Let Me Count The Ways

[Jalen August]

Another year at Hammel, another boy manages to snag my heart. Why does this always happen to me? Ah well, at least this time seems different. I'm going to try my best not to prove Jonah JD is like the rest of the guys I've been around. I really like him, he's... different, in such a good way. I don't really know if he likes me that way, but it seems likely. I really like him... I know I said that already, I just, yeah, I guess I just need to keep writing it so it sinks in. I would really like to see what else he can bring to the stage, but I dig his look. Strong jaw, bright eyes... Alright, I'll stop before I start sounding like a fan girl.

He encountered me when I was screaming training. He helped me train, and then we headed down to the woods for a quick run. Literally. That boy has some kind of super power, and I would be lying to myself to say I'm not jealous. We were going to dump the glass-dust, and he showed me this secretish place, with a beautiful lake. I even kept the the glasses I shattered into dust, mostly for memories. I couldn't really find a good container for it, so I'm just keeping it in an old strawberry jam jar in my dorm. Good enough.

It wasn't a spectacular day, but it was special anyways. Being around him, I don't know, makes me happy. I've never made such a fool of myself. He doesn't seem to care if I'm calm and collected, or just having a good time. I like him... I think maybe I could show him how to slow down, something he probably never does. He seems to appreciate the power of music too, which is a definite plus necessity.

Your gracious smile
Reciprocates
Across my face

Jalen August
P.S. Hope he didn't notice this pic I took... He's adorable

Don't Kiss The Girl /// No Assumptions

[Jalen August]

Alas, I have met the one they call Zachary LaRousse. I Can’t even just laze around the student lounge anymore. Who does this guy think he is anyways? Invading my space and trying to invade my mind. Freaking idiot, doesn’t know when to lay off or call it a quits. I swear, it’s like I’m the only person he’s ever pissed off before. You just don’t nickname a girl by her genitals... Seriously! I know I shouldn’t have used my powers on him, but it was so wonderful watching him squirm... Man I’m an evil bitch...

And as if this isn’t bad enough, he’s the annoying friend JD was talking about... Ugh, it’s almost like inheriting annoying in-laws... Not that JD and I are an item or anything. I have seen him since lunch and I haven’t worked up the courage to send him an e-mail... Ah, some day I will. But back to Zac – I swear I was this close to killing the guy, but Cole Kessler was there also, and I can’t really get away with murder if there’s a witness, plus it’s also going against school policy and state laws in general so... I’m really glad Cole was there, now that I’m a little calmed down.

Cole is a pretty calm guy, even though he was broken up with over a text... Seems pretty cruel if you ask me. I hope he’s okay, although I doubt I’ll ever run into him again and if I do, he’ll probably be happy as pie. I didn’t get to know him very much, mostly because I was so furious with Zac and his prying ways. I feel really sorry for him though, mostly because I suspect that JD is friends with him only because he feels sorry for him. Or maybe he wants to keep him close so that he can mutilate that pixie face of his when he least suspected it. A girl can dream can’t she?

If I ever see your face again
I won’t leave it unscarred,
And if it wasn’t for the angel in sight
You would have been mauled to death - animal

Jalen August


Annoying and stupid!
Down Time

[Jalen August]

I never thought this would happen, but someone actually ended up pranking me in my own dorm room! I don’t really know what her name is, but once my roommates get back I’ll figure it out. Currently, I am out of music... Yes, she totally wrecked my iPod, not to mention my clothes and how my hair is blue now. A bucket of blue dye was dumped on me as soon as I opened the door. I can’t believe I’ve lost my Christmas gift already! Totally bites, I’m going to have to wait a month or so in order to make enough money to replace it... I already tried drying out the small parts but it still won’t work... Must be due to how the water isn’t just water... It’s dye.

In other words, I’m hair looks disgusting... I think that dye must’ve been oil based or something, and it just won’t wash out... Oh well, no use in dying it over, I’ll just let it grow out... She is so gonna pay for this...

And you’ll pay dearly
I’ll beat you again
And you won’t see it coming

Jalen August


Thanks For That

[Jalen August]

Alas, I have myself a new iPod! It's pretty shiny and full of my old tunes, and some new ones too! It was a glorious day at the mall, aside from the boy who intruded on my happy time.

Braxton, totally full of himself, but totally hot - as most boys are who are good looking. It seems the only nice guy around here is JD, and he apparently has a mean streak (something he talks a lot about but I haven't seen yet). Braxton and Zac must be related some how... I swear... Zac I could kill in a heartbeat, but Braxton, he's a different story. He's a heartbreaker and it shows, and he could probably care less about how I'm eager to see if he actually calls me or not. Maybe that was a stupid idea... giving him my number.

Sometimes I just don't stop to think about things. I know he's a user, I'm not stupid. But man, if he were to romance me the way he said he would... That would be heaven. And in heaven, I tend to throw caution to the wind. For once, playing hard to get was a good idea. Besides, I wouldn't want JD to get the wrong impression of me or anything, it's not like I'm some kind of slut... It's not like I just went off to the woods with some guy I just met, while there's alcohol involved - not that I'm a light weight. If anyone would be taken advantage of due to drunkenness, it would've been Braxton...

Anyways, I'm rambling now.

There's a wonder in my brokenness
And if you can't see the cracks
You might slip in unexpectedly

Jalen August
P.S. Maybe I should title this journal or something... Seems like I just love to rant and rave about the various boys I meet... Not obsessed at all or anything.

Giving Into Insanity

[Jalen August]

Yet another encounter with a boy today... Not that this one tried to hit on me, thank God. Actually, he sort of knocked me out – unintentionally. He was down by the lake where I was, and decided to let loose his powers, which also happen to be sonic manipulation. Sweet right? He’s the first person I’ve met with the same abilities as me! He’s a little bit younger so I don’t think I’ll have to worry about him turning dark side on me.

Anyways, I’ve decided to help him control his sound saves a little better. Yes, he hurt me, and yes I really haven’t taught anyone before, but if anyone can really help him get a grip on his powers, it would be me. The only thing I’m going to find challenging (probably because I’m a little bit jealous), is how he’s going to be able to detect what he’s doing to others, if he has an immunity to his own work. I guess for me I’m overly sensitive, but that’s what helped me really understand where my powers were going.

Also, I can’t really make loud noises at will, I can only fiddle with noises which already exist. So in many ways, Abe’s already really different from me. I promised him a training session tomorrow (once my head stops throbbing), and I can’t really go back on my word now. Oh well, hopefully it’s not a complete disaster.

Let’s have some fun
Just don’t hurt me again

Jalen August

A Bad Plan /// Bloody Mess

[Jalen August]

Man! Yesterday I had an awesome day at the mall! Not only did I buy a couple pairs of jeans and a nice comfy black hoodie, but I met a dreamy man. His name's Cody. He's easy on the eyes and has a personality to keep up with mine. Unbelievable! I gave him my number and he's called me a couple of times this week already - he's absolutely adorable. We're going on a picnic dinner at his ranch. Oh yeah, you read that right. There are plenty of perks to dating an older guy. About five years oldBut he's not that much older so there's nothing to worry about.

I feel myself falling fast and hard for Cody, and I can't help but think about JD in the process. I mean, I haven't exactly gotten in touch with him for that calculus date... Or any date for that matter. While I love his reserved nature, I can't help but be attracted to Cody's Montanaah charm (and good looks). Did I mention he has some of the most stunning blue eyes I've ever seen? And believe me, I've seen blue eyes. I can see JD and I being friends, but I can see Cody and I naked together romantically. Hormones aside, I really dig him. I guess what I'm trying to say is JD's gonna take the backseat... I just love an upfront guy (Cody), but not anyone too upfront (Braxton).

I can't wait to see his ranch, and match that dazzling voice with his face again. I think getting away from this school is going to be the break I need. As for Cody, I can't wait to get to know him better. I'm reallyfreakingout a little nervous over being around his horses, but hopefully it'll be okay. I've already had a couple of nightmares where I'm being surrounded by them as they enclose in on me... Ugh, I'm not going to go there.

CAN'T WAIT!

Just slip your hand into mine
It'll be alright
I'll treat you right
And you'll be right next to me

Jalen August
P.S. I can't wait to see him again!

Wrong Section

[Jalen August]

WOW! Instead of dancing all night, I spent the night at Cole’s place – a friend of Sam’s apparently. They have more or less the same style, but Cole takes style a little less seriously. I had to help the guy out of a serious jam with an ex, and hey, I’m gonna write him a ballad. Why the hell not, right? He seems like a cool enough guy. He seems to have a lot of issues with women however... He doesn’t seem like a player, but maybe he is. I wouldn’t really know. Tae is one of the girls, not that I know her very well either.

He did save me from a supposed creep though, which is great. He can hold his liquor well, and he can dance fairly well. He can’t hold a candle next to me, but hey, at least he tried, and he didn’t even try to have sex with me – that always gets a man brownie points. He seemed to be flirting with me though – must’ve been the booze. Either that, or I’m overanalyzing everything again.

It would be really nice to have a girl friend or something to talk this through with... I would even endure some drama just for a good heart to heart.

All in all, Cole seems honest and open, which are great qualities. That ex of his though... What a bitch. Not Tae, the other one.

Your heart’s on your sleeve
And when the air clears
It’ll be dried out and used up
And you’ll have nothing left to bare

Jalen August


Only Acting Drunk

[Jalen August]

So, I survived Cody’s ranch. Horses and all. Tank didn’t seem too bad anyways, not sure I could handle the others. It wasn’t so bad when I tuned out the rest of the horses, but it wasn’t like we were around them for very long. I even help him brush Tank down at the end of our date.

Our date! He spoke on the phone about it all week!

It was amazing! He packed a picnic lunch and we ventured on over to his pond. I made our sandwiches and we talked for a long while – all the way until sunset. Then we went swimming, and he KISSED me! Twice! Insert girly squeal here. Sigh, he’s amazing. He’s patient and sweet, and he can lift me like I weigh nothing. I guess all that farm work is bound to make a boy healthy and strong.

His ranch is gorgeous, a little piece of heaven all to himself. He’s pretty lucky to have that, although I’m sure it gets quite lonely in the evening. I like being close to Cody, I hope there’s a second date soon to come.

I even got to meet his lovely mother Natalie, I hope to spend a bit more time with her before she goes on adventuring – which seems to be her lifestyle. I embarrassed him pretty well in front of her, and she seemed to love going along with it.

Aside from Tank eating my shirt (which was still pretty cute), it was a perfect night.

I’m still not sure how happy with how close I am getting to him. He knows about my scar... I didn’t want anyone to know about that, but he took it so well. He seems even more intrigued by me now – I’m only the third girl he’s dated. It was good getting to know him tonight, really. I just... I don’t want to give him my heart just to let it break again. I want to trust him... Maybe someday I will.

Hey baby
With the blue eyes that shine with the sunrise
Your lips are like velvet
And your smile like wine.
With a taste of your kiss
I’m on that cloud they call nine.

Jalen August
P.S. Did I mention how good looking he is?
P.P.S. He makes the best brownies!


Ooh, A Date?

[Jalen August]

Another date at the Branson residence gone, well, fairly smoothly. It was fun to start. Natalie and I totally surprised Cody, it was so much fun! I made my famous lasagna and he seemed to be totally in love with it, so that’s a good start. A way to a man’s heart is definitely through his stomach. I could have done without breaking his dishes and looking like a total child in front of him, but he was so gracious – as was his mother.

He really wants to be with me. It’s the strangest thing – that someone would actually want to be with me. Okay, so there’s a lot of teenage angst in that sentence, but I know what pain feels like, and Cody is far from it. He’s so kind, and he treats me right. I don’t know, I can feel myself falling for him even more every time I see those blue blue eyes.

He seems to have a bit of a grudge towards his father, which is totally understandable. He seemed so willing to talk about it, I just had to tell him about my scar. Well, the visible one anyways. My life isn’t that exciting, but it’s not the only scar I have. Maybe soon he’ll get to know me better. All I know for now, is that he loves me in that hat of his, ha, not that he stops staring at me either with it on or off.

I spent the night, and no, just in case anyone is reading this, I didn’t sleep with him. He was a gentleman and I’m totally lucky to have such an awesome boyfriend. Oh yeah, he’s my boyfriend! I had such a good time. We went swimming in our underwear and we watched a bit of Source Code, but mostly it was just face time.

I can’t wait for him to meet my family next. Hopefully soon, considering he’s officially mine now. Mom is already planning a BBQ. I’m excited to learn with him, to learn more about him, and just see him again. I’m totally smitten. I don’t know if I love him, but I’m thinking about it. I’ll just have to let time do its magic.

With every passing moment
I feel myself falling farther
Into love with you.

Jalen August

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[Jalen August]

I had such fun at the lake today! Nothing special really, just got to know some people from school (and out). Robbie seems fun, so does Ethan. I also got to hang out with Tae a little more, one of Cole’s exes. It was fun playing chicken in the lake and just relaxing. I don’t know if I’ll ever seen any of them again (even though Robbie goes to Hammel), but that’s not the point. That’s what I keep telling myself anyways. Not everyone that I meet is going to become my best friend, it’s just something I have to learn to accept.

If there’s anything to say
I would say it

Jalen August

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[Jalen August]

Cody met my lovely family today. We had a picnic and it was glorious. We had little sandwiches and lots of good juice. Cody liked my lemon pie, and well, I can barely write about this part of the day, because it was the end that was the best. My family totally digs him, and that makes me really happy. Honestly, if they got a bad vibe from him, I probably couldn’t be with him.

But the best part of the day? He told me he loves me! I know it happened quickly, but it’s never happened to me before, so it has to be special. He’s just so good to me, and no one’s ever treated me so well, not like he does. Of course I told him I love him back, because I do! Ugh, I’m so heartsick, I miss him even more now, so I don’t know if telling him I loved him was good for me – how am I supposed to cope without him now? I’m already super clingy and obsessive... I don’t really want to drive him away.

Mum and I had a great conversation. She’s really excited for me, and I’m glad she skipped the awkward sex talk. I’m sure that she trusts me with that sort of thing by now – not that I’m an expert or anything. Man, I wonder if that’s what Cody expects now... Hopefully not. Not sure if I’m ready for that step yet. I want to get to know him a little bit more before I give that to him, and him to me. We’ll see how things go, I’m not about to map out my life with him.

I’m just so excited to be here right now. I have a boyfriend and a best friend. He knows me well.

Roses are red
Violets are blue
Corn is yellow
And so are you
Corny

Jalen August

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[Jalen August]

I was having a rather peaceful day when Braxton had to come along and ruin it. Cole was my saving grace, and although they probably would've duked it out (because boys are stupid that way) I'm really glad they didn't. It's just nice to see that I have friends who are willing to stand up for me when I need them. How cool is that right? Anyways, I just thought I'd put a blurb in here about how I think Braxton will stop pestering me now. He tried, I'll give him that much.

Jalen August

Lazy Days

[Jalen August]

It was super nice of Cole to invite me to his party. I didn't bother telling Cody about it, I figured he wouldn't mind if I went out and enjoyed myself. It wasn't like I did anything stupid anyways. On the contrary, I think that if anyone was misbehaving, it was Cole. He was sleeping around like a cheap slut and then he had to go and get himself beaten up badly enough to be sent to the hospital. Honestly...

I feel kinda bad though, I did promise to look out for him. Then again, it wasn't exactly my fault someone spiked my drink and I was out for the count. I woke up next to Larousse, not that anything happened between us. Actually, he was quite tolerable for the duration of the evening. I think the key to handling Zac is ignoring anything he says that you don't like. You really come out on top this way.

Anyways, I had fun, Cole will live and life moves on. I had a great time, it was nice to spend time with friends and shoot a little beer pong. I wonder how Cody would feel about all this... Everything that happened tonight anyways... I wonder if he'll be mad when I tell him...

Jalen August

Let The Fun Begin

[Jalen August]

It took a while, but JD finally met up with me for some math lessons. At least one of us knows what they’re doing. He’s a pretty good teacher, but won’t admit to it. I’m happy I actually know what’s going on now though, well, for the most part. I didn’t want to bother him too much, the rest I can figure out on my own. Or I’ll try at least. It’s gonna take one heavy set of clamps to get through to him though, he acts so distant, like something is wrong between us or something.

He is especially cute when he goes on his long winded rants
I don’t think I told him I’m dating Cody, I thought it would be common knowledge by now. Could that be the reason why he’s soar? Maybe I’m just jumping to conclusions though, he is a boy after all. There’s more to him than meets the eye though, and I don’t want to say he’s a puzzle that needs to be figured out, but if he was, he would definitely be 1000 pieces.

I had the stupid idea of betting on winning a video game, which I lost horribly. Well we tied the first round, and he won the second one. Not that it was really my fault, just a stroke of bad luck. I still think I’m the best gamer, but he did beat me fair and square – unfortunately. I had fun getting to know him though. He didn’t need to tell me he wasn’t outgoing, I figured that one out for myself a long time ago. But at least he’s honest and answers my questions, most would fine me horribly annoying at this point. He has a unique and great sense of humour, I can see why Larousse needs JD to balance him out.

Guess I owe him a steak dinner...

May the best gamer win.
But the best gamer lost!

Jalen August


Study Break /// Anything You Can Do

[Jalen August]

I never thought I would go up on stage and sing, but when Cole told me it was for the hurricane relief fun, I couldn’t say no. I had a lot of fun, and would totally do it again. I guess I owe Kessler a thanks for getting through my nerves. I sort of wish Cody could’ve been there to see me up on stage, but it’s alright that he didn’t come. I had a good time showing off and singing that duet I wrote for Cole. He’s an awesome guy, and I’m glad to have such a good friend.

Jalen August
P.S. I took a picture of him after the concert, during tear down!


Hurricane Relief Concert