Natasha's World

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It insults me to no end when people lie to my face like I am stupid! I can -feel- when they deceive me and I must admit that sometimes I use that against them. I don't always battle with words but sometimes it amuses me to trap them in their own lies.

Ah speaking of insults, I spoke with Claus on the phone again. You remember the gorgeous German model with the flawless cheekbones? Yes, him. Well he got bored with me talking of Gabriel and he asked me (for the millionth time!) why I didn't get an abortion! I yelled at him, "Do I look like a quitter? Do I take the -easy- way out- ever--- ?!!! I had a NATURAL childbirth with no pain killers, why? because I refuse to give in!" I lost my temper with him and realized a new depth to my abilities--I projected over the phone!!

I am planning on taking a self-defense course soon because I saw the flier today. I've always had incidents here and there of men hitting on me, and I can't I always school my emotions as defense. It's practical to have a physical back up plan. I hope the class is not a group of 50 people lined up shouting, "HIYA!' every 3 seconds! I'm probably stereotyping, and things will turn out just fine.

Zacroy rot! Shut up! Gabriel's crying, so I have to go.

Regards,
Kotik