious and he’ll want to fix it. He spends a lot of time making sure that I’m comfortable and happy. I’m supposed to want that, I don’t think there’s anything wrong with it.

But I don’t think it’s fair.

Even if my emotions wouldn’t take over, like most people he’s…fragile. Maybe more than most. He’s a bit bigger than Benji but not by a lot. He’s bigger than me, and that should count for something but it doesn’t mean anything because I could still break him if I wasn’t careful. I can’t hug him, we can’t hold hands (because I’m scared to) and of course that means that we haven’t kissed at all.

Not that we would or should be kissing. We’re not even sure if we are even a “we”. Maybe I’m being paranoid or sabotaging myself. I’ve never really had this experience before and talking to my dad about it is really hard. I get lots of good advice from my friends but I think this is the kind of situation where a mother would be useful.

I worry about the future and finding someone that I can be happy with. I think I could be happy with Koty but…I keep feeling as if there are lots of things in our way. Regardless of that I think even if we came to a decision that “We” will never happen, he and I can still be friends.

I hope.

[Axelle Flint]

LIFE GOALS - REVISED

Graduate from school
Take over shop
Find a cook
Muscle him up if necessary
Marry him
LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER WITH MUSCLEY COOK HUSBAND
Touch a whale butt - ACCOMPLISHED - LONG STORY BUT IT HAPPENED AND IT COUNTS
Travel
Get a Doggie
Learn to cook to attract cook husband potentially
(or at least learn to boil water and not break shit)

[Axelle Flint]

LIFE GOALS - REVISED - REVISED AGAIN

Graduate from school
Take over shop
Find a cook
Muscle him up if necessary ~ DUDE...Corbin is muscley AND A COOK/MECHANIC
Marry him ~ get married
LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER WITH MUSCLEY COOK HUSBAND
Touch a whale butt - ACCOMPLISHED - LONG STORY BUT IT HAPPENED AND IT COUNTS
Travel
Get a Doggie
Learn to cook to attract cook husband potentially
(or at least learn to boil water and not break shit) ~ Learned to make noodles!

[Axelle Flint]

LIFE GOALS - REVISED - REVISED AGAIN - REVISED YET A THIRD TIME

Graduate from school
Take over shop
Find a cook
Muscle him up if necessary ~ DUDE...Corbin is muscley AND A COOK/MECHANIC
Marry him ~ get married
LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER WITH MUSCLEY COOK HUSBAND
Touch a whale butt - ACCOMPLISHED - LONG STORY BUT IT HAPPENED AND IT COUNTS
Travel
Get a Doggie
Learn to cook to attract cook husband potentially
(or at least learn to boil water and not break shit) ~ Learned to make noodles!

Get mechanic certification
Take over shop
Stay with Corbin for a long time
MARRY HIM?!?!?!?!?!
Get a doggie
Learn to cook BETTER

[Axelle Flint]

SO GRADUTION HAPPENED

YAAAAAYYY

Update later!

PARTY TIME IS NOW!!!!