Only in New York

[Steven Lagenski]

“I’m sorry.”

Being clingy was something that Steven detested in all couples, and people in general. People needed their space and when a person was attached to them like a leech it would always dampen the relationship. Even clingy people got annoyed at a certain point. His tears were dried by Kleenex and it only served to make him feel worse, he was being treated like a child because he was acting like a child.

“I’m sorry for acting like this.”

Tears where running down Cali’s face as his were finally coming to a stop, he had made her cry. “No.. I need to.” He took a drag of fresh air like one would when sucking on a cigarette. Reality had a cruel way of bringing people to terms with their problems even if denial had been misleading them for years.

Her hands rubbed against the towel in an effort to warm him, at the moment he didn’t feel her deserved her warmth. She had left for a valid reason and she was just giving in to him, it was unfair to her if he continued acting the way he did.

He tried to slow down his breathing, focusing on anything else would only make him emotional again and that was not what he wanted to be. “Cali stop..” he looked at her, he knew the type of woman she was and despite her background he loved her for it. It was somewhat funny that shopping in a clearance rack seemed like a big thing for the girl, but he could only guess as to how much it meant to the girl.

“I’m sorry for making you cry.”

“I’m not going to let you shop at a clearance rack.” He raised his hand from the towel and lifted his thumb up to wipe the girl’s tears. He could only sit and look at her for the moment, he didn’t deserve to kiss her.

“I’m sorry.”

[Cali Schwa]

Cali smiled threw her tears. As the slowed down she gave him a passionate look. "Stop apologizing. I was only crying because I know that I caused you to cry." Cali huffed as she looked at him. Her cheery attitude was slowly returning now that he had stopped crying. "Don't you tell me to stop."

If it was one thing she hated was being told to do something that she didn't want to do. "You where not acting any different then I would have if our positions where changed. Besides it just made me fall more in love with you."

After he spoke about shopping she smiled again. The boy was perfect in her opinion. Still he was perfect. Nothing would ever change that. All couples had fights now and then. Theirs just seemed to end faster. "i don't need fancy things. All I will ever need is a ring on my finger and you by my side forever." Looking him up and down she shook her head. He was still stark naked on her bed.

She wondered if she should take advantage of him, even though she knew it was a bad idea. Cali shook her head, hoping to get the thought out of her head. "Stevey now would be a great time to tell me you love me and to kiss me." Placing a hand delicately on his she hoped that would tell him it was OK now.

[Steven Lagenski]

His eyes were beginning to swell. They had gotten red after only a few tears. He looked at her and smiled could she really be the person she said she was? It didn’t bother him if it was a lie, but it scared him that a person could be so two sided.

His sorrow was now a weight that was steadily lifting off of him. Depression would always rear its head it wasn’t something that could be cleared away by a few sweet words and soft looks, it was something he would have to deal with within and Cali could only serve as a buffer. But for now he could at least try to be happy, there was no reason not to be.

You should never have to force an I love you, it was something that was either said or not and at the moment he was trying his best to keep it from bursting out like his tears had. He sat down and put on a smile for her, he could still feel the sadness lingering, but she deserved a smile he would save his frown for another time.

He didn’t like the order, but he did like the idea so he decided to switch them, he kissed her in a weak peck trying not to be too forceful. “I love you.” His voice had risen a little higher than the broken whispers that it had been before, but it was still not the standard relaxed tone that fit him.

“I love you a lot.”

[Cali Schwa]

Cali smiled. That was all she could ask for. Still staring at his naked body she sighed. That time would have to wait. Cali knew he wasn't back to him self after that. All she could hope was that she didn't break him. What would she do if he was never happy with her again.

That almost made her break down and cry. However, knowing she had to be a little stronger she got up and kissed his forehead. "So are you going to sleep naked tonight like you usually do or are you going to wear pajamas." Walking a way she frowned.

Biting her bottom lip as she looked around. Cali didn't even know what she was looking for. She was just trying not to attack Steven. Gritting her teeth she turned and walked back to him. "I am so sorry that this happened I didn't want to fight with you ever. But I am so madly in love with you."

Looking down Cali let out a low sigh. "I tried to avoid this but its killing me." Cali looked back at him and smiled. Leaning down she kissed him passionately. A little forcefully her tongue invaded hi mouth. There was no way she could have controlled her self much longer. Cali ran her hands threw his hair and on his chest. Wanting to imprint his body into her memory. Every inch and every wrinkle.

[Steven Lagenski]

Steven hadn't smoked in five days and despite his habit had not been to interested in smoking at all. He would try not to smoke around her, he didn't want to drag her into the pothead category, even if he felt that there were no negative side effects. Society would always judge you off your mannerisms and the people you assosciated yourself with, but it crossed his mind whether dating a drug addict made you one in the eyes of the public.

It took his mind a moment to register that she had kissed him it was unexpected. He hit the bed from her excess wieght, her kisses were becoming commonplace though the luster was still there. His hands instinctively went to the center of her back, but he quickly pulled them off of her, he didn't want to kiss he needed to talk and whether it be hormones, or love he would not be side tracked by passion filled kisses.

"Cali stop."

His head jerked back, taking small gulps of air he tried to calm himself. "Cali I can't do anything for you, why are you with me?" In his mind life worked on a bartering system  everything was a trade for something, at the moment he couldn't see anything that he was giving her or would be able to give her that she didn't already have. 

[Cali Schwa]

Cali was taken back. She stopped what she was doing and backed away a little. "Steven..what are you talking about?" She sat on the bed next to him. Her eyes looking at him as if it where for the first time.

She loved him weather he wanted her to or not. Whay tonight did he have to start tlaking about their relathionship? Was it that bad? Cali stared at him. "Stevey, Sweetheart...what do you mean why am I with you?"

Her mind was going a mile a minute. She couldn't even think straight let alone figure out why he would say something like that. She wondered if this was because of the fight they had earlier. Cali was so afraid that this might be the end of their relathionship. She was preparing for the worst.

[Steven Lagenski]

"I don't deserve you, you're to perfect. I'm not the nicest person and I wind up with someone like you."

It sounded more like an insult then a compliment, but he hoped she understood what he was saying, he couldn't grasp how it was that he had landed in a relationship with someone who was just so perfect. If she had flaws then they obviously weren't anything that he could find. He stared at her and but down on his lip, he was trying to come up with a reason and it hurt his mind to ponder it.

"I mean..I love you.. and you can do better, than me."

It was hard admitting that her had way to many unresolved issues than the girl he was in love with, he knew that it wasn't fair to her that she was dating someone like him. He hung his head down and looked at the sheet, he didn't feel like looking at her at the moment.

[Cali Schwa]

Cali took a breath. She felt as if her heart just broke. "So....your...your...leaving me?" As those words hit her lips she started balling. Tears just poured out her eyes. "Stevey I'm sorry what ever I did I am sorry. Please forgive me? I..I'd be lost without you. I would...I would"

Cali got up and ran into the bathroom. She wasn't sure what she was doing. Confused and scared she slammed the door shut and locked it. Crying she started talking to her self loudly. "If he left me I would become stone. I will never feel the way I do again. What did I do? Why is this happening?"

Cali was sitting on the toilet. She wondered if this was why people contemplated suicide. The feelings of abandonment and fear. It was almost too much for her to handle. She too wanted to find a way out. Cali knew there was more to life then Steven but at that moment it felt as if he left her then she would crumple.

[Steven Lagenski]

Cali ran out without even giving the boy time to reply, he didn't want to break up with her and he didn't intend to, he just wasn't sure what it was that made their relationship work. He decided that if he could get her out the bathroom and he'd keep his thoughts to himself. He inhaled and let the air rest in his chest, he didn't feel like breathing at the moment. He stepped out and clamped his lips down tight on his lip rings. He rapped against the door and sighed pressing his body against it's wooden frame.

"Cali... baby... come out... that's not what I meant. I don't want to break up with you." for some reason he found this funny. What he had said had been completely turned around from what was meant. He was saying that she held the reigns of where their relationship went, that he was not good enough for her and that he knew it. She was perfection incarnate and he was a human being.

He didn't want to make her cry and if being mute would help to keep her from being a nervous wreck then he would cut out his tongue if he had to. He stood by the door and eyed it hoping she would come out. He would wait all night if he had to.

[Cali Schwa]

Cali was still crying. She had barely heard what steven said. Although she had caught the gist of what he was saying. reluctantly she got up from her spot and walked to the door. "I look like crap. I am not.." Wiping her face she sighed. Tears where making her eye puffy.

Cali huffed at the door. Speaking a little louder she huffed again. "If you wanna see me then use your ability to come get me. I thought you where going to leave me. That's what it sounded like" Cali walked a little away from the door and leaned against the wall.

Letting her body slide to the ground she couldn't help but still feel a little depressed. "How could you tell me that I deserve better? How do you know that?" Cali waited for him to either answer her or open the door.

[Steven Lagenski]

Steven wished he had attended a training class at least once before their trip to New York. Sadly he had not and it would be a hassle trying to get a door open when he couldn't see the lock. "You look beautiful quit lying to yourself." He pressed his hand against the door and sighed, "I know what it sounded like, but that wasn't what I meant." Unlike Cali's power Steven's ability was based more on his will rather than his emotions. He was sure if it had anything to do with how he felt things would have been flying through the room as soon as she left.

"Cali I know it because I know you and I know myself, you are a beautiful woman with a beautiful future."

His power was pushing, and he was sure he could probably push the door off its hinges, but that would be dangerous and the risk of hitting Cali was enough to keep him from trying. He decided to try something different, if he couldn't push the door he could push Cali, he hoped she was standing. He closed his eyes and tried to focus on where her voice was coming from. With his hand on the door and his feet on the floor they were connected even if she wasn't aware of it.

He could feel his head pounding as he tried to focus on the image of the girl who was no longer in front of him. He thought of the girl coming toward him. It was like feeling an extension of himself, he could feel her, though not in a physical sense. His mind felt cloudy almost hazed, "Cali." he brought the girl closer to door.

"Come om out, please?"

[Cali Schwa]

Cali felt her body sliding. He was cheating, she told him the door not her self. However she couldn't stay sad when she was with him. Standing up she opened the door. Looking at him with a mock mad face. "You cheated you moved me across the floor not the door."

Cali walked threw the doorway and opened her arms. "Stevey. I can't help that I love you and I can't explain it either. All I know is feel empty without you. When I thought you where breaking up with me I just didn't want to exist. I felt like you said you use too. I hate that feeling." Walking closer to him she wrapped her arms around him.

Leaning her body against him and her head was on his chest. She could hear his heart beat. Cali loved the rhythm it made. It made her happy. Her body was cold without his. "Steven My future is nothing without you in it. With out u there is no sun, there is no fun without u. Understand?" Cali was glad she remembered that quote she saw on line. even if she didn't remember it fully.

[Steven Lagenski]

He could settle for her answer, it didn’t need to be questioned, for the moment being with her was more important than getting his questions answered. He felt dizzy and his vision was beginning to blur. Tired, his headache had grown from the short little push and the migraine from before had come back even worse than the time before. He tried to make out the girls image and even with the wooziness he clenched tight to the girl’s body.

“Cali, that was sweet. Without you, there is no sun, there no rain, there is nothing.” He smiled and leaned forward not realizing that he was tilting his body as well. He tried his hand at mimicking her statement. He liked the way it sounded. He couldn’t see her lips in the hazy image that was her face, what was happening? He pressed his lip against the corner of her lips and let it slide against her cheek, His body fall forward nearly bringing the girl down with him. His body dropped to the right of the girl, “Tired.” He groaned while he closed his eyes trying to get the images to return to how they were.

[Cali Schwa]

Panic hit Cali hard. He was falling. She braced her self but she couldn't hold his weight. Trying her hardest eventually she gave up and slide down onto the floor holding him. "Steven? Babe? Whats going on? Are you OK?" She positioned her self on the rough carpet so she was holding his head.

Cali sat there near tears as she wondered what the heck was going on. "Stevey I love you." She whispered to him as she fussed with his hair. Cali knew she would sit there holding his head in her lap for hours if she needed to.

She wasn't going to leave him. There was no way. However he was stark naked still and it was cool in their room. Cali gently placed his head down and got a blanket off the bed. Walking back to him she did her best to wrap it around him. "I love you so much Stevey and I don't know if you can hear me but I am never going to leave you alone."

Sitting back down she gently lifted his head back onto her lap. She sat there and just ran her hands threw his hair. "I don't know whats going on but as long as I can feel you breath I'm OK." Cali was mostly talking to calm down her panic mode. "Remember that night we spent in my dorm and you woke up panicking because I wasn't there. Silly boy thought I left you. This is going to be the exact opposite. I'm not going to go anywhere until you get up Stevey."

[Steven Lagenski]

It scared him that he couldn’t realize that he was about to fall, or that he had just hit the ground. It wasn’t until Cali started speaking that it finally occurred to him what had just happened.

The world looked like it was covered in cellophane nothing was fully define and Cali and the open doorway blended together like smeared ink. His head throbbed and pounded to a beat that only he could hear, it bothered him that it kept in tempo with Cali’s voice. He groaned and tried to put on a smile. The pain was drilling into the back of his head, “Cali come here.”

He wasn’t cold, the blanket she had given him had served to take the chill off of his body. But he wanted her to be underneath it with him, he could still make out her face, but her cheeks seemed out of place. He lifted his body up and wrapped the sheet around the girl, he would feel a lot warmer with her close to him. He wouldn’t make her sit there just because he felt tired, there was always a bed.