Er, Did I Say That? (Ravyn, Mia.)

[Cameron Osiris]

Smiling weakly, Cam didn’t know how to put it in a way she would understand. “I don’t know, I guess everyone deserves to be trusted. I don’t have anything to hide, I just didn’t see how my story was lying until now.” Really, he honestly didn’t. “I trust you because you just accept me as I am.” Warts and all. Cameron may pretend to be a prince, but he knew he was far from it. He was just some trailer trash boy from California with a knack for thrill seeking. He wasn’t special, but he did like making people smile. So this, this was devastating for him.

After listening, Cameron understood better than before as to why Mia wasn’t interested in any type of romantic relationship. “I know what it feels like to be abandoned by those you love,” he said, a peace offering. He took a look at the spot by the pond where he had sat next to Ravyn. “I know what it feels like to be second best, and I’m not just talking about Ravyn.” No, he was talking about his mother. He gave her a hard look. “You’re still my friend. A little rain isn’t going to drive me away.” He was a fierce friend, and if she yelled at him again, he would accept it. He had been an ass, and it wasn’t everyday he opened up like this to someone.

“Come on, let’s go inside,” he said, his mind dwelling on what she said as he tugged her along by the hand. Cam pushed his sopping hair out of his face upon entering Hammel. Who knew this would be such a weird day. Mia wasn’t the only one with issues. Cam just couldn’t say no, to anyone. “I don’t think it’s fair for Ravyn to date someone else and then if that doesn’t work out, come back to me,” he chanced a glance at Mia. He wanted to ask her what she thought, help him develop a backbone and say no to Ravyn, but Mia was already in the middle of this fiasco and Cam just didn’t have the heart to hurt her more, especially when he hadn’t wanted to in the first place.

[Mia Bell]

Mia nodded to the part where everyone deserved to be trusted; but she was still wondering if she deserved to be trusted. She never gave anyone a reason not to trust her, but she couldn’t help but think who would trust the girl that couldn’t be trusted with her own life? She didn’t like how this situations was bringing out all her insecurities. She tilted her head to the side she was utterly confused by what he meant. “What do you mean you didn’t know you were lying?” She didn’t sound angry, her voice was calm, she was calm but she was just confused by what he meant. How could he not know he was lying? He had told Ravyn they were dating, was she missing something?

“Of course I do, but I can’t be the only one who does.” Ravyn instantly popped into her head. If Ravyn loved him than she accepted everything there was about the boy. At least that was her version of what love was, to be able to accept everything about someone, even their flaws, to not just love the person but also love their flaws. She looked at her wrists; At least that’s what she needed to believe, for her sanity. She knew Cameron wasn’t perfect, his ego was his own flaw. But she accepted it and his ego was beginning to grow on her. It reminded her that it was okay to be selfish and vein sometimes. She gave him a weak smile.

Mia ran both her hands through her hair. “I have been abandoned many times..” That wasn’t something she meant to say, her eyes widened “I didn’t mean to say that out loud..” But it was true, her first boyfriend, her father and brothers, her last boyfriend but she didn’t really love him and all of her friends. She gulped, she was starting to grow tired of people leaving. She nodded her understanding, though Ravyn was the only reason why she felt second best at this point, she still understood. She looked at him in amazement; after all this she was still his friend, she was convinced there was nothing she could do to push him away. That frightened her a bit but it also comforted her. She hugged him “And you’re still my friend.” He was her first friend since the events in her life and she would always remember that.

Mia nodded “alright.” She followed him, she looked at the hand Cameron was holding. It had been about a year since anyone has held her hand in anyway; she missed it. Mia shook her head like a dog would do to get the excise water off of her hair; she than ran her fingers through her hair to get it out of her face.

Taking a deep breath, she looked at Cameron when he brought up Ravyn. Did he really want her opinion on the situation? If not she was giving it to him anyway; she wanted to help in some way; even if it hurt her. She tried to remain biased, she knew she could easily tell him to forget Ravyn for her own benefits; but she wasn’t that type of person and will never be. Mia had always been the type of person to put others first.

“It isn’t fair, to you or to whoever the other person she’s interested in or even to herself. But if you really want to hear my opinion I don’t think Ravyn means it that way.” She looked at Cameron; she didn’t know the whole story but she did believe that there was more to it than that. “Truthfully, I think she does have a right to see other people. She has a right to find the security of knowing that you are the only guy for her. Even if that means her having to date other guys. And from what it sounds like I think it’s healthy for her to find her own way in life and figure out what she wants. It seems like she has become too dependent on you, and I think that is why she wants to have that security that no matter what happens she has you to fall back on.” Yes this was long, she had a lot to say about all this.

“Am I saying that is fair? No, it’s not fair for you, it’s not fair to her and it’s not fair to the other people you both date. She shouldn’t have asked you or told you or whatever it was she did that she wants to go back to you if it doesn’t work out with other people. It’s no healthy for any of you. It’s not healthy for either of you because it’s going to be in the back of you mind all the time, it’s not going to help you sort out your feelings. Truthfully you both need to just forget about each other for awhile, just so she can find her own independence and so you can figure out what you want. If you both keep thinking that there is a chance that you guys will get back together you’re not helping yourselves. I’m not saying you guys won’t end up back together but it will be easier on both of you to go about your lives like you won’t. It will be easier if in fact you guys don’t end up together, it will be easier if one of you finds someone else, because the other person has already came to terms of that happening. And if you guys get back together than great and at least you know that you actually truly love each other and it wasn’t just puppy love.” There she said it.

(ooc: sorry it's so long ;-

[Cameron Osiris]

Everyone needed someone to rely on sometimes. Maybe Cam didn’t have a hot clue about the mechanics of a romantic relationship, but he was a damn good friend, and would be there if someone needed him. Of course that meant someone would have to admit that to him first, but somewhere beneath the asshole show he put on, he really was a good guy. It was just going to take some time and practice to get to that part of him. Glimpses of that could be seen already. “Well I knew I was lying...” Great, he had just lied again. He sighed, raising his hands. “Never mind, I’m an idiot.”

Ravyn accepted everything that she knew about Cam – so far. Not every secret had been spilled. Hell, he only found out she had a brother after they broke up. It was probably just puppy love, but Cameron wasn’t having any of it. He smiled a bit at her. “No, but I didn’t say that. What I’m saying is you accept me, so then, I trust you.” It was like math. One plus one equals two. You trust me, I trust you.

Staring at her with doe eyes, Cameron hoped they’d be friend for a while. At least until he graduated. “I think you trust me too,” he said, a bit of hope in his voice. It’d be nice, to have that. Cam hugged her gently before pulling them out of the rain. Sometimes you needed someone to save you from yourself.

Raising an eyebrow, Cam was eager to hear the inner workings of the female psyche. It was a lot to take in but it did make sense. It wasn’t fair but Ravyn wanted a break from him to see if she was strong enough on her own first. Unfortunately, Cam was still not completely getting it, most of what Mia was saying was going over his head because he couldn’t understand why someone would leave when they were so good together. It was like a limb had been torn away from him. Hadn’t he been good to her? He sighed, really it did seem like his thoughts were true. Puppy love. This was a reality check.

“So what you’re saying is, she needs space,” he said, his eyebrows furrowed together as he tried to piece things up. “I guess that makes sense, but it doesn’t feel any better.” So honest, it was brutal. Too brutal. “I wasn’t trying to control her or anything, I just thought we’d get back together because we kept fooling around and stuff,” Cam admitted candidly. Maybe he was being a little possessive, but he just wanted to know what the twins had that they didn’t that made it okay to date them and not him. Maybe they moved so slow that in all the time she wouldn’t spend with them, she would find herself whereas when she was with him, he tried taking up as much space as possible. Ugh, this was a disaster.

“So I guess I got to see one of your storms,” he said, smiling a bit.

[Mia Bell]

Mia didn’t care that Cameron could be an ass sometimes, hell she was an ass sometimes and knew it. It was standing in the rain completely soaked with the boy that made her see there was more to him than the obvious. Mia was too proud to admit she needed help, she was only just now coming to terms with the fact she needed help mentally. But she always had her arms open for when others needed help; like how Cam needed her help now, even if he didn’t say he did.

She groaned not because he had lied again but because she wanted to understand the boy better and he wasn’t helping. “Cameron… You are an idiot but only because you’re male.” She smiled at him; hopefully it made him smile too. “But seriously Cameron… I want to know.” She wanted to know a lot, all of this made her more curious. “I feel like you’re avoiding the subject..”

Mia was jealous of that, that Ravyn accepted everything about Cameron. She wished just one person would accept the things about her; it would make her feel much better about herself. She nodded “I see. I’m glad you trust me.” Even if she didn’t fully understand it. “I do trust you…” It hurt a little but she trusted him and she really hoped he wouldn’t take advantage of knowing that.

She wondered if she had gone in too depth about her opinion. She could have made it shorter, but she didn’t think Cameron would understand all of it that way. At least now, he could understand where Ravyn was coming from. He might not like it and it might hurt but still. It was up to them to decide whether it was puppy love or not, she couldn’t tell him that. She just wanted both of them to be happy. She really didn’t get love herself and if she was in his shoes she would still feel a little confused over the situation too.

“Well.. Yeah.. I guess that’s the really short version.” Mia sighed, she really did feel for him; she placed a hand on his shoulder “I know it doesn’t and I’m sorry. If you ever need someone to talk to; I’m always here for you. I’m a great listener and I’ll give you my opinion, even if you don’t want it.” Of course she could live without him talking about how great Ravyn was, she really didn’t want to have to hear about how much better Ravyn was than she. “I’m sorry.” That did hurt, but she pushed passed it; she couldn’t let her feelings get in the way with this. And now she needed to guard to heart even more with Cameron.

Mia laughed “eh.. yeah, sorry about that. I really hope the rain doesn’t turn into hail during the winter though.” She would love it if it turned into snow though. She turned away from Cameron and sneezed as she covered her mouth. “damn it..” She mumbled; that was not a good sign. She sniffed and regained herself before turning back to him “sorry..”

[Cameron Osiris]

Cameron hoped that Mia knew he would return the favour, but god forbid she go tell anyone he has a heart.

“I have penis syndrome,” he said with a sigh, like have a y chromosome was some kind of flaw. “I’m not trying to avoid it, it’s not something I can avoid.” Cameron knew he told tall tales, it just wasn’t every day that he became caught up in them. But how to explain that and still be trusted by Mia? They had gotten so close and he didn’t want to ruin that. He smiled at her softly, glad for the trust. “I don’t want to break it, so if I ever do, just yell at me.” He was still human after all, and wasn’t about to make promises he couldn’t keep.

“You seem kind of sensitive about the whole relationship thing,” it was like walking on eggshells, “you sure you want me talking about this stuff with you?” He knew they were friends, but he wanted to remain so. He wanted things to be more like this between him and Ravyn, but she was long gone already. ‘Always here for you’ usually had a price tag, if not limitations and boundaries.

“What? You wouldn’t be able to change the state the water’s in?” He asked. Powers were just the damnedest things. Cam’s lips quirked up into a half smile and he sighed. “Maybe we can hang out again soon, I’d like that. But if you don’t change you’re gonna get sick,” he said, obviously concerned. The events of two minutes past felt like a lifetime ago already as he gave her another hug, a kiss on the cheek near her ear, and then walked back to his dorm. He didn’t want to sit and dwell on this. Life had too much to offer him.

[Mia Bell]

Mia chuckled and shrugged innocently “Sorry?” She tilted her head, he seemed to be avoiding it to her. She shrugged “okay. It doesn’t matter anymore.” It happened, she understood; that was all to it. Cameron would figure out she was a very forgiving person, not to people she didn't liked but she almost always forgave her friends when they did something wrong against her. It was pretty hard to break her trust, she trusted people so easily too. She smiled at him “It’s not that easy to break my trust.. But I’ll keep that in mind.”

“It doesn’t matter now does it?” It was like walking on glass for her. She nodded “Don’t worry about me, this is about you. I’m here for you; to talk to or just in general. “ She was the kind of person to push past her feelings and emotions when it came to her friends, she would do anything for them. That was just the type of person Mia was and she wasn’t about to change that.

“I think it has to do with the climate on whether it changes or not, I don’t think I can control it.” But still, she rather not have it turn into hail, snow yes not hail. She gave him one of her warm smiles “I would love to hang out with you again soon.” She looked down at her wet clothes and then at his and tugged at his shirt “You need to change too.” Mia blinked and took a sharp breathe when he kissed her, it was on the cheek but she wished he hadn’t. She placed her hand where he kissed her and watched him walk away. It took her a second or two to snap out of it and walk back to her own dorm; the least place she wanted to be right now but she had to change. She really did hope Cameron would be alright.