Beautiful Liar (Eugene)

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Considering how much Gene was griping about the guy just a few moments before, it shouldn’t have been a surprise that Zeke thought that Gene would disallow that fellow to even come near him again, much less back in his house for….that. Sex. Guh. Gene wasn’t sure if he was looking forward to it or not, but there was definitely anticipation, and that was knotting up his stomach in unpleasant ways.

Gene shook his head, peeking his eyes out from the pillow to glare forward at…nothing. “No, it was definitely terrible. I don’t know why gay sex even exists when it makes you feel like you’re about to be broken in half.” Considering how thin and frail Gene was to begin with, that was very likely to happen too.

With the second question, Gene darted an incredulous look towards his gaming companion. He sighed and dropped his head down again into the pillow with a groan. “No…..it’s not that either.” At least he didn’t think so. “I don’t really care about stuff like that.” Yes he preferred the female body. But if he had a problem with being with a guy instead, wouldn’t he have hidden it from anyone and everyone? Would he even have told Zeke in the first place? Wouldn’t he have tried harder to keep Kodi from wandering around his house butt-naked with Gene hanging over his shoulder when the maid was still lingering around somewhere? Maybe he was embarrassed because of the personal nature of the subject, but the fact that Kodi was a boy was only a matter of shame when he thought about where he was sticking things.

Gene took a slow breath and rolled over onto his back, still clutching the pillow in his arms. His eyes were closed. His scowl had yet to fade. “I don’t know…..he…..reminds me of someone….maybe….” Like himself. Maybe.

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Zeke couldn’t imagine being that intimate with… Almost anyone, really, let alone a stranger, so the entire ordeal was just weird and surprising to him. He knew that there were a lot of people that didn’t feel the same as he did about sex, but he hadn’t imagined Eugene to be one of them. Guess he learned something new every day….

Zeke grimaced as the younger boy described his… Experience. “I… I wouldn’t know, I’ve never, um… received… y-you know…” His face flushed deeply. This was quickly becoming an even more uncomfortable experience for him, and he didn’t know what he was supposed to say. “So I-I’ll just take your word for it.” He swallowed hard and stared at the floor. Zeke vaguely wondered if Danny knew what it felt like… And quickly pushed away those thoughts. It made him feel weird.

He was glad, at least, that his other concern wasn’t the issue. Being pansexual himself (at least that’s what he thought he was, although since he’d never experienced that sort of thing before, he supposed he didn’t know for certain), he was always pleased to hear when someone else didn’t feel bad about their sexual preferences. “That’s good,” he said, softly and hopefully.

He kept the game paused as Gene rolled onto his back, uncertain if the younger boy was going to say anything else or not. When he did, Zeke’s expression turned curious. “He does?” he replied uncertainly. He wasn’t sure what to make of that. “Someone… that you like, or…?” Zeke rested his chin on the edge of the couch. “… Maybe you feel bad for him,” he offered thoughtfully. “If he’s really a… A… Whatever you called him earlier.” He knew Gene wasn’t afraid to share his wealth, so he thought it was possible.

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Zeke wasn’t the only one who was surprised by Gene’s spontaneous actions, though….well, his relatives always said he was like that, so maybe it really was in his nature and his life was just too fucking boring for there to be any opportunities to be spontaneous. This was probably the first interesting thing to present itself to Gene in a long time….probably. As unpleasant as he kept saying it was, it did offer something, he supposed, to what Kodi called a boring lifestyle. Experience was….nice. Maybe.

“You haven’t?” Gene asked with underwhelming surprise. “I thought you and your roommate were….” Because Zeke talked about his roommate often enough(Gene hadn’t bothered to remember his name), and he’d seen them a couple of times together and just from watching it seemed like they were more than just friends. Or maybe Gene really didn’t know enough about those sorts of thing to be able to distinguish it in other people.

Gene shrugged a shoulder of indifference towards Zeke’s concerns over sexuality. it really just…wasn’t something he cared about. Gene felt like he really wasn’t even gay, like Kodi criticized him for. To him, it was just that he happened to be in a…thing, whatever it was, with a man. If he thought about it, he didn’t even think that Kodi was all that attractive…well, he was in that Gene could see that some people might see him that way, but Gene didn’t really find himself ‘checking him out’, like Kodi kept trying to get him to do.

It was..something else, he supposed, that he found attractive. Something else that he couldn’t quite place. Maybe his face. Or personality. The guy smiled a lot. He was obscene and loud and annoying and made horrible jokes…. yet….his eyes never really reflected all that. Or maybe Gene was just reading into it too much. “….I don’t know,” he said again, rolling onto his side to face Zeke, his eyes opening only slightly. “A depraved being," he offered with a slightly amused smirk. "Maybe…..he’s pretty pathetic. Like a lost puppy, I guess….” And with really sad eyes, he thought.

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Zeke’s eyes widened in alarm and shock at Eugene’s response. “W-what? Were what?” he stammered. “Why would y-you think that?” Of course he and Danny were just friends! It was just that the older boy was his best and one of his only friends, which was why Zeke talked about him a lot. Of course it was. “He’s just my roommate,” he promised, wondering why saying it gave him a weird feeling in his stomach. “He has other people over all the time for… You know…” Sometimes Zeke was envious of how easy and casual his friend was with his sex life. He wished it was that easy for him…

He didn’t know why he’d become so flustered over that small comment, but he was, and now Zeke felt like his blush would never go away. He’d turned back towards the screen so that Eugene hopefully wouldn’t notice, although he kept the game paused for the time being.

He fiddled with the controller in his hands, wondering how he’d gotten into this conversation in the first place. It’d been his own fault, really, innocently asking about the hickeys on Gene’s neck. He hadn’t meant to make this happen… “Really?” he replied, only half paying attention now until his own embarrassment faded. “So, um… Maybe you’re just… pitying him, more than anything?” he offered meekly. “You have a l-lot to give, after all.” Not necessarily because the younger boy was generous, it was just true – he had way more than he needed. “Well, I, um, wish you luck with the whole situation. D-do you want to keep playing now?” Zeke had just about reached his maximum for this type of conversation.

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“Why? Well….” Gene turned his eyes away, now feeling slightly awkward that he’d mentioned such a thing about Zeke and his roommate when it seemed he was wrong. Or at least, that’s how Zeke was acting. “It doesn’t matter,” he said, taking back his statement. “I’m probably just imagining things.” And comparing their behavior to things he saw in anime…which even Gene knew was just a fantasy world, even if it was better than the real world. “I see….” he said slowly upon hearing of the guy’s habits. He didn’t think that Zeke’s roommate was that sort of person, but apparently he was wrong. Then again, he didn’t think himself that sort of person either, and Gene had just….with Kodi…

It all didn’t really matter to him anyway. If Zeke did have a thing for his roommate(which he still wasn’t convinced wasn’t true), then it was his problem to do something about.

Besides, they were talking about Gene right now, not Zeke. Yes, that was selfish, but…it didn’t make it any less true.

He didn’t really notice Zeke’s distracted responses though, as he was definitely more focused on himself than his ‘friend’s’ feelings and comfort. Gene continued to hug the pillow. “Yeah…probably.” Gene did pity him, after all…but he did wonder if that really was all it was. “Mmm…you’re right.” Not to be arrogant or anything…it was just true. Gene had a lot he didn’t need, so it was nothing to him to give it away to people who could probably use it more. And Kodi needed….something…. a home maybe. A companion. Or owner, if Gene was going to continue with the stray dog analogy.

Gene nodded, barely lifting his eyes from the empty space they stared at. “Yeah…let’s play,” he agreed. This was way too much for him to think about right now.

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Of course Gene was wrong! There was no way that Danny felt like Z- no, that wasn’t right. There was just friendship between the two of them. Period. Even if they’d kissed a couple times and Danny held the younger boy’s hand in public sometimes because of his anxiety, that was just the way their friendship was. “Probably,” he agreed, too quickly. “It’s just because we’ve been friends since we were babies.” That explained it all. They were just really comfortable with each other.

It didn’t matter! It didn’t matter, because Gene was right, they were totally talking about the younger boy, not Zeke. Yes.

So back to that “depraved being”. He had to wonder what the guy was really like – Zeke half-wondered if he really wasn’t as bad as Gene was trying to make him seem. It seemed like the conversation was starting to wind down, though, so he just nodded along mutely, eager to get back to the relaxing(ish) gameplay before them.

“Alright,” he agreed eagerly, quickly hitting ‘unpause’ and getting back into it. “Let’s just worry about surviving in this place.” It didn’t take too long before he got wrapped up in the game again enough to mostly forget about their awkward conversation.