Feelings? Ewww. (Oriel)

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(Set back Sept. 1)

Phoenix yawned and stretched his arms above his head as he walked down the hall, having done nothing all day but laze around in his room and sketch his hallucinations. He hadn't gone on the retreat over the weekend (because ew, being in the outdoors), and he had to admit he was happy people were back, because while he wasn't a social butterfly in the least, he did have people he liked to see on a regular basis. Not that he would ever admit that.

One of the newest of these people was a particularly interesting catch he had made recently (at least that's how he saw it). He had managed to squeeze Oriel's room number out of him during on of their meetings, and was heading there now, feeling the need for a little pick-me-up or... Something. He just wanted some (sexy) human interaction.

He bothered to knock once before pushing the door of common room of dorm 204 open, only to be met with the boy he was looking for already there, watching a movie. "Ain't you a sight for sore eyes," Phen greeted with a faint smirk, moving to flop next to the boy on the couch. "How was the retreat?"

He nestled himself against Oriel's arm, blinking at the burst of colors that ribboned out of the TV screen as he glanced at the movie. Oof, there was a reason he didn't use technology when he was tripping. It was wearing off, though, so it wasn't as bad as it could have been; in fact, Phen had noticed that his hallucinations hadn't been as strong in general lately, no matter how much he took in. It worried him a bit, but he decided to ignore it, as he did with most of his problems. "My bed was awfully cold while you were gone," he added, glancing back at Oriel with a small flick of his tongue.

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Oriel had thoroughly enjoyed himself on the retreat, but coming back to Hammel had been….a little more stressful thank he'd hoped. The time away was a great distraction from, but now that he was back, Oriel was going to have to deal with everything he'd been avoiding the past few weeks.

There was no longer any hope of repairing the rift between him an Kodah. Madison was gone, and Oriel had no idea that it would bother him as much as it had. And that was depressing.

Life was depressing.

Oriel wasn't sure if he was going to be able to sleep tonight. Which was why when the knock came at the door and Phoenix helped himself in, Oriel was actually really glad to see him. Relieved, in fact.

He smiled then turned his eyes back to the television, watching Tevye shake and dance around while singing about what he would do "If he were a rich man". "Shhh," he whispered to Phen as he helped himself to Oriel's arm and asked about the retreat. Oriel wanted to finish the movie first at least….then again it was still close to the beginning. "I'm sure it was." Oriel shifted himself and wrapped his arm around Phoenix, pulling his warmth in close. Looks like he was going to get some sleep tonight.

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Phoenix was doing pretty okay, besides the potential dust problem, but as stated, he was ignoring that. He had been mopey over the long weekend, but that had been his own fault for not going on the stupid retreat. Meh, he wasn't going to regret that. He hoped. Unless Oriel told him it was great and he should have gone. Mehh.

He pouted as Oriel seemed more interested in the television than him, and nudged him a bit hard with his elbow, scowling as he was shushed. "I haven't seen you in like five days, an' you want to watch a dumb... What are ya even watchin'?" he mumbled, trying to focus enough on the television to tell what was on the screen. It was still too ribbon-color-y for him to tell, but he didn't recognize the song.

He let out a soft sigh as Oriel's arm wrapped around him, resting his head on the boy's shoulder. Phen usually didn't get this comfortable around people so quickly... There was just something about Oriel that was extremely inviting and attractive to Phoenix, and it wasn't just the fact that he was sexy as fuck. "I want you," he began, giving Oriel a peck on the cheek,"t' tell me," another,"that the retreat was lame and I didn't miss out on anythin'." One more, a bit softer and more lingering this time, until he pulled back and pouted once more.

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The retreat was great. Phen really should have gone… then again, if Phoenix had gone too, then Oriel would probably have spent the entire time with him(or Lux) and wouldn't have had the chance to engage in all the other activities that had managed to thoroughly distract him from the shit gone wrong in his life.

Oriel chuckled lightly, "A musical. Fiddler On The Roof." It was one of his favorites. "You seen it?" He looked down at Phen, raising an eyebrow and giving a half-smile.

Right now…Oriel wasn't sure what he wanted, but he definitely wanted Phen there. Though he reeeally wanted to finish this movie. Why couldn't Phen just hold out? Couldn't they just….sit here, like this for a while? Sure, he liked the sex, but…he didn't know. It was just so confusing sometimes.

Oriel tightened his arm around Phen as he came in closer. He wasn't bothered by the kisses, but… "Ok.." smiled again and gently lifted Phen's chin up, meeting their lips in a long slow kiss, giving the other boy a few extra moments of himself before breaking. "It was horrible, you missed absolutely nothing." He kissed him again then turned his attentions back to the movie, holding Phen's head into his shoulder. "Watch the movie."

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Phen probably would have had fun, if he could have gone long enough without taking dust to actually be able to soak in anything. And besides... Sex in the woods? That was something he definitely wanted to try eventually.

He blinked, a little surprised. "I can't say I have," he mumbled. "I don't... I don't think I've ever seen a musical." He didn't watch much television in general - he had enough of a trip in his own world to keep himself occupied. He hadn't expected Oriel to be the type to watch what he had always thought of as a dumb genre of movie. Maybe he would have to reconsider.

Phen could... He could hold out for a bit. He was actually enjoying just feeling Oriel's warmth beside him; something that simple was what he had missed the most. It was nice. It would have been nicer, though, if he could actually pay attention to what Oriel was so interested in. Fuck, he was getting soft.

"That's better," he mumbled as Oriel lifted his chin to press their lips together, kissing him languorously for as long as he offered, smiling faintly as they broke apart. "Good, I'm glad." He sensed it was probably a lie, but he didn't want to think about it. He allowed Oriel to shift his head back in place, still smirking a bit as he turned his attention to the screen.

He tried. He really tried to focus on what was going on and enjoy the movie, but it was giving him a headache trying to stare at it with the dust still slowly dying in his system, and eventually he just closed his eyes and listened to the ridiculous singing and dialogue. He... Liked this. Just sitting here in each other's presence, not going through foreplay or romping around on each other, just... Being.

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Sex in the woods…and that was exactly the reason why Oriel was glad that Phoenix didn't come along because as much as Oriel enjoyed their bedroom adventures together, he didn't want to spend all his time doing that. And if Phen had come, Oriel knew that that's exactly what they would have been doing the whole time.

Then again, Phoenix was being very cuddly today. Well, he knew Phoenix liked cuddles after the fact, but there usually wasn't much of it before the fact, especially not in such a….normal…scene such as this.

It was a nice change.

He was enjoying simply holding the other boy, feeling the weight of him against his side, feeling his breath rise and fall in the close embrace of his arms, while they(or at least Oriel) focused on watching a simple movie. If Phen had been observing anything else in the room, he might have noticed the stack of DVDs next to the television, a sample of his personal collection that he'd slowly accumulated over time: My Fair Lady, The Music Man, Singing In The Rain, The Producers, Oklahoma!….he had more tucked away in the back of his closet. Oriel glanced down at Phen, and noticed his eyes were closed. "You sleeping? Is it that boring?" He snickered then gave him a quick peck on the head.

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It was hard for Phen to start realizing that he might enjoy Oriel's company more for than what they just did in bed. It was... Strange. But nice. And Phoenix just didn't know what to think about it.

And the cuddling was oddly enjoyable. After getting the point that Oriel wasn't up for bedroom shenanigans right away, Phen managed to accept it and was grudgingly thankful that it hadn't just turned into what it normally did when they hung out. Oriel was turning out to be way more complex and interesting than Phoenix had first thought. He really was getting soft.

He hadn't noticed the DVDs in the corner (he was very bad at observing things in general), but he certainly would have made fun of Oriel had he noticed. He would definitely not admit that he was entertained by what parts of the movie he could see and understand and, occasionally, relate to. His eyes fluttered open as Oriel spoke, and he looked up at the boy through his lashes as he felt the light kiss. "Nn, I have a headache," he replied quietly, shifting a bit more comfortably against Oriel's side. "You have an interestin' taste in movies," he added, squinting at the screen again. It was a little more bearable, so he kept his eyes halfway open, wishing he had some pain medication or something to get rid of the throbbing in his head. It was his own fault, but he didn't want to say that. "I didn't think you were a musical type'a guy," he mumbled. "What else are you into that I don't know about?" Phen smirked a bit, but he was surprised to realize that he really did want to learn more about Oriel.

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A fact that few people realized until they were actually close enough to be significant to Oriel. The boy was a cuddlier. Despite not liking to be touched, especially by people he didn't know, he really liked to touch and nuzzle and cuddle, especially when it was someone he deemed as being important to him(which more than half of them he'd labeled as his possession). And Phoenix was quickly becoming one of those people.

Damn…why did he get attached to people so easily? They were just going to leave him in the end.

Don't think about that, he ordered himself.

"I see," Oriel said. So Phen had a headache? Which probably meant he was high on his dust. Oriel took a deep, frustrated breath. He really wished Phen could lay off that stuff, no good could come from drugging yourself up. Though it was true that sometimes Oriel felt like getting drunk just to escape his problems. Which he wasn't about to start doing again. Watching sappy musicals alone in the dark was going to have to do.

Well, he wasn't alone today, at least.

"Heh…" Yeah, interesting. "Lots of stuff, I bet." Oriel rolled his eyes back a second as he thought over things Phoenix might not know about him. "Well, you already know about the kinky shit." First hand even. "Uh…I'm a dancer. Used to do a lot of that shit back in NYC 'fore I got here." Anything else significant. "I watch a lot of other movies n' shit, but I got into musicals when I used to hide out in the theaters on Broadway." Those were the best places to sleep, but he'd get kicked out right away if he got caught. He thought some more. "I climb shit. Ain't never been nothing I found that I couldn't figure out how to climb." Oriel wondered how long it'd been since he'd shared so much about himself so seriously. He grinned widely and snickered, taking his eyes away from the movie for a brief moment. "I got 'bout a dozen or so plans on how I'm gonna take over the world."

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Phoenix was... Well, to be completely honest, he didn't really have a lot of people to cuddle. He had Kam, and that was about it, unless he managed to get a random hookup, in which case he usually had them for about a day and then it all when to shit. This was... New. Oriel had sparked an interest in him that he hadn't felt since...

No, it wasn't anything at all like that. This was just a relationship about sex and all that physical shit. Right? The more Phoenix thought about it, the more uncertain he got. When was the last time he had bothered to actually go seek someone out for nothing more than relaxing and being in each other's company? He... Couldn't recall. Fuck.

He glanced up again as Oriel spoke, catching the sigh and frowning. Yeah, he was pretty much always hallucinating. It was how he coped, how he managed the shit life he felt he was living ever since Rue had left and made him feel like he was worthless again. Maybe, maaaybe he could get by not having it when he was around Oriel. The boy was pretty good at keeping his mind occupied, at least.

He let out a snort and a chuckle at the mention of kinky things. "Like hell I do," he mumbled. That, he enjoyed, as weird as it may have been to some. He blinked in surprise as Oriel continued, quickly learning several things about him that he never would have guessed. "You'll have t' dance for me sometime," he suggested, finding he felt sympathetic for the boy about hiding out in places back in New York. Once again, he realized that could have been him in Seattle, if his mother hadn't been so adamant about keeping him around. "Well, I seem t' recall you falling out of something you climbed back when we first met," he smirked, leaning in a bit and pressing his mouth against Oriel's ear for a brief moment. "Evil Overlord, yeah? Need any help with that?" He couldn't help but go with it.

He paused, wondering if this was when he should share something about himself. But the truth was... He didn't really have anything to share. Phen had very few hobbies, apart from snorting dust and pretending like his life wasn't pathetic and miserable. "I'm from Seattle," he offered, thinking that was about as good a place to start as any. He snorted a bit. "Got involved with hallucinogens when I was barely a teenager. Then a few years later, my abilities manifested and I got stuck with fuckin' fairy wings and my own personal, never ending stash." He paused. How much should he offer? "Stopped using when I came to Hammel at first though," he barely mumbled. There was a reason, yes, but not one he wanted to talk about.

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Yeah, Oriel never would have thought so at first, that he'd like Phoenix as much as he did. Phen wasn't even his type, too skinny, not enough muscle, and a face as pretty as a girl's. He was a fucking stoner too, which Oriel had many, many reasons for why he disapproved. Hell, Phoenix was even asian, and Oriel didn't usually go for those kind whether they were girl or boys.

But Phoenix was growing on him. What that meant, he had no fucking clue, but it made for some enjoyable bedroom shenanigans. Even if he wasn't Madison.

Oriel ruffled Phen's hair and gave him another peck on the scalp. "Oh, you love it, just admit it." If he didn't, then Oriel figured he would have said something about it already. Though Oriel was nowhere near as harsh on Phen as he had been on Madison.

"You'll see it soon enough." As much as he denied it, Oriel was thinking about joining the dance team…if they'd take him. He'd never done something like that so, hell, he wasn't even sure it was allowed. "If you can stand to get up before the sun rises, you can come watch me practice." Another step toward progress. Oriel never let people watch him practice, not unless they were close to him or necessary(like teachers). Oriel laughed out loud, "No shit, practically fell out of that tree and right into your bed." He pulled Phen in close, wrapping his arm over him and grasping it over his rump and pulling the other boy up for another kiss. "Sure," he said with a smile after they parted. "You can be my #1 minion." Oriel kissed him again, then settled Phen back down, returning his attentions back to the screen.

He didn't really expect Phen to start sharing about himself, though it probably made sense in a "you show me your's, I'll show you mine" way. Unfortunately, it was mostly about his drug problem. Not that Oriel couldn't understand the need to use, he really did get it(Oriel had started on alcohol around the same age), but he hated himself and how he acted when he drunk. And it had cost him a lot, more than he was willing to part with. Oriel didn't say anything, but did give Phoenix a sympathetic squeeze.

"Tevya," he started, pointing at the screen, "just promised his eldest daughter Tzeitel, to the old-fart butcher." He didn't know why he was explaining it, but figured Phen probably didn't know what was going on, especially since he showed up in the middle of the beginning of the movie. "But Tzeitel and Motel, the young tailor, have already promised each other to marry. So when Tevya tells Tzeitel the news, Motel comes in and declares himself to his daughter and her father." Stupid as it was, Oriel actually liked sappy shit like this. He'd never say it out loud though. "So, of course, when Tevya gives his approval, Motal is sooo excited he has to burst into song." He said it like it was ridiculous, but Miracle of Miracles was actually Oriel's favorite number of the show. Stupid.

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Phoenix rolled his eyes as Oriel ruffled his hair, but allowed the gesture with a faint smirk. "You got me," he replied with a dry chuckle. Yes, he was fine with what Oriel did, and was sure he would continue to be fine even if the 'torture' got worse. It was new, and erotic, and Phen enjoyed it a lot more than he would have thought he would.

"Good," he hummed, eager to see what Oriel could do. Phoenix vaguely wondered if he would ever try dancing, and decided that he probably sure as hell wouldn't unless someone forced him to. He had been more active a couple years ago, but now... Well, even getting up a flight of stairs could be hard, and that was both from lack of physical exercise and harming his lungs with so much dust usage (which he still forced himself to believe wouldn't create permanent damage in his body). "Ugh.... If I must," he sighed, though the slight upward curve at the corner of his mouth betrayed his continued interest in seeing Oriel dance. "At least it was a nice landin'," he replied cheekily, his smirk widening as Oriel pulled him close and kissed him. He let his fingers slip into the boy's beautiful mane of hair and brush it lightly for a moment, until they pulled apart and he nodded affirmatively at Oriel's offer. "Sounds good t' me." He shifted back comfortably against his side, settling his head against Oriel's shoulder once more.

Phoenix wished he had more to share about himself, and the realization made him step back a bit and mull over the fact. Were his drugs really all that defined him? Shit, he hadn't even really considered if before. It had never mattered that he did nothing better with his time, not until now when he wanted to share something positive about himself, and nothing came to mind. He felt even more pathetic and worthless than usual as he frowned against Oriel's shoulder, closing his eyes briefly at the squeeze. "I sketch sometimes," he offered quietly. He had to say something else.

He blinked at the screen again as Oriel began talking, trying to follow along with the explanation. Because he really didn't have a clue what was happening. He nodded slowly, watching the scene unfold into yet another song, one which he gave his full attention to. It was incredibly sappy and mentioned God more than he would have liked, but it was... Cute. Running and spinning though a forest while basking in the radiance of finding love... Phen's fingers tightened slightly against Oriel's sleeve, and a smile slowly crept its way up his face until he was grinning genuinely at the absurdity of it all. "Can you imagine what life'd be like if everyone burst into song like that whenever anythin' happened?" he chuckled softly, pursing his lips together as he fought the smile that was trying to stay and show how much he was enjoying the silly movie. A sort of heavy sadness sat upon his heart as well; the song had touched a nerve in him that he tried (and failed) to constantly ignore. He was lonely, and the thought of finding someone despite hardships in life was... Very appealing to the boy.

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A few months ago, Oriel would never have invited anyone to come watch him dance. Hell, Oriel while he was ok back then, he was so out of practice that he wasn't certain he was going to ever get back in shape. He still wasn't completely there yet, but at least he was a lot better than he had been back then. And for that, he was more comfortable showing off. "If you can't, don't force yourself. Or I can just come pick you up?" And ruin the boy's beauty sleep.

As opposed to Phoenix, Oriel had lots about himself that defined him and he found new interests to further that all the time. It was just he never felt like sharing with anyone. Or maybe he just thought they didn't care to know. After all, so many times those things had been overlooked just to focus on what made Oriel worthless. Why should he think they would think otherwise just because there was more to him than what they saw? People made their own judgements and more often than not, they refused to change opinions no matter how well you did elsewhere…

Then if you slipped up even once, then they tossed you aside and made you someone else's problem.

"That's cool," he said. Really, he always envied people who could draw because, "I can't draw worth shit." Oriel laughed at himself, surprised he actually admitted it so straightforward like that. He hadn't told anyone else that since Xavier.

But this was nice, learning and sharing about each other. So different than anything he'd ever had before. Most people weren't interested in learning more about him(and others he was too scared to tell for reasons stated above).

Oriel had seen this movie enough that he knew the dialogue like the back of his hand. And he knew the music even better. As the song started, Oriel caught himself moving his lips to the words, though he stopped himself before long, not too embarrassed. He would do that sort of thing automatically when he was watching alone…which was almost every time. He snorted at the question. "The world would be a much more amusing place. I can see it now. Finals have ended, the whole campus breaks into song, dancing in the courtyard and hanging out the windows and acting like it's all normal and they didn't spend the last 3 weeks rehearsing…" Heh. If only. Things were so much happier in those worlds. Oriel didn't want to admit that he felt the same way as Phoenix about them.

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Phoenix considered. "Depends on how you wake me up," he decided, not opposed to the idea of Oriel interrupting what would probably be some erotic dream about him anyway. Phoenix had vivid dreams, and he found that the other boy had started to become a regular occurrence in them. Along with a lot of other weird shit probably created from the hallucinogens, but whatever.

He should find some other hobby, Phoenix determined, at least to be able to say he did something besides... What he was always doing. The question was, what? He didn't have a lot of interests, and trying new things meant interacting with people that he probably wouldn't like or probably wouldn't like him. He pressed his face against Oriel's shoulder for a moment. Oh, the decisions.

"I didn't say I sketched well," he chuckled, grinning a bit at Oriel's admittance. "But I figure, I see a lot of shit that no one else does, so..." He shrugged. At least he was creating something, right? "I think it's time for me to find a new hobby," he mumbled, wrapping an arm around Oriel's shoulder and brushing his hand against his hair again. Hell, could playing with Oriel be considered a hobby? That'd be great.

This was totally new for Phoenix too. And he really had no idea why he was willing to open up more than he had with anyone in a really long time.

If Phen had caught Oriel mouthing along, he probably would have teased him. As it was, he was entranced enough with the screen (which was a lot easier to watch now that the dust had died in his system and he no longer had a headache) that he didn't look over at the boy until the song was over. "Oh, God," he chuckled, trying to imagine. "That, I would like t' see." As long as he didn't have to sing and dance along. He snuggled himself even closer to Oriel, the arm around his shoulders dropping behind his back as he looped the other one in front of Oriel's waist and let out a sigh. "How much longer is the movie?" he asked, though he wasn't in really any hurry to do anything else now.

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"Depends on how you wake me up,"

As if on cue, Oriel shifted again and kissed Phoenix, long, slow, tantalizing, coursing over Phen's teeth with his tongue and exploring deep inside his lover's mouth. He parted from those lips, sucking their shared spit and taking Phen's bottom lip away with him. "How 'bout like that," he said in a hushed voice, "Sleeping Beauty." If Oriel knew Phoenix dreamt of him, it would probably just inflate his ego, knowing he had captured that much of the other boy.

"Well, I'm sure if you worked at it, you could probably get pretty good." Oriel encouraged Phoenix. Anyone who could draw probably did a better job that Oriel, so why should he give that up if he enjoyed it? Unless he didn't. But those were things that Phen was going to have to figure out on his own. "Maybe we can join a random club together," he suggested just for shits and giggles. Like Oriel would ever join a club, the idea was laughable….then again, he was still debating on the dance team issue, which was becoming more and more likely to happen lately.

Oriel closed his eyes when Phen started brushing his hands through his mane and started rubbing his head into with a satisfied, "Mmmm…" and a cat-like smile.

"Me too," Oriel laughed out loud. He could just imagine the whole school turning into it's own twisted version of a musical…like Grease or something.

He liked Phen's warmth, and he dropped his arm off his shoulder and curled it around Phen's waist, pulling him in even closer. "Uh….not even halfway yet…" They were almost there though. "Once they finish the wedding, we can take a break if you want." Because technically that was the end of the first act.

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Phoenix looked up as Oriel shifted, and suddenly found himself lost in a deep, sensual kiss, the kind that send shivers down his spine and took his breath away. He closed his eyes and let himself drift, thinking this was way better than any drug he could take until Oriel pulled away, leaving Phen aching for more as he licked his lips and gazed hungrily at his lover. "That... Would be fine," he finally managed, chuckling a moment later at the nickname. Damn. Phoenix considered himself a good kisser, but Oriel was fantastic.

"Probably," he agreed, smiling at his encouragement. He had never really taken an art class or anything; maybe it was about time he did. Mmf, that meant work, but.... He might manage. "Yeah?" he rose and eyebrow and chuckled. "Which one? I don't even know what kinda clubs there are." And again, that required work, which Phoenix didn't like to think about. But maybe if he didn't have to do it alone...

"Oh my God," he laughed at Oriel's reaction, encouraged to continue the gentle massage. "You're fuckin' adorable." He was very much like a kitty, and it amused Phoenix to no end.

Phen wasn't sure if they could get any more cuddly than they were, and he let out a very satisfied sigh as they shared body heat. "Oh," he replied, pondering. "That sounds good. I was thinkin' about takin' a shower pretty soon." He sent a look Oriel's way, an obvious question in the air. He would be fine if Oriel didn't respond the way he hoped he would, but.... He did hope that he would.