All these things that I've done [Cam]

Lei had gone to shower his shame away after sending the first text message though he was drying off back in his room by the time that he heard the tone on his phone go off. He looked to where it rested on his bed. moving over to sit with his waist wrapped in his towel, picking his phone up, he almost dreaded what the other male would say. Lei winced visibly, as the response was given with an expected tone, how could he blame him?

To Cam he replied:

Thank you...

Lei placed his hand over his face a bit as he tried to word how to explain himself. He flopped back on his bed, his wet hair sprawling over his blanket, but he didn't care much of that. He lifted his phone above his face and his fingers moved rapidly over the screen.

To cam:

I am sorry about what happened. I did not mean for it to. I know it was stupid of me to act that way and I can't help but to feel like a total ass for letting it happen. It would have been okay, but then you were rubbing on that spot... It makes me go mad. It makes me so hot that i feel like i'm going to die if I do not have relief.

He paused cringing a bit at the way that sounded. "fucking hell. He's going to think i'm some sick bastard. " he stated aloud to himself before continuing.
To Cam:

It's not your fault. None of it, I'm a horrible person, and for that I wanted to apologize. For scaring you and for letting my abilities take over so much that I could feel what it was doing to you. I'm sorry Cam. I don't know what to say or to do to make this up to you, but I want to somehow. If I have to go in person to apologize to your boyfriend I will. I swear it.

Lei had said a mouth full in just a few texts toward Cam, but he wanted to say so much more. He wanted to say it to him in person more so. Though given how the other man ran out of there the night before he doubted that would ever be an option again. Lei moved from his bed to where the mirror hung on the wall across from his bed. he picked up his pants, looking at himself in the mirror, giving himself a disgusted look. His phone resting on the desk nearby as he waited for any word.

Lei heard his phone go off again as he fastened his own pants, moving over to it he picked the phone off, wincing slightly. A look somewhere between irritation and embarrasment crossing his features.

To Cam:

You might as well have been if you touch me like that there.

he sighed heavily.

To cam:

Either way. I am sorry. I never meant for that to happen. I swear if you forgive me i'll wear wrist cuffs or something so it doesn't happen again, I don't know, I just wish I could undo that part of our night. Everything was perfect until i went and screwed it up as usual.

Lei rubbed at his neck, exhaling heavily before picking up a long-sleeved knit shirt, pulling it on though topping half way with his head through the hole to look at the next message cam sent.

...

Leiken seemed almost frightened at the thought. Though he pulled his shirt on and sighed heavily before typing back to cam.

To cam:

Fine. I'll go talk to him. I should apologize to him too. Please don't hate me okay? I know i'm disgusting, but I would still enjoy watching silly cartoons and pigging out on cheeses with you.

Perhaps it was an awkward way of lei saying he was sorry that he just wanted to keep cam as a friend, if nothing else, but lei wasn't very good with words. He wasn't very good at much but causing trouble.

Lei dried at his hair with his towel, not really caring if his hair was a mess, he let the towel drape somewhat over his head as he went out of his quarter of the dorm and immediately to Dec's. Giving a firm knock on the door.

[TBC]

To cam:

You weren't, that's the point, but you found it on your own without even trying. I couldn't help it! you're attractive god damnit. It was hard enough to keep my hands off you without you rubbing all over the sensitive points of my body. ugh.. i'm sorry it's not your fault. I just wish i could change how that went. The last thing i wanted to do was scare you away.

He admitted with a look of frustration as he sent the text. Though the next text made him sigh away that frustration.

To cam:

I don't know man, maybe i had a bad soda or something back on the roof and it turned me into that one guy with that turns into a monster at night but is a decent man in the day. I forget his name, do you remember? Anyway. I'm still sorry. It's not the first time someone's accidentally happened upon that spot. Though after he had he used it against me a lot. er.. sorry i didn't mean to get into that awkward memory. God i'm like the awkward dork in grade school stuttering infront of the popular kid he crushes on.

He shook his head at his own text after sending it.

To Cam:

Tch. Of course everyone -wants- to do me. It's just not everyone can. Come on, admit it, if you were single would you have resisted ? I'm just that damn good. haha. joking joking, but you get my point.

He stated smiling vaguely before sliding his phone into his pocket temporarily so that he could get the apology to dec over with.

To Cam:

I know you didn't mean to. I should have warned you about it. Sorry man.

Lei cringed a little. He didn't know how exactly he should have told the other man about that first. Maybe when he started kissing on his fingers, but perhaps he hadn't thought about it because he had really hoped more would happen. Leiken shook his head a bit to rid of those thoughts.

To Cam:

How differently?

Lei felt his cheeks warm alittle and it caused him to fidget a little. Thinking about how that night could have gone differently if the other man had been single. He liked the thought. Though right then and there he felt guilt for feeling that way. Especially after having spoken with Dec about it. "jeeze what is wrong with me." he stated rubbing his forehead with a hand.

To Cam:

I'm not really sure...I think it went okay? He wanted to hit me, but I didn't want him to get hurt. My ability would have hurt him if he had hit me. I didn't want that so I may have broken my own rule in telling him something about my ability. I hate telling people, but it's better for him that he knew what it is capable of. The last thing I want to do is hurt anyone by accident.

Lei made a face as he thought about the fact that he had told Dec anything at all, but if he hadn't and the kid had hit him. He could only think of the things that had happened with Odion. Dec wasn't Odion, he didn't want to harm someone who had done nothing to him to deserve it, though he didn't want to kill anyone. There was always that risk when it came to his ability. Especially when he could not control it himself.

To cam:

It makes me realize. I never really explained to you what my ability does. I feel I owe you an explination too because of what happened before, but I don't want to do it over the phone. Can you forgive me and trust me enough to go through with a movie night? I'll bring nachos?

Lei rubbed his head a bit. He hadn't ever really tried so hard to keep someone in his life, but cam was the sort of person he knew he could always get along with. He wanted him in his life, even as a friend, even if it meant going out of his way to try to fix what he'd screwed up.

To Cam:

Lol okay, water under the bridge it is then,


Lei smiled softly as he sat on his bed. Holding that phone gingerly in his hands. Though his face reddened at the next message he recieved. His hand raised to cover his mouth a little. Though he lowered it to continue his text a moment later.

To Cam:

I think that I do, but I better not think too much about it or It'll start effecting me.

His mind was already going in the gutter as it was and he didn't want it to stay there forever dwelling in something he couldn't have. It would just put too much tension on that. He could still feel cam's lips on his fingers and the warmth of his body. Even when it was an innocent thing in his mind it had been a nice feeling.

To Cam:

Do you think I could still hug you? If I don't act like a perv? XD

Lei had enjoyed just laying and talking with cam, he wondered if it would be to awkward, given how he'd acted before.

To Cam:

I really didn't pay attention, but I'm sure they are. I'll have to look when I see him around the dorm next. Maybe he and I could get over this and be able to have a nice talk without threatening each other with who is more manly. rofl

Though he doubted he'd win that contest. It was amusing no matter. He just hoped dec would get over it one day too. He didn't want that awkward 'that guy molested my boyfriend' energy to linger forever.

To cam:

A man who says no to cheese is a mad man! XD oh those are hard choices. I love all of them. Hm. How about Mulan?

Lei laughed aloud to himself. He was happy that cam seemed so willing to forgive him. Happy that it seemed they would still be friends. Though he was amused also over mulan being a choice. Ever since he'd seen that movie there was a song from it he thought about during his training alot.

To cam:

So when is a good time for you? And should I come to you or you over here?

He questioned looking around his room. He got up and moved over to his desk, rolling out the chair and sitting down, powering on his computered as he waited for a reply. At that point he didn't really mind either. If they were at his dorm and Dec happened to come in, he would have wanted the man to see he was behaving, but if he was at cam's place he somehow felt it would be easier to relax without worrying about that. Plus. He wondered what cam's dorm looked like.

Lei's cheeks warmed to those words. Cuddling? he liked the sound of that.

To Cam:

I'll hold you to that.


To Cam:

I don't mind that, i usually watch movies the same way, It's easier to keep track of movies that way. Isn't it?


As if he'd mind that. They'd have to get closer together to watch it on a laptop which he didn't mind one bit.

To Cam:

Okay, how about this evening? Around 5pm? I look forward to it too!

He set his phone to the side as he opened up his email and a tab for a few blogs he went to routinely.