To Cuddle A Panda (Xun)

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Things seemed to have returned to at least semi-normal between him and Xun as the few days after their hookup? he was still at a loss for what to call it. They'd hardly gone all the way, but they'd gone far enough that things felt a bit off between them. They had yet to be able to really talk about it after Nao walked in on them as they had fallen asleep as soon as he left, and the opportunity just hadn't presented itself yet.

He had noticed that Xun spoke with him more and they both gravitated toward each other when they were in the same room. It was obvious he wasn't the only one of the two that didn't want to pretend that it had never happened.

His roommates had retreated to their rooms for the night, and Devyn felt a bit better when not staring at Xun trying to figure out how to talk to the taller much shyer boy.

Fate seemed to agree, it was late at night when someone knocked on the door to his room. It confused him, the main door was locked and he had thought all his roommates went to bed, considering it was almost midnight now. He rose from his desk and stretched his arms over his head, he had planned on going to sleep soon and so was only in a pair of pajama pants. He'd been sitting down at the desk for a while and felt a little tight in the joints as he walked to the door. "Hello?" he asked curiously as he opened it up, hand rubbing at his neck where it hurt from being bent over a book for the past few hours. "Xun?" he said in surprise, taking his taller roommate in and noticing that he was holding his blanket in his arms.

"Do you, uh, do you wanna come in?" He opened the door wider, a little pink in the cheeks as he led him into the room, closing the door behind him. He'd been wanting to talk to them, but hadn't quite been expecting anything like this.

"Hey," he repeated his greeting awkwardly, "What's up?"

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Xun wasn’t a very heavy sleeper, and often had trouble just falling asleep. His minimum needs for being able to nod off included his panda plushie and night light, but sometimes even that wasn’t enough to keep away his fear of the dark (and things that lurked in the dark). Tonight was one of those nights that he’d tried to go to bed and couldn’t, just laid there imagining that the dorm room was haunted and a ghost might be wandering around…. He was incredibly superstitious, and even though those sorts of fears might seem silly to most people, they were very real to him.

An idea had come to him that he at first was too nervous to go through with. Despite what he and Devyn had done a couple days ago, and their interactions since then, the Chinese boy was still a little uncertain of where they lay relationship-wise. Xun… Wanted to think they were at least friends. He didn’t know how many friends did that sort of stuff, but… Well, they hadn’t done it since then (not because he didn’t want to….). Dev didn’t seem to mind him, at least.

Eventually, Xun got the courage to grab a couple things – his blanket, his panda, his night light, and a couple bags of snacks – and shuffled over to his roommate’s door, hesitating for several moments before lightly knocking on the door. His eyes were cast shyly downward when Dev opened it, and he fidgeted nervously with the objects in his hands. “H-hi…” he replied quietly, feeling a pale blush rise on his cheeks. He was too nervous to notice yet that the boy wasn’t wearing a shirt.

“I, um… Yes, please,” he murmured, relieved for the offer. “I am sorry it is so late…” Xun shuffled inside and glanced around, wondering if it would be too much to ask to plug in his night light. Probably…. “I… I-I could not sleep…” he explained nervously. “I thought… maybe… if you were not asleep yet, that I could… Um…” His face was getting hotter, and he was growing stiff with anxiety. “… M-maybe I could stay in here for a little while?” Xun’s pale eyes finally rose to meet the younger boy’s, and he bit his lip, squeezing his panda tighter to his chest.

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Devyn was pretty sure that if they could call each other anything, the least they could say was that they were friends. Which, he certainly hoped was true because he liked Xun, and not just because it would be miserable to live with someone who hated him.

He had been allowed to see what the teen was like when he was comfortable, and he had decided that he liked it and wanted to get to know him better. It was hard to just suddenly change the way they'd always gone about things, though, and he hadn't been able to figure out how to approach Xun about changing it.

To be honest, he'd never expected Xun to be the one who approached him first, he just hadn't thought it to be something the teen would do. So it was a surprise to see him at his door armed with what could only be assumed to be the supplies for a sleepover.

"No, it's fine," he shut the door, scratching the side of his head as he looked over his room. He was thankful that he had cleaned it recently. "I was up anyway," he gestured toward his desk, "just finishing up some school stuff."

Devyn smiled a bit, it wasn't that he was entertained by Xun's nervousness, just that he found it a little endearing. "Yeah," he nodded, agreeing to allow the boy to stay. He looked back down at his blanket, the presence of the stuffed animal and night light were not lost on him. They hardly seemed like things someone would bring over if they intended to only stay for a short while, maybe Xun was too shy to ask outright.

"Did you... Do you wanna stay the night in my room?" he asked, the back of his ears heating with a small blush as he asked. "I mean--" he struggled to reason it out in a way that wasn't for his purely selfish desire to sleep beside his roommate, "M-maybe it'll help you fall asleep?"

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Xun definitely acted different around people he was more comfortable around, and since he’d… pretty much gotten really comfortable with Devyn really quickly, it wasn’t surprising that the younger boy was seeing a different side of him. Sure, they were still a little awkward, especially because of the circumstances, but hopefully that would ease with time.

It surprised him, too, that he’d gotten the nerve to come over and try this, which was why Xun was relieved when Dev didn’t seem weirded out. “Ah, you were?” he replied, glad that he hadn’t woken his roommate up. “I see… I should probably do school work too, but… I am lazy,” he admitted sheepishly. Besides, he had plenty of time to do his current assignments, he wasn’t too worried.

A small smile lit up his face when Devyn said he could stay. Xun did want to ask if he could stay over for the whole night, but… As Dev predicted, he was definitely too shy to ask for that much. “Thank you….” Xun was about to sit down on the edge of the bed when his roommate made the offer himself, and his eyes widened slightly in surprise, and his lips parted. Was it… Really so easy…? He really could have just asked himself….?

“Yes!” he replied, then, realizing he might sound too enthusiastic, Xun cleared his throat and rubbed the back of his neck, laughing nervously. “I mean… Yes… Please… If it is not too much of a bother….” He nodded along with the boy’s ‘excuse’. “… I am not a very good sleeper…. I am afraid of the dark,” he admitted quietly. Xun tentatively held out his night light for Devyn to see. If his face could get any redder, it did. “I-I usually… Turn this on… I know it is silly, but…” He looked down and to the side. “Oh! And I brought a snack,” he added quickly, rummaging around in his blanket until he found the small boxes he’d stashed to bring over. “You can have as much as you like.”

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Devyn chuckled at the revelation, he'd always thought Xun was the studious type, but knowing him a little better he could tell that the laziness attribute was probably more fitting. "If you.. if you ever need help. I'd be glad to." Devyn was the kind of guy who had his work done way in advance and used the extra time to do more studying. Plus it meant maybe having his roommate in his room with him more often.

He stayed standing even after Xun seated himself on the bed, "Yeah, it's not a problem," he looked around the room awkwardly, rubbing the back of his neck before sitting down stiffly beside him. Devyn had no issues with the guy staying the night, not when he'd been craving a repeat of the night they'd cuddled and fallen asleep in each other's arms.

But, he also wanted to talk about the things they had yet to bring up yet.

Such as, everything else that had happened that day.

"Oh," he responded in genuine surprise, eyebrows raising. His intention wasn't to offend him or for him to think he was odd, but he was concerned it might sound that way, "I-I'm afraid of water. Like deep water where I can't see my feet." He took the nightlight from him, "So, no it's not silly. We can't really help what we're afraid of."

He crawled across the bed and plugged the nightlight in and set it on his bedside table before returning to sit beside Xun. "Thanks," he took the boxes and looked at them for a while. "You like pandas?" He asked though the answer was fairly obvious considering all the panda-themed things he'd brought with him.

It was exciting for him to find out so many things about him at once, and they were all cute and endearing to him. But he just found Xun cute in general and so it was hard for him to not like these things about him. He grinned down at the snack boxes, working up a little courage before leaning over to press a small kiss to his cheek. "You're adorable," he voiced out loud, he felt like he was never not blushing when he was around his roommate, "and I didn't get to say it last time because Nao walked in, but I think I like you too. I don't know a lot about you, but I want to."

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Xun was surprised at the offer, and looked up, his emotion evident on his face. “Ah… You are very kind,” he replied with a faint blush. “I… I am good at math and science, but… English and social studies… not as much.” He could power through the former homework in no time at all, thanks in part to his ability, but the latter stumped him often. Maybe Dev could help, if he really didn’t mind…

He stiffened slightly as the other boy sat beside him, very conscious of how close they were to each other. He felt their arms brush, and he unintentionally flinched, not because he didn’t like it, but because he was so sensitive to it. “… Sorry… I… I am a little nervous…” he admitted sheepishly. He unintentionally licked his lips.

Xun was really afraid that Devyn would laugh at his silly night light – he knew most boys would, which was why he never told anyone, but… he felt like he could trust his roommate. He seemed understanding, and the Chinese boy wasn’t disappointed in his reaction. “Really?” he replied, curious. “I can understand that fear. Deep water is a little frightening…” He glanced up with a shy smile. “I am glad you understand.”

He fidgeted with the things in his lap as Dev plugged in the light, smiling more as he saw it turn on. He felt calmer already. “Ah… Yes,” he said with a small laugh. “It… Well, it was one of my nicknames back home…” Xun couldn’t remember if he started liking pandas because of the nickname, or if the nickname came because of his fondness for the animal.

He swung his legs against the bed, a little lost on what to say when silence hung over them for a moment. It was the kiss that shocked him out of his nervous thoughts, and Xun sent a shocked look over at his roommate, tenderly touching his cheek where his lips had just been. It felt warm. “I-I-I am?” he stammered. He listened with astonishment to what Devyn said next, lips slightly agape. “Y-you do?” He continued to stare at the younger boy for several long moments before smiling again, shyly, and risked leaning in and resting against Dev’s shoulder. “… I want to know more about you too,” he murmured. “I… I really liked… When we did…. Those things…” A blush lit up his cheeks again. “… Should we lay down?”

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Devyn found himself constantly smiling whenever he was around Xun, it was obvious that he was caught off guard by his offer. He found that Xun's expressions were very honest, and it was something he was not used to. Even Sunar who was kind to a fault kept things to himself and hid emotions from his face. But it was like Xun wasn't even aware that he made himself very easy to read. Well, now that he was more comfortable with Devyn at least before his face had a very stone-like expression to it.

"Math and science are my strongest as well. I can't help much with English, but I can do what I can to help with social studies!" From his experience that subject had just been memorization and he could probably help him out by drilling facts and dates with him.

"Me too," he admitted awkwardly, not overly offended at his flinch because he definitely understood where he was coming from. Devyn bit his own lip when Xun's tongue flicked out and across his lip, but he decided not to tease him or bring it up. It was just a nervous habit he was going to have to stop being so damned attracted to.

He looked away, keeping himself from getting anymore distracted than he had been looking at Xun's lips. Devyn smiled again, glad to be distracted from thinking about things that might make this a whole lot more awkward than it already was.

So, he had been called Panda? He wondered if it was a nickname he had liked, but he thought it rather fitting and of course cute. He didn't have an animal that he liked like that, so much so that he had items or nicknames based on them.

Devyn nodded, chuckling at his astonishment. Nervously, he bit his lip, waiting before finally answering. "I-I uh, I liked it too." He found himself not able to look him in the eyes for too long or he would feel a fresh, hot bloom across his face. "Yeah," his voice croaked when he spoke, looking down as he nodded again, "yeah, if we ever want to go to sleep we probably should."

Hesitantly, he reached for Xun's hand, he didn't want to press any boundaries in this very sensitive stage they were in so he moved gradually to give him time to move away. Once he was able to wrap his hand around Xun's he gently tugged him toward him so that they could lay close to each other down on the bed.

He was facing him when he laid down, and he tried to calm himself down before he spoke. "I-Is that your natural eye color?" Of course he had mentioned this before, but he decided to say it again, "It's a really pretty color."

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Xun couldn’t believe how easily Devyn had offered his help. Maybe…. Maybe he wanted to spend more time together too…? It was probably just Xun’s wishful thinking… “That would be really nice,” he replied with a shy smile. “Thank you, Devyn…. I hope I can repay you for it…” Xun didn’t know with what, but he would think of something.

He was glad to hear that Dev understood why he was so jumpy, but… also curious if it was for the same reason. Well… What else would it be, he supposed? Xun was just too damn shy to ask, though, and didn’t even notice how the younger boy felt about something as simple as him wetting his lips. It was a nervous habit he didn’t even realize he had.

He didn’t know why he’d shared that sort of embarrassing thing about his nickname, but… well, it was out now, so there wasn’t much he could do about it. Apparently Xun felt more comfortable around Dev than he realized. “Really?” he asked with relief, to hear that Devyn had enjoyed their… thing. He didn’t know what else to say, and was glad when his roommate too the initiative and touched his hand.

Xun looked down at their interlaced fingers, and smiled a shy smile, tightening the grip slightly to reassure the boy that it was okay. More than okay, even – his heart felt like it was pounding in his glee and excitement. He settled back on the bed with the younger boy, clutching his panda to his chest as he situated the blanket over first himself, and then, after a moment’s pause, tossed half of it over Devyn as well. It was big enough to cover them both. “… we can share warmth like this,” he mumbled, feeling the need to explain.

They were so close… Not quite touching, but close enough that Xun could feel the warm breaths coming from Dev’s lips against his face. The question surprised him, and he stared for a moment before self-consciously looking away and covering his hand over his eyes. “… It is,” he admitted, embarrassed. He didn’t expect the next comment, either, which left him even more stunned. “… You think so?” he replied. “I… I do not know…. A lot of people make fun of them, so I hide them with contacts usually…” Tentatively, he uncovered his eyes and leaned into Devyn more, resting his forehead against the boy’s jawline. “…. You have a beautiful body…” he mumbled, face heating up all over again. “I… I liked… kissing it…. V-very much…”

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Of course, Devyn wanted to spend more time with him, as of right now he wanted nothing more than to spend ridiculous, and probably unhealthy, amounts of time with Xun. He wasn't sure if it was to be attributed completely to what they had done or if because he had a crush or something like that but all he knew was what he feeling right then. "No," he shook his head again, "Don't worry about it. You don't owe me anything at all. I offered because I wanted to."

"Yeah," he winced at how awkward he sounded, "I... uh, liked it a lot actually." Devyn wanted to say something about doing it again sometime but he couldn't seem to force the words out quite yet. He sat quietly for a moment, trying to decide how he could even bring that up.

He smiled, relieved when he felt their grip tighten. He would never have thought his heart could race so much at simply holding someone's hand. "Thanks," he snuggled in a little closer to Xun, fighting the embarrassed tug at his chest and telling himself it was only because he didn't want to hog the blanket. "Yeah," he blushed, "... it's nice."

Devyn reached up unconsciously, fingers brushing over the back of Xun's hands when he covered his eyes. He nodded, "I'm sorry... it kind of upsets me people would tease you over something like that." But that was how some people were sadly, "Well... I like them a lot." He blushed, moving his hands when Xun uncovered his eyes.

His breath hitchded quietly as Xun moved closer, he scooted as well, closing the gap between them so that they were touching. His blush darkened considerably and he stuttered in response, "T-T-Thanks..." he left a pause deciding whether or not to say anything out loud, and finally managed to stutter out, "I real-really liked i-it too."

In embarrassment at his next words Devyn covered his face, sentence muffled and strung together quickly, "maybewecoulddoitagainsometime?"

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Xun knew that, despite what he and Dev had done, he still had some form of a crush on Nao…. But now he was having similar feelings for his roommate, and maybe even stronger ones, considering they had done things and it was actually possible that they might do them again. Xun didn’t know if that was even possible with Nao, so…. Should he just give up on that one, and pursue Devyn instead? He didn’t know… “You are so kind…” he mumbled shyly. So much less selfish than the Chinese boy had thought, what with his hoarding the cupcakes and all.

And now they were lying here in bed together, under the same blanket, facing towards one another, and Xun didn’t feel as nervous as he thought he would. Sure, he was still nervous to some degree, but not nearly as much as he was around people he didn’t know.

He felt the boy’s hands touch his, and goosebumps ran up his arms at the contact. Rather than make him tense up more, however, it soothed and relaxed Xun, especially the words that came with it. “It… It is okay… Not many people here know that they are not dark, so most of the mean comments are from when I was younger,” he admitted. Funny how something like that could stay with you for so long. Xun didn’t know what to say to Devyn’s kind words, though. “…. You have pretty eyes, too,” he finally managed, sheepishly, once he glanced at the younger boy’s face again. He had a pretty everything, really…

He sighed contentedly when Devyn shifted to move closer to him, and Xun’s own heartbeat started to quicken. It wasn’t unpleasant, though. Not at all. He glanced up at his roommate’s stuttering, smiling a little in return. “I am glad… I still do not know how I knew what to do…” It was amazing, he thought, that he’d managed to make the boy react as much as he had.

Most people might have had a little trouble picking out the words from Dev’s quickly uttered sentence, but Xun’s brain processed information quickly, and his eyes widened in surprise and delight. “Yes!” he exclaimed, then meekly added,”I mean… yes, I would like that.” He bit his lip and looked down, then, tentatively, moved his hands forward and down until he managed to find those familiar stomach muscles under the bed again. He rested his palms against them as he tucked himself (and his panda) deeper into Devyn’s chest. “Wow…” he breathed. “I… I c-can’t wait… to do it again…”

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Devyn shrugged a bit, a sheepish smile and laugh came in response to the teen's mumbled compliment, "Ah, thanks... I try?" It was hard to stay calm when he was face to face, noses practically touching, with the only current object of his affections, but he tried.

He hesitantly brought his arm to Xun's side, draping it over him at first before pulling at him into himself more. "Still," he mumbled, "I don't.. like it." Rather he didn't like that anything about the boy had ever been teased, and especially not something he found to be exceptionally attractive. A nervous laugh sputtered out of him and he turned his face to try and hide the color in his cheeks against the sheet, "They're pretty average honestly."

His ears felt a little more on fire than he would really like them to, "Neither did I... but I guess we managed okay." He laughed, he began to stroke down his roommate's back with the hand he had wrapped around him. "You definitely did."

Of course, he was a little surprised at first by Xun's enthusiasm, but it was rather infectious considering how worried he was about what the response might be, "Really?" He questioned with just as much excitement though his expression changed as he felt Xun's hands slide across his stomach.
As if mirroring Xun, Devyn bit his lip as well, thinking over the feel of his hands along his bare stomach. Maybe if they didn't go too far, he didn't want to stay up much longer than they had, but he didn't want to... /not/ do this either. He leaned back and took in his roommate's face before leaning forward to press a soft kiss to his lips, pausing to wait for any kind of encouragement or discouragement before pressing another, longer one to his lips. "Mhm," he mumbled in agreement, with a slight nod.

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Xun’s breath caught a little as Devyn put his arm over his side, but he smiled giddily as he was pulled closer. He’d been so nervous and hesitant to come over, but now he was really glad that he did. “It… It is okay….” he murmured, biting his lip. “As… long as you like them… Then that is all that matters.” Xun blushed for the millionth time – had he really just said that?

He shook his head in disbelief. “I n-never would have, ah… thought… to, um…. Y-you know…” Xun motioned vaguely downwards, recalling when Devyn had surprised him with his boldness. He shivered at the strokes down his back, chuckling quietly to himself. Was he dreaming? “I am just glad I did not mess everything up,” he said sheepishly.

It was time for him to be surprised by his own boldness, though – Xun didn’t realize where he was putting his hands until they were there, and he giggled a little nervously, running his thumb along the lines that defined Devyn’s abs. “Yes….” he repeated again, more shyly. Of course he wanted to do that stuff again, it felt so good… Xun looked up curiously as Dev touched his face, and let out a surprised noise as their lips met. Once he got over his shock, he smiled and gladly kissed him back, relishing how soft and warm his roommate felt. Once they broke apart, he had to resist the urge to do it over and over again. His cheeks were flushed a delicate pink, and is eyelids had grown heavy, drunk on the way he felt being this close to the younger boy. Xun couldn’t help but think about what they could do if they kept this up…. But he, too, knew that it was late, and he was pretty tired as well, so to distract himself, he groped around until he found the box of snacks he’d brought over and opened it, offering the treats to his roommate with a dopey smile. “I should, ah… Probably fill up on these… instead of on you…” he giggled, blush deepening. “As much as I would like to….” Xun licked his lips unconsciously.

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They were close enough that he could hear the pause in Xun's breath, it made him nervous until he saw the smile on his face and he was put at ease by it. His own giddy smile spread across his lips, taking in the look of him laying in front of him. "Yeah?" he chuckled, though his own blush made it obvious that he was, at least, a little embarrassed as well despite having liked hearing it. "I like a lot of things about you... not just your eyes you know."

Xun was proving to be one of the most embarrassment inducing thing in his life to date, his hands clapped over his face as his blush intensified to a level where he could feel the heat radiate off his skin. "Y-yeah... It was just...a though. A lot of the guys talk about the stuff they do in the locker room and I just." He continued to cover his face, infinitely more embarrassed now just talking about it than he had been when he actually did it.

Eventually he calmed down enough to move his hands though his face was still very visibly red, as if he'd just run a marathon. "I doubt you could have screwed that up in any way." He had been happy enough just kissing, everything else was just a very good bonus.

Devyn bit down his lip, trying not to get too aroused by what he was doing, though his efforts weren't working very well. "Ah, I-I should give you my number or something," not right now, he didn't want to move away right now, "T-that way you can message me or call or whatever when...you...want...to." Maybe he allowed himself to get too swept away in his roommates fingers tracing his stomach, or the closeness, or even the conversation they were having but he couldn't help the soft groan that escaped during their kiss.

Thankfully Xun was able to exert the neccessary self control and pulled away, sending a flush of awareness back through his senses as well as a sense of relief. Though it was quickly banished at his comment about filling up, "Oh my god," he groaned and took the accepted snack befoer rolling over to hide his face in the pillows, "You're killing me Xun."

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Xun blinked curiously as Devyn mentioned liking more things about him. “Like… like what?” he asked shyly, wondering if it was vain or stupid of him to ask. Of course, there were many things he liked about Dev as well, and they weren’t all just physical things like his abs… But he was too shy to just admit them outright. Maybe if Dev went first…

Xun was embarrassing himself as much as he was embarrassing Devyn, if not more so. Sometimes he just didn’t realize what he was saying or doing until he’d already done it. “Sorry…” he said meekly as Dev covered his face, and cuddled in a little closer to nuzzle the boy’s hair as a sort of apology. “Ah… that explains it…” he mumbled. Xun wasn’t around “guy talk” very much, and when he was, he didn’t usually pay attention. At least Devyn had, otherwise that night might not have been as great as it was.

Xun stilled his hands eventually, realizing how… teasing… Dev probably thought he was being. He wasn’t trying to be! He just… wanted to touch them… “Oh, yes!” he agreed with a nod. Although what his roommate said next made a fresh blush rise up on his cheeks, and his next nod was much more embarrassed. “S-sure,” he agreed with a nervous giggle. “That… That sounds good.” Because kissing… Xun didn’t think he would get tired of that very soon, nor the rest of the stuff that they had done…

He didn’t really realize exactly what he’d said until Devyn got ultra embarrassed about it, and Xun’s eyes widened in horror. “Ah… I mean…!” he stammered, trying to make up for it, but there was no way to take it back. He quickly stuffed his mouth with food and flopped to lie on his back, giving the other boy a little space. “… I am not good at this stuff,” he mumbled, stating the obvious. “I should just stop talking.” So Xun continued to munch, determined not to make an even bigger dummy out of himself than he had already. He felt hyper-aware of every move that he made, though, and how close they still were. And he sure did like those kisses...

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Of course, he really should have expected Xun to ask, it was only natural to be curious when someone said something like that. His hesitation wasn't because he /didn't/ have other reasons to like the boy, he was just... unsure about sharing them for fear that they might be weird.

"I guess, I don't really know how to put it?" his voice was at the end of the sentence, making it sound more like a question than the statement it was. He sought, in his mind, a way to verbalize his thoughts. "I mean, other than physically, which I think is really great all around," he chuckled nervously, groaning at himself for saying that before forcing himself to continue. He didn't want Xun to think he had been lying or anything like that, "One thing is... well, it's not really a thing it's more just how you are?" Again with the awkward question statement, "What I mean is, I like how for a while I thought you didn't like me and that's why you were so quiet... or that you were a bit of a mystery-" he cut himself off, burying his face again in embarrassment.

"It will sound stupid," That was probably a warning he should have put on the entire dialog, "I just... really like that I know a side of you that a lot of people don't. And I like that I can read your expressions better now that I know you're just shy. I just seem to think you are very cute and the things you do without even realize it... are very attractive to me."

He wasn't quite ready to look back at Xun after saying those things, but he peeked out at him slightly from over his arms to test his reaction to what was probably the stupidest string of words he had ever pulled together.

"It's fine," he responded finally to his apology, it's not that he blamed Xun for purposefully embarrassing him. He knew the guy was innocent and curious, but that made it all the harder knowing that he was reacting in a way that was completely unintended. He was relieved to no longer feel his roommates fingers on him, not to say he didn't miss them... but maybe now they could put it off until another day, now that they had established there /would/ be another day.

"It's fine!" Devyn croaked out again, still not ready to remove himself from hiding, and even pulled the blanket over his head."... I wouldn't say you're not /good/ at it. Just maybe too good at it." Or at least that was the previously growing issue in his pants had been convinced of.

He laid in silence for a while, heart still pounding in his chest as he waited for his blood to leave his face and maybe cool himself down a bit. "Sorry," he mumbled when he finally decided to come out from under the blanket, "I probably overreacted... I'm just not used to this... and I'm just..." he groaned at what he was about to say, "really aware of you."