TIME WARP: I'll Always Remember... (Dani)
Aug 24, 2011 20:10:34 GMT -5
Post by Danicca Waylan on Aug 24, 2011 20:10:34 GMT -5
[D]A[N]I[C]C!?So. Turns out, emotions don't just go away because you want them to, even if you act like they don't exist for a while. They still come back and slap you in the face when you least want them to show up. At least there wasn't an audience that could hear her thoughts. As far as she knew.
So it was with a painful throbbing in her head, seeming to transfer half the pain from her heart to her frontal lobe , that she continued joking with Jared. It was not exactly effortless, but she managed to make her tone and manner easy and light, not showing the screaming, growling monster that was threatening to take over her mind before long. She'd save that one for after Jared left in the morning, when she could call in sick and watch a nine-or-more-hour marathon of Disney movies to cry to. "You do realize I use whatever words I want. But yes, mad as in crazy could work too." She grinned at him, her best cheshire-cat kind of grin spreading across her features, and then let her yes-still-boyfriend kiss her forehead. She really didn't appreciate the cheek pinch, though she tolerated it for Jared's sake. He needed her to not freak out right now. She could handle that much at least. So she just acted like she usually would: she joked about everything. "They can watch all they want; they're wondering how long it is until one of us runs away crying, and they're not gonna get to see that part unless I say something to offend you."
She was faced with a new set of problems when dessert came around. She would have to play sweet, forgiving Dani, totally and completely. No room for slipping up. No matter how much she wanted to yell at him. She smiled. Tilted her head cutely. Squeezed his hands back. Everything she was expected to do. Even offered the kind of genuine forgiveness she wasn't ready to give, but spoke anyway. "It's all right, Jared. I understand why you would do it that way." Really she didn't, but words are words. They don't hold much meaning, if tonight was any example. She pulled one hand back at the mention of keys, though, pulling at the chain around her neck. Even if she was mad, and hurt, she did want to do this. She pulled it over her head and out of her dress, revealing the second key that had been made, metallic blue with a J etched into it to go with Dani's metallic green key with a D etched into it. She took her other hand from his grasp and undid the chain, letting the blue key slide off of the chain and into her boyfriend's hand.
She smiled genuinely. "It's yours. Keep it for when you drop by to visit--and I expect that to be any. Time. You can. Got that, Jared?" She raised her eyebrows. She wanted him to just... remember her. Even if the relationship died when he left for Vancouver, and even if she was still hurt about it, she loved him and wanted him to have a way to make it into her house. Even if he didn't want to anymore at some point, he was always going to be welcome in her home.
Whether he knew it or not, she was going to make everything well again. How she was going to do that started with making sure they did things together before he left, things that made both of them forget either of them would be apart. She wanted to make sure these last... how much time was left? "Uh, Jared, honey? How... When are you lea--when do you need to be in Vancouver?" It would be good to know how much she could schedule them to do, how many days off she'd need for before he headed off, to spend time with him, and what days after, to cry into her pillow.-♥-
Dani was satisfied with the dinner. She hated how the conversation around it went, mostly because of the fact that Jared needed to be in Vancouver in way too short a time, but she had enjoyed the food itself. She reached out and took Jared's hand from the steering wheel--despite it being against proper driving training, he only needed one hand to steer--and kissed his fingers, then continued holding his hand while they rode along in silence. She looked down at his hand in both of hers, contemplating the evening. She had simmered down considerably, but now she was on the verge of tears again over the fact that she would wake up in such an unbelievably short amount of days and realize that she was alone. No Jared to call and make sure she woke up in the morning on important days; no Jared coming over for "movie night", in which they watched a movie for all of a half hour before they started talking, kissing, or falling asleep, depending on how the night went. No more Dani nearly burning the house down making dinner for Jared, only not burning the entire house and its occupants to a crisp because Jared remembered where the fire extinguisher was.
This was going to be a rough year. By all rights Dani should be given paid sick leave for half of it. She would be feeling outright awful for about that long.
If she didn't accidentally kill herself somehow first.
