Inside out (Cameron)

[Mia Bell]

Mia sat at her desk in her room, writing in her ‘new’ journal. She finished the last sentence to the page and stared at it. It’s been a while since that day at the lake where all of her security vanished. Ever since that day she has felt herself slowly lose focus of herself. She stopped caring about a lot of things, schoolwork, her powers, other people in general. It has been about a year since she has felt this way and it was scaring her. She was losing herself in her worries, every second she worried about what someone would do with the information they had on her. Her cutting herself, her suicide attempt, her meeting with Dr. Neville, her father and brothers dying; everything and anything about her was in that notebook that someone stole from her.

Mia ran her hands through her short pink hair. She felt helpless to the other persons mind, her future was in the hands of someone she didn’t even know. Tears started falling down her cheeks as she ripped the piece of paper out of the notebook, the one she had just got done writing on. “what’s the point..” Mia couldn’t help but wonder what was the point in writing anymore, or even living. She took the lighter that was lying on her desk and moved the small flame to touch the edge of the paper. She watched as the piece of paper slowly started to turn into ashes. She had a bottle of water on the desk just in case.

Mia was so confused, and so lost. She kept wondering how much pain she could end up handling. She turned to cutting her stomach just to feel the pain in different places. Now she was even thinking about starting to burn herself, just to feel a different kind of pain. Thinking about all this just made her see how much more she was emotionally unstable. Mia looked at the stuffed polar bear on the desk, she had made it with Ravyn but it also had memories of her time with Cameron. She named it Camo, because it reminded her so much of Cameron. She smiled a bit, wondering if she would feel better if she spent some time with him. Cameron always made her feel better, and made her forget about her troubles.

[Cameron Osiris]

Cameron couldn’t help but notice the new journal Mia was writing in as he barged into her room. It hadn’t taken him very long to become comfortable are the girl, and only a short time later he found himself falling for her. What a strange phenomenon it was, to like two very different people at the same time. Was it love? He wasn’t sure. Lately love was something that kept on proving to him that he simply didn’t understand it. He hadn’t seen her since well, she yelled at him.

“Hey Mia,” he said, almost dejectedly as he peeked his head into her room. Huh, did she usually leave it unlocked? It would give her enough time to realize someone else was there. Besides, he was trying to med their friendship, not ruin her privacy. “Please please please, can I take you out for coffee or something?” He asked, touching the notebook. “This new?” He sniffed the air. “Do you smoke? Pretty sure that’s not allowed inside.”

[Mia Bell]

Mia wondered how cliché it was to be falling for the guy that was in love with someone else but that someone wanted to date other people. She let the burning paper fall onto her desk, she pouring some water on the ashes to cool them before putting them in the trash. She needed to get over this, to do that she needed to think positive. Her mind kept wondering to Ravyn, and Cameron. She wrote the word love in her notebook and sighed.

The pink haired girl looked over at the door as she heard Cameron voice and her name and smiled. She wiped the tears away, hoping he hadn’t noticed. “Hey” Weird how he showed up when she was thinking about him, was it good timing or just creepy? Either way she was grateful. Mia didn’t always have her door unlocked, but seeing how she didn’t have a roommate anymore; she didn’t know what happened to him either and she had forgotten that Cam knew her dorm number.

Mia was comfortable around him anyways, so she had no problem with him being in her room. She blinked “Oh uh okay sure.. But I don’t have any money.” She spent all of her money on the new notebook and hair stuff. It wasn’t like she had a lot of money to begin with. She looked at the notebook and nodded “Yeah..” She swallowed “Because you know the other one was full so it's in a box under my bed.” She lied, and she felt bad for lying but her notebook being stolen had nothing to do with Cameron. “Uh no. There’s a hundred ways I would rather die than slowly die of lung cancer.” Mia didn’t like the fact of slowly dying, in anyway. She picked up the lighter and placed in Cam’s hand “Take it. I don’t want it.” She shrugged and grinned "Besides if I did smoke I wouldn't care if it was allowed inside or not."

[Cameron Osiris]

He hadn't noticed her crying before, and why would he? It wasn't something he was looking for. He knew he had hurt her very badly, but he didn't know the extent of that badness.

"I'm not going to sneak into your bed, promise," he said, crossing his fingers over his heart, but still, he couldn't help that cocky grin. Oh how he wished. "I have some money, I mean it's just coffee, I can buy." Really, it would cost them a totaly of $5, and that was pushing it. "Besides, we can always skip out on the check," he said with a nod, as though it had already been decided on.

"Really?" He asked, staring at her. "I mean the last time I saw it it was only a little more than half full..." He wasn't stupid, he had written partially in it. Maybe she was just looking for a fresh start. "Why does it smell like smoke then?" He asked, his eyebrows raised. Something wasn't adding up here. And she still looked so sad. Something was desperately wrong here, and while he ached to know what it was, he didn't want to hurt her again.

Taking the lighter, he played with it for a while. "You think this is reality?" He asked, wondering if she would get the connection to the movie 'Inception', where the main character used the flickering flame of a lighter to tell reality.

[Mia Bell]

At least this time the reason why she was crying wasn’t because of Cameron. It was her own insecurity; it was because she felt so vulnerable. She was glad that he didn’t seem to notice her crying.

Mia grinned and laughed, “Okay, I trust you.” It was true, she did trust him and she knew he was only teasing her of when they first met. But it meant a lot to her that he remembered the smaller details of that day and what they had talked about. “Oh I can’t let you do that.” She felt weird letting him buy her coffee, she knew it meant nothing but she didn’t want to look like she was dependent on other people. She chuckled and shook her head “That’s terrible.”

Sighing she mentally cursed herself, she forgot that he had seen and written in the notebook before. She looked at him “I.. Well..” Now she was at a loss for words; she wasn’t sure what to say now. “Crap.. Okay someone stole it…” She stood up and walked to her dresser, watching her baby corn snake. “It smells like smoke because I was watching paper slowly burn.” She looked at the ground; she really couldn’t keep anything from him could she?

Mia looked at Cameron at his question, she never saw the ‘inception’. Naturally she didn’t get the connection. “If this isn’t reality than I rather not know what is.” Afraid that is would be worse for her. She shook her head and turned around, resting her butt on her dresser. “So, did anything new or exciting happen in the world of ‘Cameron’?” She was slowly trying to get away from her journal being stolen and the smoke.

[Cameron Osiris]

Small details, sure, Cameron remembered those all the time. Really, if it wasn't sexually related or somehow connected to adrenaline rushes, his memory was quite awful socially. He met and hung out with so many people that he had a hard time remembering everything about everyone. But Mia was quite memorable. Classes were a different story - he did his damndest to succeed in them.

"Fine, then I'll go out and get some and come back," he said. Cam was already standing, only a few feet away from the door. He would go get her something. "And if you don't tell me what you like, I'll just have to surprise you," he added with a shrug. It was her choice. Go with him, or stay and wait for her coffee.

"Stole it?" He asked, eyebrows knitted together. Why would anyone do that? "Probably because you have such a great way with words," he said with a small smile. He wanted her to smile back. "Is that why you're sad?" He ventured. He knew how much those words meant to her, and he really did understand. He followed her, momentarily forgetting about the coffee. "What's his name?" He asked, looking at the snake with glowing eyes. Cameron was smiling. He found the little critter really really cool.

He scratched the back of his head. "Er no, not really. I mean, I've been reading my text books, but I wouldn't count that as exciting," he said, laughing at himself. He could be such a nerd at heart. No, he was not partying all the time, contrarying to popular belief. And if there was a party going on and studying needed to be done, he made an appearance at the party and then went back to his dorm to study. Not that his life hadn't been boring either, but he supposed Mia wouldn't want to hear about his sleeping with a Brazilian boy named Fer. Or that he went out on a date with his roommate, something that had been much overdue in his opinion.

[Mia Bell]

Mia opened her mouth but then closed it not sure what to say. Why did he want to buy her coffee anyways? She didn’t think it was that much of a big deal. “You’re going to leave me?” She said with doe eyes and a pouty face. “Well it depends on where you’re going..” She smiled “Though surprises are awesome.” She would go, only for the fact to get out of her room, and to spend more time with the blonde.

She nodded “yeah.. I guess that’s what I get for taking everywhere I go.” She figured it had been some kid with nothing else to do, she also figured the person went to Hammel. There was no way they could have taken it out of her bag without her knowing. Mia looked at him her head tilted to the side a small smile on her face. “That could be a reason, but the only one who knows I’m great with words is you.” Considering she hasn’t really talked to a lot of people, at least not anyone she would have thought would steal her notebook. Mia nodded "Can't keep anything from you can I? But yeah I guess it is. Wouldn't you be if someone knew your thoughts and secrets? My whole life is in that notebook.."

Mia grinned at his curiosity of the snake. “This is Spike, he’s my baby.” She looked at Cameron and scratched the back of her head “Yeah I know it’s lame…” If anyone stole Spike she wouldn’t know what to do, he was all she had to remind her of her father, since he was the baby of her father’s snake. She grinned "Wanna hold him?"

Mia looked at him with an amazed look “Huh… See I figured you would be the type of guy who partied, have sex and partied more. Not really caring about school, or reading for that matter.” Was that really how she saw him? No, she knew there was more to the boy than what it seemed like on the outside. She smiled and shrugged “I guess you’re more of a dork than I thought. But then again I can’t say anything about it.” She said pointing to the many textbooks on her desk, no laptop to be found. She was too poor to own a laptop and she was okay with that. No She didn’t want to hear about his sex life, especially if it was with the Brazilian boy named Fer that she knew and was sort of friends with. Same with his date with his roommate, she was still trying to get over him loving someone else. But she would listen if he wanted to talk about it; the date not the sex.

She would probably get somewhat jealous of the girl or boy he had went out with; not to mention would feel a bit uncomfortable knowing it was his roommate. She walked closer to Cameron “So we going to get coffee or what. Since you want to get it so badly.”

[Cameron Osiris]

If it wasn’t such a big deal then she should just stop fighting him on it. “Only because you’re being difficult and won’t go out with me,” he said, thinking nothing of what he was saying, as usual. Words weren’t premeditated. Unless, he was trying to write a song, and that didn’t happen very often and didn’t work very well. “Well where do you want to go,” he said, very interested in what she wanted to do.

Cameron shrugged. “Maybe they left it somewhere, we can go look for it!” He said, clutching her hands in his and giving them a squeeze. He knew how much that thing meant to her. He’d do whatever he could to help, even shine a little light on the situation. He loved watching that smile. And then, the unthinkable happened. She managed to make him blush. Really? He was the only one who knew about her creative writing? He had a half smile on his face and didn’t know what to say, for once. And then he got angry. Why would anyone steal that from her? What a dick, whoever they were. “I’m sorry someone took it Mia,” he said softly. Really, he was. “But hey, at least you get to start a new journal or whatever, like a new chapter in your life.” He wasn’t trying to tug on her heartstrings, but she was certainly tugging his.

“Spike? Aw, I was sort of expecting you to name him after me,” Cam gave a little pout before chuckling. He held out his hands and made grabby motions like a small child. “Hell yes I want to hold him!” He smirked at her. “Don’t worry, I’ll be nice to him.” Cam wasn’t into animal cruelty.

Was it really that amazing? “I like partying and having sex, don’t think you have me all figured out just yet.” He laughed, trying to shrug off the subject. No one needed to know he wanted to go to university. He was a ‘here and now’ kind of guy, and he wasn’t supposed to give a shit, but he did. “No you can’t missy,” he said, shaking a finger at her. He’d be damned if this good guy persona got out in the open.

He laughed, getting behind her and shoving her out the door. “It’s not the coffee I want badly, I just wanna spend time with you and coffee? I can do that.”

[Mia Bell]

“Oh! How am I being difficult? I don’t believe you have ever asked me to go out with you.” How could she be difficult if he never gave her a chance? She didn’t get his logic, granted she had told him she didn’t want anything to do with relationships or dating but maybe Cam would be an exception. Now that she thought about it, that would probably stoke his ego knowing he would be an exception. “Oh Oh oh! Can we go to the doughnut place? Please?” Two of her guilty pleasures in one place, how lucky was she? The doughnut place did have coffee right?

Mia sighed “Maybe, but it’s probably ruined…” After her little thunder storm she doubted it was still intact if the person left it somewhere near the lake. She looked her hands as Cam squeezed them; her heartbeat picking up some. She saw the blush and tilted her head to the side a bit “Why are you blushing?” She thought it was cute, but what did she say? He wasn’t the only one, there were people back home who knew and here at Hammel Dr. Neville knew but he really didn’t count he knew almost everything about her. But Cameron was the only one who knew that she cared about. Mia smiled, she liked it when he said her name “It’s not your fault… But it’s fine, I guess.” She was really trying hard to hide how much her notebook being stolen was effecting her. She looked at him and gave him a small smile “I guess that’s one way to look at it.”

She looked at the ground “But it’s the part where someone I don’t even know, knows everything there is to know about me.. It scares me.” It terrified her really.

Mia laughed, “Well I didn’t know you when he was born…” Considering he was born, a week before she had came to Hammel. She smiled and shook her head as she took the lid off the tank and took Spike out. She watched as the snake wrapped itself around her fingers, she kissed his body gently before taking Cameron’s hand and letting the snake slowly work his way onto Cam’s hand. “If you do hurt him I will kick your ass. Don’t put him near any ledges… He will slither away if you’re not paying attention.” She shrugged “ You can take him to wherever we’re going too if you want.” She didn’t mind.

It really wasn’t that amazing, surprising yes. But Mia knew there had to be more to a person than what they let you see. “See, I knew it.” She chuckled “But it does seem like I have figured you out. The thing is there is still more to me that you don’t know.” Her secrets and personality, there was still a lot for Cameron to see and learn about the girl. Was that what made her so interesting?

“Hey stop pushing!” She didn’t like being pushed around, or being ‘manhandled’. “Aww that’s so sweet.” It was cute how he wanted to spend time with her, Mia was also grateful too.

[Cameron Osiris]

Cameron laughed. "It's just coffee Mia, come on, it'll be fun!" He said. Why, why why why why why must she fight him on everything? "Honestly, you argue with me about everything. Watch yourself, people might think we're an item." Now he was just teasing, if only to see how much more difficult she would become. "Yes!" He said, pointing at her in a 'bingo!' kind of way. "Hey, I heard that place is hiring," he wiggled his eyebrows, "two birds with one stone? Drop off resumes and then have coffee, best day ever." Every day was the best day ever.

"I'm not blushing," he said quickly, unwilling to admit to it. No, she had made it crystal clear, she wasn't interested in him. He may be good looking, but it ended there. And hadn't it ended there with Ravyn too? Did she just use him for make out sessions after they broke up? Hmm, he didn't want to think about that. "I find it best to look at the brighter side of things," he offered with a nod. And with that, he gave a flourish of his hand, a small orb of light floating there. It made his eyes glow and his smile a little brighter.

"Well if no one's threatened you with knowing everything about you yet, chances are they never will." It still didn't make sense why someone would take it...

Cameron was giggling like a little girl as the snake crawled all over him. "It tickles!" He said pleasantly, watching Spike with interest. "What kind of snake is he?" He asked, Spike's beady eyes uninterested in the blonde. It was just another human tree. He looked at her wide eyed. "Take him with us? That's not a good idea," he said. Where would they put him? In their clothes?

He laughed with her and closed the door behind them. "Doughnuts and coffee, why hasn't anyone thought of that before?" You know, other than Dunkin' Doughnuts, but he was ignoring that. "I think I have some extra change for half a dozen," he said, feeling around in his pockets, his fingers counting the change. "Seriously, I need to get a job," he said with a sigh.

[Mia Bell]

Mia sighed “just coffee..” Right, She felt like it would always be ‘just coffee’. “Fine, fine. Whatever.” What was the fun in ‘not’ fighting him? Besides, she would have thought he would have gotten it by now that she was only trying to protect her heart. She rolled her eyes “But it’s no fun if I don’t argue with you.” A slight blush creeped onto her cheeks at him mentioning people would think they’re an item. “Psh, whatever, that’s the last thing they would probably think.” She looked around the room avoiding Cameron’s gaze. Mia bounced up and down on the ball of her feet, not actually leaving the ground and clapped her hands together. “Yes! Wouldn’t it be great if we got to work at the same place?” She would get to see more of him that was for sure.

She stuck her tongue out “okay whatever.” She shrugged; she still wasn’t sure what she had said. She had made it clear that she was interested in relationships and him, but now he seemed to be pulling her in. No, for her it wasn’t just his looks; it was much, much more than that. It wasn’t everyday you found someone you were completely comfortable around. “I can’t always do that..” It was one the things she liked about Cameron and one of the reasons he always brightened her mood; because he always thought positive. “Huh, I guess your power suits you.” She said with a smile.

“What if they just don’t know how to find me? It did happen at the lake…” It wasn’t like it was on the school grounds.


Mia couldn’t help but giggle at him; she covered her mouth so he wouldn’t think she was rude. Watching him was quite cute. “Yeah, it a feeling you get used to.” She watched Spike and smiled as he asked more questions about the snake “He’s a corn snake.” She looked at him and shrugged “ I’ve done it before.” She placed her hand in front of Spike’s head and watched him as he found his way in her arm warmer. “See he likes it in there, and with that I get to sneak him around places. No one cares about baby snakes anyway, they don’t pay enough attention to my hands.” Mia carefully took him out of her arm warmer, put him back in his tank, and put the lid back on top making sure it was secure.

“I believe they have.. It’s called Dunkin’ Doughnuts.” They had one of those in another city her family went to on vacations. “We don’t need to get doughnuts if you don’t have the money..” She said as she watched him. She really wished she could help pay for it all. “You and me both sweetheart..” She walked out of the dorm and locked it behind Cameron.

[Cameron Osiris]

(OOC: Continued in: Coffee With My... Mia)