Time Warp:A Simple Mistake Starts the Hardest Time
Jul 10, 2012 10:51:17 GMT -5
Post by Joshua Bernstein on Jul 10, 2012 10:51:17 GMT -5
((ooc: because I have Sean's problem of wanting to name threads titles that don't fit, this is also known as Just because I'm sorry doesn't mean I didn't enjoy it at the time))
January 2nd, 1997
The warmth beside him was unusual, though not unexpected. There was, after all, a difference between maintaining separate living spaces and spending the night, and parties tended to result in affection.
Although, he reflected, as he struggled to wakefulness, he hadn't quite anticipated this party ending in spending the night. Sean was supposed to be staying with him, and he only had a loft, making festivities difficult. And...somehow, the body beside him, though it felt familiar, didn't seem quite right. Saul was slightly shorter and slightly tubbier than he was, and....
He rolled over, squinting at the other person in bed with him.
Not again.
Saul was definitely not his bedmate. Instead he was sharing a bed with Sean.
Again.
Only, this was so much more distressing than the last time this had happened, because he hadn't been in a relationship the last time. That didn't make it right, but it made it better. What was he going to tell Saul? How could he even face him after this?!
He rolled out of bed, trying not to wake the other man as he shuffled around, pulling clothes on without regard to whether or not they matched, then slinking around the bed and the folding screen that separated the bedroom from the rest of his apartment.
Ordinarily he would leave when this happened, but Sean was his guest, so that wasn't an option this time. Instead he made his way into the kitchen -- also door-less, and very cramped for anyone who actually cooked. Josh, however, didn't even know how to cook, and thus the oven and stove hadn't been used as long as he had lived there. The counters were also occupied, on one side of the sink with a drying rack (barely used), a microwave, and a toaster. On the other side by what would have been in a pantry, had there been one: cereal, poptarts, a jar of peanut butter, a box of saltines, and a box of assorted oatmeals. There were bagels and jams in the fridge, and not much else. At least there was enough that they could both have breakfast.
As the coffee began to percolate he sank into the sofa, head in hands. He would have to go to the ground floor to see if the newspaper had been delivered, and he didn't think that would be any more polite than disappearing altogether. Instead he picked up the nearest book (Thucydide's) and rifled through it, until he was forced to admit defeat; he simply couldn't concentrate.
How did this keep happening?! He was supposed to be dating someone else! He was supposed to be getting over his ex.
The ex he had broken up with.
What was wrong with him?!!!
An incoherent moan escaped as these thoughts crowded his mind, threatening to suffocate him in anxiety and guilt.
Why had he ended up in bed with Sean instead of Saul? He had taken Saul to the party and then....and then...
and then Saul had broken up with him in a fit of jealousy over his friendship with Sean.
He wasn't sure whether to be relieved or not as the memory of the night before flooded in and the depths of his stupidity were recalled.
He decided to be tentatively relieved.
At least this meant he wasn't a cheater.
January 2nd, 1997
The warmth beside him was unusual, though not unexpected. There was, after all, a difference between maintaining separate living spaces and spending the night, and parties tended to result in affection.
Although, he reflected, as he struggled to wakefulness, he hadn't quite anticipated this party ending in spending the night. Sean was supposed to be staying with him, and he only had a loft, making festivities difficult. And...somehow, the body beside him, though it felt familiar, didn't seem quite right. Saul was slightly shorter and slightly tubbier than he was, and....
He rolled over, squinting at the other person in bed with him.
Not again.
Saul was definitely not his bedmate. Instead he was sharing a bed with Sean.
Again.
Only, this was so much more distressing than the last time this had happened, because he hadn't been in a relationship the last time. That didn't make it right, but it made it better. What was he going to tell Saul? How could he even face him after this?!
He rolled out of bed, trying not to wake the other man as he shuffled around, pulling clothes on without regard to whether or not they matched, then slinking around the bed and the folding screen that separated the bedroom from the rest of his apartment.
Ordinarily he would leave when this happened, but Sean was his guest, so that wasn't an option this time. Instead he made his way into the kitchen -- also door-less, and very cramped for anyone who actually cooked. Josh, however, didn't even know how to cook, and thus the oven and stove hadn't been used as long as he had lived there. The counters were also occupied, on one side of the sink with a drying rack (barely used), a microwave, and a toaster. On the other side by what would have been in a pantry, had there been one: cereal, poptarts, a jar of peanut butter, a box of saltines, and a box of assorted oatmeals. There were bagels and jams in the fridge, and not much else. At least there was enough that they could both have breakfast.
As the coffee began to percolate he sank into the sofa, head in hands. He would have to go to the ground floor to see if the newspaper had been delivered, and he didn't think that would be any more polite than disappearing altogether. Instead he picked up the nearest book (Thucydide's) and rifled through it, until he was forced to admit defeat; he simply couldn't concentrate.
How did this keep happening?! He was supposed to be dating someone else! He was supposed to be getting over his ex.
The ex he had broken up with.
What was wrong with him?!!!
An incoherent moan escaped as these thoughts crowded his mind, threatening to suffocate him in anxiety and guilt.
Why had he ended up in bed with Sean instead of Saul? He had taken Saul to the party and then....and then...
and then Saul had broken up with him in a fit of jealousy over his friendship with Sean.
He wasn't sure whether to be relieved or not as the memory of the night before flooded in and the depths of his stupidity were recalled.
He decided to be tentatively relieved.
At least this meant he wasn't a cheater.