lie to me [denial] {open}

[Taeyeon Kai]

Anger beat like a Brazilian drum through her blood, coursing right under her golden skin, flushing it with roses and pink as she walked along the edge of the lake. So much anger made her too warm, so she walked in the chilly air with only a form-fitting T and her ripped jeans, trailing her light jacket behind her in a fist as her mahogany hair whipped behind her with the wind, raising goose bumps on her arms.

She had trusted him, had been his best friend since they were in diapers. She hadn't expected for that moment in her home to happen, had just let the heat of the instance to take them from watching a movie to gifting him her virginity. Her belly clenched painfully, so much so that she stopped and leaned against a tree, hugging her midsection.

Tears fell down her cheeks as her back slid down the tree, ignoring the painful rasp of skin against nature as her behind met the dirt floor. She had trusted him, and he had walked out on that trust. Her hands curled into fists and pounded the cold dirt beneath her as she felt her heart turn into dust.

[Catherine Novella]

((here i hope this works some))

Again Cat was lost. She had left looking for a store in pilot ridge but had somehow ended up at a lake. She was walking along trying to figure out where she was when she saw a girl with mahogany hair walking along the lake. She looked sad and angry at the same time. Cat wondered if she was going to be ok. The girl was clutching her stomach and was walking towards a tree. Silently Cat followed concerned. Cat wanted to make sure the girl was ok.
When the girl slumped down in front of the tree Cat went running towards her. She was shy sure but the girl looked as if she was in serious trouble. Cat just couldn’t let that go. Finally reaching the girl she sat down beside her and said. “Hey are you alright? I’m sorry but you don’t look all right. Can I give you a hug?” with that without waiting for the girls reply Cat hugged the girl, taking in all of the upset emotions that the girl was emitting. She may not be able to help a lot of people in her life time but Cat hoped that they might be able to open up to her.

[Taeyeon Kai]

She had only sat there for a couple of minutes before some stranger came and fell beside her, pale arms wrapping around her. Tae froze, not comprehending the situation. She wanted to be alone, not being hugged by some girl. She rose, struggling away from the blonde, her hazel eyes blazing with emerald green and bronze.

"What are you doing?" Tae demanded, anger replacing the sorrow. "What person goes around hugging random strangers?" She bent down and grabbed her jacket, walking a little ways away from the girl.

She stopped when the toes of her shoes met the lake's edge, her toes nudging some rocks into the water. Her posture was one of defeat, of a person who didn't care anymore.

[Catherine Novella]

Cat felt the girl freeze. Oh no, had she done something wrong? Suddenly Cat felt the girl struggle up, and push her away. Cat was sad. This was why she had closed off her heart before. The rare times Cat did show affection, she was pushed away. Cat sighed.

She looked up at the girl. “I’m hugging you. Or I was. You looked really sad and dejected and looked liked you needed a hug.” The next thing that came out of the girls mouth hurt. A lot. “Apparently I am the person who goes around hugging random people.” Cat looked down ashamed. Was she really unwanted? She watched the girl walk away from her. Cat could not decide what to do next. She didn’t want to leave the girl and end up lost again, and her certainty wanted the girl to be ok. Cat watched until the girl stopped a ways away. Slowly she got up, and started to move to her. She walked around her and faced the girl.

“Whatever is getting you down, don’t worry about it. Shit happens. But all we can do is move on with your lives, even if it is the worst thing in the world everyone needs someone to listen to them. Even if they deny it in their truest of hearts it is needed for the heart to heal. You may not wish to share with me, a random person who goes up hugging people who looked liked they needed a hug, or you may. The choice is yours, if you tell me to right to my face say that you are ok and want to be left alone I will, but if you find it in your heart to take a chance with a stranger, I think that you might at least be able to rant. Nothing can stop you. Nothing.” Cat looked up at the girl. It was the first time she had spoken a lot to someone she didn’t know. She was completely scared of hat might come out of the girl’s mouth next but had no other alternative then to wait it out. “I’m Cat by the way.”

[Taeyeon Kai]

The weird thing was, Tae didn't push the girl away like she did normally during a time like this. In earlier years, if Tae was upset, she'd hide in her room and keep other people away, hiding the hurt and pain inside and dealing with it her own way. She remembered the time Mamoru had to go away to University, leaving her behind by herself. She had hurt, missing the boy who had become her other best friend.

Tae looked up when the other girl stood in front of her. Her eyes were filled with tears, blurring her vision, but her ears caught every single word the other girl spoke. "I slept with my best friend...and it was the worst mistake I ever made," she replied, looking away from the girl named Cat. "I should have never done it in the first place."

She looked down, her hand coming to wipe away the liquid from her eyes. "My name's Taeyeon, but you can call me Tae."

[Catherine Novella]

Cat looked at the girl; she was trying not to cry. Cat looked down at her feet. She was not quite sure about how to go about this, but she had gotten herself here, she was going to see this through. Cat listened when the taller girl spoke. She sighed. She was sure that this girl did not want pity; she just wanted someone to listen and to let it all out. Cat was about to comment on the sleeping with the best friend thing when she heard the next thing, It was the biggest mistake of her life? Cat tried to process this through her head. She was doing this when the girl turned away from her.

The next thing the girl said Cat could barely hear. I should have never done it in the first place, the words ringing through her ears. Walking up to the girl she looked at her. It was evident that she was hurting, bad. Cat standing on the very top of her toes, patted the taller girl on the head. She could not imagine the grief, the pain that this girl was going through. She was not always the most social of people, but Cat was sure that this girl just needed a friend. She looked up at her again. “I can’t imagine the pain, the grief, the suffering that you are going through. I admit to that. I do admit that I am here to listen, to take in all this pain, sadness, grief and suffering that you are harboring inside. You need to let it all out for your heart to even have a chance to heal.” Cat wondered if she was pushing it, but she was sure that that is what the girl needed. “I promise I won’t comment until you are done, but do you want to tell me the whole story? It is ok if you don’t. I understand.” Cat looked the girl straight in the eye. “It is nice to meet you Tae, even if it is not under the best of circumstances.”