To Cuddle A Panda (Xun)

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Xun listened patiently, blue eyes wide, curious, and amazed, as the younger boy listed off the various things he liked about him. He giggled a little nervously at the comment about his body, wrapping his arms around himself self-consciously. “Thanks…” he mumbled shyly. He went quiet again, though, until Devyn was finished, and he lifted himself up slightly in alarm. “You thought I did not like you?” he asked, feeling awful. “Oh, no… I am so sorry… I am just shy…” But of course, Dev knew that now, didn’t he?

A moment later, though, he smiled softly and leaned in to kiss his roommate on the forehead. “You… You are so sweet,” he mumbled, resting his forehead against the younger boy’s for a moment. “I do not think that was stupid at all… I-I am… I am glad that you know me better now, too. I think… You are very cute and attractive too.” He kissed Devyn on the nose. “And… I m-mean, I like how you are physically too, but… I like learning more about you.” He swallowed hard and blushed. “And… I want to keep learning more.” Why was his heart beating so fast all of a sudden?

He pulled away slightly, too, embarrassed by his own words. Something about the setting just made it easy for him to spill out his thoughts without worrying about it too much until after they’d already been said. Xun was glad that his roommate forgave him, but he still felt like he was being weird and awkward and nosy. He busied his hands with the box of snacks, lest they try to reach out and unintentionally tease the younger boy again. But then again, Dev seemed to be hiding under the covers, and Xun wasn’t sure if he should touch him again yet at all.

“Too good?” he repeated, bewildered. “You… you are just exaggerating.” Anyone could touch Dev like that and make him feel good, right? Maybe? Ahh, Xun didn’t know… He went quiet as he munched on his snacks and let Devyn recover, feeling both amazed and bad that he’d made Devyn feel so… Much. When he did reappear, Xun shook his head and smiled kindly over at him. “It’s okay… and… I-I feel the same… Right now…” he admitted. He finally put his snack away and, tentatively, scooted up next to Dev again with a yawn. “Do… Do you want… M-me to hold you…. while we sleep?” he asked, voice shaking with uncertainty. That’s what people sometimes did when they slept in the same bed, right? It sounded nice, at least…

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It was hard to keep talking once he saw the look on Xun's face, so once he got a good look at his face Devyn found himself looking anywhere but the boy's eyes as he spouted off his compliments. He shook his head slightly, "No, no....it's okay. I mean I know that /now/." He noticed the way Xun covered himself up self-consciously and he thought he might have embarrassed him too much.

He chuckled at the kiss to his forehead, leaning in even more to him. He was happy and a little melty at the feel of the kisses against his face, and his eyes drifted closed contentedly. His eyes opened when he said that he wanted to keep learning about him, and he smiled softly and pressed a small kiss to his lips. "Hmm, sounds good."

Devyn knew what he meant, it was very...intimate feeling between them and he was comfortable enough to share some of the things that had been bothering him. But it seemed to be working against him as well, because while he was happy to get things off his chest he was also incredibly flustered by all the things both he and Xun were saying.

"Not at all," he huffed and got out from under the blanket, running his hands through his hair as he let out a loud breath meant to calm him down. "At least, you seem pretty good at to me." Very good at whatever it was. "Yes," he answered quickly and looked up at Xun, cuddling back up against him as he scooted closer to him again. He was glad Xun had offered because otherwise he wasn't sure he would have known how to. "Are... Are you ready to go to sleep," his own sentence punctuated with a yawn.

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Xun wondered briefly if it would be too much to ask to do this every night. He already felt a lot more relaxed than he usually did at night, being with someone that he liked, and overall he just felt… happy. Content. Like this was how he should be sleeping, and not in his room alone by himself apart from his panda. It wasn’t like his plushie could talk back, like Dev was doing. And the kisses too… Xun smiled as Devyn placed another one on his lips, wondering if he would ever get tired of them.

All he wanted to do now was hold the boy and fall asleep. Xun did feel a little awkward asking if that was okay, but Dev’s quick response calmed his nerves and brought a smile to his face. “Okay…” he murmured, gently wrapping his arms around his roommate and letting out a soft, content sigh. Mmm… It was so warm and comfy like this…. Xun tucked his head against the back of Devyn’s, nuzzling his face into the boy’s hair. “Mhmmmm…” he replied sleepily. “Very ready…” It didn’t take nearly as long as it usually did for Xun to fall asleep, and soon his breaths had evened out and his arms had relaxed even more around the younger boy. He was still smiling in his sleep.