I can do this! (Leiken)

[dogmatic]

Kennedy started seeing spots before her eyes and exhaled harshly, only just realizing she'd held her breath. The sight of drying blood on the ice made her very nervous and her unfortunate dog half made her able to scent it very strongly.

After a few very long moments, the shifter struggled to kick her brain back in gear and functioning again. She swore she'd kept telling him over and over she didn't remember but maybe he thought she was lying? And why would she even lie about something like that? What kind of person made terrifying threats to strangers?

She blinked and mumbled an apology for staring at him, showing her discomfort in her tense posture and too nervous to look him in the eye.

'What do I say to him? He's an angry and possibly dangerous person, there's -blood- on the ground with no explanation and for all I know he could be a murderous killer! I've already assured him twice that I don't remember. He knows all about me because I couldn't hide it, but he -threatens- me for politely asking his reason for being at Hammel?'

Her blue eyes remained uneasily on the blood spattered snow with -her paw prints- over it. Obviously he knew about her and didn't want to talk about it and she couldn't just take off because her quick shift left her exhausted; where did that leave her? Kennedy snuffled quietly, sounding just too much like a frustrated dog, though she had no idea.

He didn't want to talk to her, told her to not even -look- at him, so now what?! She bit her lower lip, trying not to think too much about the blood or how cold she was getting. She just needed a little longer to regain at least some basic strength. It was yet another incredibly awkward moment in her life that would surely see the pages of her diary.

[Leiken Chu]

Lei tensed a bit, unsure of this woman, or what her intentions were. Why was she being so quiet? Was she still terrified of him? Was she so terrified that words would not escape her even after him trying to make her stop staring at him as if he were a monster.

'A monster, jeeze, even the shifter sees it.' he thought to himself as he took a step away from her. His hands shoving into his pockets a bit. His shoulders slouched over as he turned to walk away from the field, "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to scare you." Lei murmured this as he began to walk back toward the school.

What an impression he was leaving. He wasn't even really sure why he cared. he never had before about impressions or what people thought of him. Though ever since he had begun to make friends it seemed like it was becoming more important a factor to him. What were they doing to him? Maybe he was letting people get to close.

[dogmatic]

"I'll accept your apology.... if only you'll tell me what's upset you so greatly. If it's just my presence, I think I have the strength to walk back now if I walk slowly. You have only to tell me."

Kennedy offered in a timid voice to Lei's retreating back. There was a good chance that he'd ignore or worse, threaten her again, but she couldn't bear to have someone mad at her without knowing why. It happened so often since this whole damn annoying shifting thing started.

She'd kept so much to herself physically and verbally, that she was still a relatively unknown student. Her attendance was regular, and while her grades were good, they were unremarkable for the most part.

There was something tormented in Lei's beautiful eyes and she couldn't help but be drawn to him. Her gentle soul didn't like anyone to be miserable and although she wasn't the outgoing type, she did -try- to help when and where she could.

Would he turn around? Or answer? One unhappy heart could usually recognize another and Kennedy hoped that they wouldn't part ways with him still so troubled.

[Leiken Chu]

Lei made a sound, feeling like an absolute ass to those words, he sighed heavily. "eh.. look... if you accept my apolgy then just.. don't worry about it okay? If you don't remember anything, it's better that way, pouring my heart out to a dog is one thing. Doing it to an attractive woman i would never live down." He muttered toward her

he didn't turn around just yet, but instead his hands pushed burried deeper into his own pockets until it strained the very fabric that the were made of, "Please don't worry about it okay? It's my own problem. You don't need to burden yourself with it. It's better that way. "

Lei hated his life sometimes. He wanted badly to make friends, to be normal, but something within him just refused to let it happen normally. He always had to try harder than most people always had to deal with more anxiety about it. He felt like a big mess most of the time. A big unfixable mess.

[dogmatic]

Kennedy's eyebrows shot up and her mouth made a moue of surprise. Attractive? Her? Really, he -must- be teasing her again to say such things! She shook her head until her blond curls loosened from their pins and she watched him curiously.

There was no need for him to be so alone, so miserable like this. For the life of her she simply couldn't fathom why someone who seemed to have everything in looks would be so unhappy. Was it that he just got too much attention from people? It would make the most sense as to why he would push people away. Perhaps he was overwhelmed with others fawning over him to make him reject any company?

Dog-like, she tilted her head to the side and said cautiously,

"You can't carry the world on your shoulders, broad as they are."


**quote by Jana Oliver**

[Leiken Chu]

Leiken made a pained expression, "It is my world I carry. Though sometimes I wish it would get off my back." he stated with a shake of his head. His hand raising to ruffle the mess of his own hair a bit. As if it woudl somehow knock those problems from his head though the effort was futile.

"I know it must be hard not being able to remember between your forms, but you really...really have no idea how wonderful not remembering things can be. There is alot I wish that I could not remember. i was happier when I could not. now that I can all i want to do is run." he stated as he laughed a little.

"I bet you would have ran with me as your other form."

[dogmatic]

Not since her first shifting had Kennedy wanted to change over so badly. Her trainer had been trying to motivate her into wanting to change, stating that it would make the most significant difference. Every sinew, tendon and bone was like a throbbing tooth ache, but Leiken only seemed to accept her in dog form.

Kennedy had never actually tried voluntarily to change, with the sole purpose of truly wanting to do so. She'd spent months trying to make the trainer happy, but changing wasn't something she'd ever -wanted- for herself; until now.

She ignored that it would cost her tremendously to change again so soon. The inconvenience of ending up ravenously hungry meant nothing next to a taste of both acceptance and freedom.

"I can do this!" the girl murmured, emotionally psyching herself up.

When the beautiful boy mentioned a run, there was nothing she longed for more at that moment. With a yell of pain that turned into a howl, soft white fur covered pink skin and her spine, collar bone and shoulders melded, shifting into an animal that was born to run.

For the first time ever in all of Kennedy's years of trying and practicing with no results, she shifted forms purposely!