Land of confusion [open]
Sept 12, 2015 22:05:57 GMT -5
Post by Lucas Blacke on Sept 12, 2015 22:05:57 GMT -5
His car, his house, the visit he made to his parents and the talking they did about everything and nothing, the direction Luke was going to take in school and why which he was sure he wouldn't be able to answer if they had asked him a few weeks or months earlier. Heb had no idea right up until his introductory day at his new school after he had impressed some of the guys (and girls) with his loud and awesome new car, which he was going to get some things for. Or at least browse the mall a bit like he had done before with a few people. He never saw any of them anymore though, and the only one he actually wanted to take to the mall was.. well, her.
..he needed to get his mind away from that specific person for a bit even if his thoughts had begun on some other topic entirely. There were moments where thinking about certain people just plain hurt instead of anything else. Weirdly almost everyone he had ever met did that to his mind and he was sure most of that was his own fault, if not all of it. At this rate he would need to have a lobotomy to be able to live a normal life.. or some telepath to block off part of his mind or something.
Anyway, Lucas was in his car and underway to the mall to get some new things as his mind took him places he didn't want to go. Perhaps he didn't need new things to get his mind off of it but new people to help him get through it all. Problem was, he knew next to no one. Yeah, Karalie, but he was sure she didn't want to see him right now and it was a bit too soon to ask her for coffee again. There were other people, but he had no intention of asking them since he had probably fucked up with all of them. And beside them he had no one else, not even back in Hammel.
..maybe it was time for a bit of a wardrobe change or something. Thing was, Luke had no idea what to go for, and if the mall was even a good place to specifically shop for.. whatever it was he needed. Maybe he needed a psychiatrist to get through what he was experiencing, lord knew that the people helping him in the past didn't do much good.
Perhaps that new bit of wealth he had gotten would help him in some way, he just had no idea how to spend it yet.
..he needed to get his mind away from that specific person for a bit even if his thoughts had begun on some other topic entirely. There were moments where thinking about certain people just plain hurt instead of anything else. Weirdly almost everyone he had ever met did that to his mind and he was sure most of that was his own fault, if not all of it. At this rate he would need to have a lobotomy to be able to live a normal life.. or some telepath to block off part of his mind or something.
Anyway, Lucas was in his car and underway to the mall to get some new things as his mind took him places he didn't want to go. Perhaps he didn't need new things to get his mind off of it but new people to help him get through it all. Problem was, he knew next to no one. Yeah, Karalie, but he was sure she didn't want to see him right now and it was a bit too soon to ask her for coffee again. There were other people, but he had no intention of asking them since he had probably fucked up with all of them. And beside them he had no one else, not even back in Hammel.
..maybe it was time for a bit of a wardrobe change or something. Thing was, Luke had no idea what to go for, and if the mall was even a good place to specifically shop for.. whatever it was he needed. Maybe he needed a psychiatrist to get through what he was experiencing, lord knew that the people helping him in the past didn't do much good.
Perhaps that new bit of wealth he had gotten would help him in some way, he just had no idea how to spend it yet.