Bad Luck: Cute Shirt (Maxwell)
Nov 7, 2013 22:58:34 GMT -5
Post by Olivia Baker on Nov 7, 2013 22:58:34 GMT -5
Liv's stomach rolled inside her, bashing up into her organs and wanting to explode every moment she looked up at her teacher. No one had laughed, but she knew that they'd all noticed. The side glances, the whispers she knew had to be about her... the fact that she was wearing the same shirt as a teacher, and not only that, but that he was a HE, and that he wore it better, his muscles making the shirt stand out, while her frail, thin frame only showed off how flat chested and unfeminine she really was.
She felt ugly. She felt masculine. She felt like she was back in middle school playing the boys parts in plays. That had been a rough experience. She had only been cast as boys parts because she was the tallest and there were never enough boys in plays or dance class. The words were worse than the boys costumes though. So unkind. She was accused of being gay, which she didn't know was an insult to begin with, but apparently was when you were in middle school. It didn't bother her when they asked at first either, only when they persisted. Only when they made that into something to be ashamed about. When she defended there nothing being wrong with it it only got worse.... It filled her with rage as the memories slid out of the carefully filed drawers in the back of her mind labeled DO NOT OPEN, defiant, as if they had their own brain of their own, creeping slower, and slower up to the front of her own, only to make her squirm.
The bell rang, Liv had already packed up her things anxious to make a quick get away. To get back to her room and burn the shirt.
Out of her desk and the door as fast as she could, but of course one could only go so fast when their seat was located at the furthest point of the room from the door.
She felt ugly. She felt masculine. She felt like she was back in middle school playing the boys parts in plays. That had been a rough experience. She had only been cast as boys parts because she was the tallest and there were never enough boys in plays or dance class. The words were worse than the boys costumes though. So unkind. She was accused of being gay, which she didn't know was an insult to begin with, but apparently was when you were in middle school. It didn't bother her when they asked at first either, only when they persisted. Only when they made that into something to be ashamed about. When she defended there nothing being wrong with it it only got worse.... It filled her with rage as the memories slid out of the carefully filed drawers in the back of her mind labeled DO NOT OPEN, defiant, as if they had their own brain of their own, creeping slower, and slower up to the front of her own, only to make her squirm.
The bell rang, Liv had already packed up her things anxious to make a quick get away. To get back to her room and burn the shirt.
Out of her desk and the door as fast as she could, but of course one could only go so fast when their seat was located at the furthest point of the room from the door.