Awakening
Jan 10, 2011 4:28:08 GMT -5
Post by Amy Copperfield on Jan 10, 2011 4:28:08 GMT -5
So surreal. So...unreal. It couldn't have happened, right? Come on...someone had probably screamed, but it couldn't have been her. No. It must've been some idiot who bought the wrong hair color by mistake, or maybe someone found their poor cat named Skippy lying dead in a gutter. It was a horrible thought, but it was far more plausible than her having screamed. And besides, even if she had...
No. That just wasn't possible. Not possible at all. Maybe someone set off a bomb. Except...well, she was pretty sure that car had been intact. Maybe it had been shockwaves from a bomb gone wrong? She'd heard about that...people making explosives blowing themselves to smithereens, while a half-mile away, someone's front windshield blows out. Sure, it was just urban legend, but it was more plausible than what her asthma-plagued mind had apparently come up with.
She allowed herself a mental laugh, which sounded (could thoughts have sounds?) weak and shaky to her, at the very idea. Her father...he was there, lying on his bed with the door open. It was the same old story, and she had to stick to that or she'd go mad. She was sure of it. Maybe she already was going mad, or was beyond-hope crazy by this point. Had she ever been truly sane? No. She couldn't think. Just...don't think.
Her hands pulled her father's blanket over him, trying to keep him warm. Her eyes drifted to the three-minutes-off alarm clock at his left shoulder. 10.19a. She took a deep breath - or as deep a breath as she could usually take, anyway - stifling a near-cough as she did so. She plodded out of his room silently, closing the door behind her. The girl's wet hair was still wet from the shower she'd just had. She could barely remember her nightmare now, the vaguest hint of three shadowy figures - maybe four? Five? Dancing at the back of her seemingly frail mind.
In her worn, bubblegum-pink slippers, her feet were almost completely silent. She managed to pour herself a glass of orange juice, but her hand shook as she held it. She stared at it for a moment, trying to will it to stop shaking. When that failed, she set the held it with both hands. Then she set the glass down, one hand upon it and the other flat upon the faded teal tiles of the kitchen counter, fingers splayed out as though to finger-paint a hand-turkey. She took a few breaths to steady herself, closing her eyes, trying to clear her mind.
She fumbled for her inhaler. She wasn't breathing normally. It was the stress. Yeah; that had to be it. Yesterday was just a really, really bad day. A bad fucking day, as Christian Kane might say. Her eyes snapped open as she tried to discern if she'd said that aloud, however. She looked around nervously as she shook her inhaler, used it as she glanced toward his door; if her dad caught her cussing, he'd lay into her but good. But no; she hadn't...she was sure of that, at least. Perhaps there was a bit of sanity left in her after all. Or perhaps not. As she looked down at her white knuckles, she released the vice-like grip on the base of her glass. Any tighter and she would've cracked it. She worked her hand a few times, getting feeling back into it.
The remote. It was just over there. The news...the news would prove to her that it wasn't her. It was a dream, or she hadn't been involved, or something. It wasn't her problem and if it did happen, it certainly wasn't her fault. She had nothing to do with it.
Nothing whatsoever.
But as she reached for the remote, she heard a sharp rap on the front door. She gasped as her head whipped around, her hand snapping back to her as though burned. Through the curtains, she could just make out the shape of someone...a lady...dressed in a suit? Her heart raced and she found herself using her inhaler again. Probably unnecessary, but...she wasn't home. No. She wasn't home. This was not happening. Nobody was home right now. The woman couldn't see her through the curtains; she told herself that to calm herself, but it didn't work. Well, it worked a little. Just enough, anyway. But maybe not as much as she'd like. Besides, she was probably just a cosmetics saleswoman or something like that. Except, she didn't seem to have a bag or case with her.
Amy found herself glancing toward the knife block, a present she'd bought for her father since he never seemed to remember where the cheese knife was. He was kind of ignorant that way...but it was just a minor annoyance. Amy honestly didn't know what she'd do if her father was...egad...normal. Geez. Normal people were so boring. They got good grades and had two parents that loved them dearly and spoiled them rotten, and they rode around in minivans or SUVs, watching their back-seat DVD players or listening to the latest CDs. Not her. Not Amy.
Amy got her music from YouTube and rented her movies from those $1 rental machines. They had one just up the road, at a gas station...about eight blocks away, an easy ride on her second-hand blue Airspring (an old bike that she wasn't entirely certain was stable). Heh. Bike riding. It was the one sport she could do without risking a blue face and an ambulance. Not mountain biking, oh no...just biking. Wouldn't want to crash because she couldn't breathe, huh?
She thought these things at herself with scorn, putting herself down by simple method of witty sarcasm. Yeah. Witty. That's it. Or just lame. Lame, like her. She was always so lame...
Back to the knives. Yeah. The knives. Her mind was wandering. Focus, dammit. Focus on the situation at hand. And then the second knock came, snapping Amy's brown eyes back to the door. Whomever the woman was, she wasn't going away. She glanced behind her at her father's bedroom door again, wondering...no. She didn't need to wake him. But as she looked back to the front door, she wondered: answer it, or keep pretending no one presently inhabited the two-bedroom house upon whose door the lady suit was rapping?
No. That just wasn't possible. Not possible at all. Maybe someone set off a bomb. Except...well, she was pretty sure that car had been intact. Maybe it had been shockwaves from a bomb gone wrong? She'd heard about that...people making explosives blowing themselves to smithereens, while a half-mile away, someone's front windshield blows out. Sure, it was just urban legend, but it was more plausible than what her asthma-plagued mind had apparently come up with.
She allowed herself a mental laugh, which sounded (could thoughts have sounds?) weak and shaky to her, at the very idea. Her father...he was there, lying on his bed with the door open. It was the same old story, and she had to stick to that or she'd go mad. She was sure of it. Maybe she already was going mad, or was beyond-hope crazy by this point. Had she ever been truly sane? No. She couldn't think. Just...don't think.
Her hands pulled her father's blanket over him, trying to keep him warm. Her eyes drifted to the three-minutes-off alarm clock at his left shoulder. 10.19a. She took a deep breath - or as deep a breath as she could usually take, anyway - stifling a near-cough as she did so. She plodded out of his room silently, closing the door behind her. The girl's wet hair was still wet from the shower she'd just had. She could barely remember her nightmare now, the vaguest hint of three shadowy figures - maybe four? Five? Dancing at the back of her seemingly frail mind.
In her worn, bubblegum-pink slippers, her feet were almost completely silent. She managed to pour herself a glass of orange juice, but her hand shook as she held it. She stared at it for a moment, trying to will it to stop shaking. When that failed, she set the held it with both hands. Then she set the glass down, one hand upon it and the other flat upon the faded teal tiles of the kitchen counter, fingers splayed out as though to finger-paint a hand-turkey. She took a few breaths to steady herself, closing her eyes, trying to clear her mind.
She fumbled for her inhaler. She wasn't breathing normally. It was the stress. Yeah; that had to be it. Yesterday was just a really, really bad day. A bad fucking day, as Christian Kane might say. Her eyes snapped open as she tried to discern if she'd said that aloud, however. She looked around nervously as she shook her inhaler, used it as she glanced toward his door; if her dad caught her cussing, he'd lay into her but good. But no; she hadn't...she was sure of that, at least. Perhaps there was a bit of sanity left in her after all. Or perhaps not. As she looked down at her white knuckles, she released the vice-like grip on the base of her glass. Any tighter and she would've cracked it. She worked her hand a few times, getting feeling back into it.
The remote. It was just over there. The news...the news would prove to her that it wasn't her. It was a dream, or she hadn't been involved, or something. It wasn't her problem and if it did happen, it certainly wasn't her fault. She had nothing to do with it.
Nothing whatsoever.
But as she reached for the remote, she heard a sharp rap on the front door. She gasped as her head whipped around, her hand snapping back to her as though burned. Through the curtains, she could just make out the shape of someone...a lady...dressed in a suit? Her heart raced and she found herself using her inhaler again. Probably unnecessary, but...she wasn't home. No. She wasn't home. This was not happening. Nobody was home right now. The woman couldn't see her through the curtains; she told herself that to calm herself, but it didn't work. Well, it worked a little. Just enough, anyway. But maybe not as much as she'd like. Besides, she was probably just a cosmetics saleswoman or something like that. Except, she didn't seem to have a bag or case with her.
Amy found herself glancing toward the knife block, a present she'd bought for her father since he never seemed to remember where the cheese knife was. He was kind of ignorant that way...but it was just a minor annoyance. Amy honestly didn't know what she'd do if her father was...egad...normal. Geez. Normal people were so boring. They got good grades and had two parents that loved them dearly and spoiled them rotten, and they rode around in minivans or SUVs, watching their back-seat DVD players or listening to the latest CDs. Not her. Not Amy.
Amy got her music from YouTube and rented her movies from those $1 rental machines. They had one just up the road, at a gas station...about eight blocks away, an easy ride on her second-hand blue Airspring (an old bike that she wasn't entirely certain was stable). Heh. Bike riding. It was the one sport she could do without risking a blue face and an ambulance. Not mountain biking, oh no...just biking. Wouldn't want to crash because she couldn't breathe, huh?
She thought these things at herself with scorn, putting herself down by simple method of witty sarcasm. Yeah. Witty. That's it. Or just lame. Lame, like her. She was always so lame...
Back to the knives. Yeah. The knives. Her mind was wandering. Focus, dammit. Focus on the situation at hand. And then the second knock came, snapping Amy's brown eyes back to the door. Whomever the woman was, she wasn't going away. She glanced behind her at her father's bedroom door again, wondering...no. She didn't need to wake him. But as she looked back to the front door, she wondered: answer it, or keep pretending no one presently inhabited the two-bedroom house upon whose door the lady suit was rapping?