Don't Bother Trying (OPEN)
Dec 27, 2011 19:35:38 GMT -5
Post by Adrianna Carstyn on Dec 27, 2011 19:35:38 GMT -5
Giving up never really seemed to be in Adrian's vocabulary. She'd always tried hard to stay with what she was doing. She could handle anything growing up and stick with it. No matter how hard things got, she always was determined to fix it. It was something she'd picked up from her stubborn mother. They were the same way. So, giving up was something that never crossed her mind.
Well until she'd lost one of the most important people in her life.
She'd given up on trying. Why bother after all when all that happened was her getting hurt? She should have been expecting it to come to this. She should have known. It didn't matter though. What's done was done. He left her and he now wanted nothing to do with her. Not exactly something she was happy about, in fact she'd grown distant since then. Not really socializing unless it was necessary. Except for when she'd gone running, but she was merely talking to the boy to be polite. She had no desire to talk with anybody anymore.
People were cruel and she was tired of being the punchline to some sick joke. Every person that had ever downed her were right about her. That's where her thoughts had headed. She was truly starting to believe that all the people that hurt her intentionally were right.
The hardest thing to admit to herself was that even the one person she hated more than most was right as well. Zac had called her out on her failures and now she knew he was right about everything. But why did he have to be right about everything? Was she really that predictable? It appeared to be true, and yet she hated it. Adrian refused to ever speak the admittance out to anybody besides herself.
She sat down at the lake in the cold December weather, days after her lonely Christmas. No one to talk to, no one to bother her. She simply sat alone and stared unseeingly across the lake. Her nose was bright red and her lips trembled, but she didn't feel the cold. She'd become numb.
Well until she'd lost one of the most important people in her life.
She'd given up on trying. Why bother after all when all that happened was her getting hurt? She should have been expecting it to come to this. She should have known. It didn't matter though. What's done was done. He left her and he now wanted nothing to do with her. Not exactly something she was happy about, in fact she'd grown distant since then. Not really socializing unless it was necessary. Except for when she'd gone running, but she was merely talking to the boy to be polite. She had no desire to talk with anybody anymore.
People were cruel and she was tired of being the punchline to some sick joke. Every person that had ever downed her were right about her. That's where her thoughts had headed. She was truly starting to believe that all the people that hurt her intentionally were right.
The hardest thing to admit to herself was that even the one person she hated more than most was right as well. Zac had called her out on her failures and now she knew he was right about everything. But why did he have to be right about everything? Was she really that predictable? It appeared to be true, and yet she hated it. Adrian refused to ever speak the admittance out to anybody besides herself.
She sat down at the lake in the cold December weather, days after her lonely Christmas. No one to talk to, no one to bother her. She simply sat alone and stared unseeingly across the lake. Her nose was bright red and her lips trembled, but she didn't feel the cold. She'd become numb.