Avery Fields
Dec 1, 2014 0:03:51 GMT -5
Post by Avery Fields on Dec 1, 2014 0:03:51 GMT -5
The easy S T U F F . . .
Name: Avery Caroline Fields
Nickname: none that she answers to
Age: 21 (April 12, 1993)
Member Group: College Student
Power(s): Cryokinesis
Play By: Teresa Palmer
Let it F L O W . . .
November 15, 2003
Mama said that I shouldn't care what the other kids say, that they're ignorant and hateful... but I do care. She gave me this journal and told me to write about everything, that that would make being lonely feel a little easier. I hope she's right.
Mama says to ignore them, and I try, but it's so hard. They're always there, every day. There is no escape. Not ever. They call me names. They say that I have a boy's name. They've been mean for years now, so I probably shouldn't care. But each year they come up with meaner and meaner things to say. They say I'm trailer trash. That I'm dirty and smelly and poor. But just because we're not rich doesn't mean we don't do laundry or shower or take care of ourselves. It isn't fair.
This year, Melanie started something new. She turned my name into an insult. Today she said that I'm "A-Very fat cow." Mama keeps telling me I'm not really fat but she's my mom, she has to say that. I just wish that I could be pretty like Melanie and her friends. None of them have a belly roll over their jeans like I do. I've been skipping lunch this week. Maybe then I'll finally get skinny and everyone won't hate me so much. I feel bad taking lunch money since I'm not buying lunch but... if I don't take the money, Mama will know I'm not eating and then she'd worry and... I know she loves me, but that won't help the kids stop teasing me.
I just don't want them to hate me anymore...
April 12, 2004
Today is my birthday.
I thought things were getting better. The teasing wasn't as bad as it used to be, and a couple kids were starting be nice to me... or at least they weren't being mean anymore. Mama and I planned my party for weeks. Since I was turning 11 it was going to be a Harry Potter themed party. We worked so hard to make it perfect.
Mama said they were come, that they must have gotten lost or something. They were probably carpooling, that's why everyone was late. But they weren't late. They never came. Not one person did.
Mama and Papa tried to cheer me up. I tried to smile for them. I did. I know they tried to make it a good day for me. They tried so hard, and I didn't want to let them down. I always let them down.
But then we got home, and there was a present at the door.
I was so excited. Someone had remembered. Someone had cared.
Except it was a joke. An awful awful joke.
The worst part was opening it in front of Mama and Papa. I was so excited like a moron. Thinking someone actually liked me enough to get me a gift. I was so happy when I was opening it... until I opened the box. It was a pie, or at least that was what I thought until I noticed the smell...
It was poop. Dog poop probably. Papa got rid of it I think, I just ran away, crying.
I hate that. I'm always crying. I'm such a crybaby, just like everyone says. I'm weak and pathetic. I hate myself so much. Why can't I be like everyone else? Why can't I be someone that people like? What is so wrong with me?
I wish I could be anyone but me.
August 19, 2004
The strangest thing happened today.
Jack and some of his friends were playing football at the park today, and they kicked their ball into a tree. But instead of going home, they decided to pick on me instead.
It wasn't anything unusual really. Just the usual name calling. Until I tried to leave. I just wanted to go home and hide away from it all. I only left the house because Mama was worried about me staying home all the time.
Benji blocked my path though, and when I tried to go around him, Jack pushed me down. Of course I started to cry, but I was trying to keep them from seeing. So I got up and tried to run past, but Jack grabbed my arm and the weirdest thing happened.
He pulled back suddenly, and there was ice on his hand...
I just ran. I still don't know quite what happened, but I started to feel sick. It's just so hot. It's weird. It's no hotter than it's been all summer, but suddenly I notice it more.
Still, it was kind of cool. I don't understand why he let me go, but he did. Maybe I'm not so useless after all..
August 22, 2004
Today a man showed up at our house. He said he had to speak with me and my parents, that it was important. Apparently I'm a meta-human. At first I thought that meant I was messed up or something, but he explained that it means that I have some sort of special ability.
I'm special.
I guess what happened the other day was that my ability showed up, or like the guy said, it manifested, and that's what the weird thing with Jack was. I can control cold and ice and so when he touched me, I made him really cold all of a sudden which kinda freaked him out. Plus we thought I'd been sick, but I guess it's just that the heat bothers me really badly now.
But anyway, this guy said that there was a special school up north in Vermont that trains meta-humans to control their powers. I mean, it would still be like normal school, except its a boarding school, so I'd live there too. Plus there's the extra classes to help me control my power.
I still can't believe that I have such a cool power!
I've never been special before, I was always the poor one, the weak one, the worthless one.
But everything has changed now. I can start over, where no one knows me. I don't have to be the poor fat girl. I can finally be strong.
The best part though is that I get to start school right away!
I'll miss Mama and Papa though... It'll be weird being away from them, but there is so much here that I can't wait to leave behind. Not to mention I won't get sick up north the way I feel down here with the heat.
I'm leaving tomorrow. I just hope my life can really be different now.
September 15, 2004
Hammel is amazing! The classes are interesting and I've even made a couple friends. Most of all though, I love my power. I'm not very good at controlling it yet, but it's just so cool! I mean, how awesome is it that I can just freeze whatever I want? Like I said, I'm not very good at it yet, but one day I will be, and I can't wait! I want to be the best cryokinetic person ever! That's what it's technically called, cryokinesis. It means that I can manipulate the cold, so I can cool things and freeze them or create ice or snow. It's just the coolest thing ever! Of course it has side effects. Everyone's powers have side effects. Mine is mostly a weakness with heat. Apparently my body temperature is naturally colder than normal now. Isn't that cool? Now the winter won't ever bother me, not like it did back home at least. Back home, even just getting down in the 50s was a big deal. It's way colder up north, but thanks to my power, winter here will be no problem at all for me!
Shoot! My training session starts in 5 minutes. I better run!
December 15, 2004
Winter break is going to start soon, but tonight we're all getting together to exchange gifts and stuff before everyone starts leaving. It's weird having people to get gifts for. Back home it was just Mama and Papa, but now I actually have friends. I love Hammel. Manifesting is the best thing that ever happened to me.
It's going to be strange going back though. I've missed Mama and Papa terribly, but I haven't missed Bakerhill, Alabama one bit. I almost feel bad saying this, and I'd never let Mama know this but... I don't think of Bakerhill as home anymore. Hammel is home. Here I'm actually liked, and welcome, and I like being here. I like my classes and my training and my friends. It's everything I wanted Bakerhill to be and everything I never had there. Our trailer will always be home and I'll always be happy to see Mama and Papa but... I feel like I'm only visiting now, and I am only visiting.
Anyway, I have to go. Jodie is here to head to the party.
April 12, 2005
I turned 12 today. I figured it would go by just like any other day really except for a longer phone call with Mama and Papa tonight. But my friends surprised me with a party. I thought we were supposed to just be studying, but they had planned a whole party with decorations and a cake and everything! I still can't believe they did that. They even got me presents! I was surprised they even remembered, let alone did all that.
I'm just so happy here. I couldn't even think of a wish to make when I blew out my candles.
June 30, 2005
The school year is over. I can hardly believe it. It's gone by so fast! A lot of people are going home for the break, but I'm staying. The heat down in Alabama during July would be way too much for me to handle. I miss Mama and Papa of course, but I'm kind of used to being more on my own now. It's a little weird, but not in a bad way. Sally is staying over break too, so it's not like I'll be alone or anything. It might even be fun having the school so quiet...
September 5, 2005
Sally talked me into joining the drama club with her. I'm nervous. I mean, before I came to Hammel, I didn't fit in at all. I had plenty of attention, just all the wrong kind. Things have been going so well here. I don't want to mess them up. I don't want them all to laugh at me.
I know things are different now. I have friends. I'm happy. I've even started to lose some weight. My baby fat as Mama would say. I even grew a couple inches taller. That probably helped with the getting skinnier thing honestly.
I know Hammel is different. I'm not in stupid Bakerhill, Alabama. I just can't help but be afraid that I'm going to end up on stage and fall on my butt and everyone is just going to point and laugh at me. Just like back in Alabama. I don't want to be laughed at again.
September 19, 2005
Drama club has turned out to be way better than I thought. Mostly it's just fun games and being silly. At first I was nervous. After all, some of the exercises are really goofy. I thought everyone was going to make fun of me. But then as I watched everyone else, I realized something. Everyone was laughing, sure. But no one was laughing at anyone. They were just laughing because it was funny. Honestly, it feels good to make people laugh. I'm enjoying this way more than I ever thought I would.
January 23, 2006
The most insane thing has happened. I can't even believe it. Casting for the Spring production was last week. We're doing Alice in Wonderland as a play and I read for it thinking I'd get some ensemble roll. After all, I'm one of the younger members of the club. But somehow I got the part of Alice! I mean, I guess it makes sense. Alice is supposed to be a little girl after all. I just never expected it to be me. I know it's going to be a lot of work, but I'm just so excited. It almost doesn't even feel real. Not to mention that everyone was really happy for me. I keep expecting to wake up, but this is real. It's really happening. To me of all people.
April 12, 2006
Rehearsals are crazy right now, but everyone still took time to wish me a happy birthday today. Our adviser ordered pizza and we had a party for dinner break to celebrate. It was so much fun. I'm exhausted though. I'm lucky to have a free minute anymore between rehearsing and classes and training and everything. But I'm having fun so it makes it all worth it.
May 6, 2006
Tonight was opening night. I was so nervous. Everyone worked so hard on the show and everyone was going to be looking at me. I didn't want to ruin it. I was so afraid I was going to mess up. But everyone kept wishing me luck. Well, technically they told me to break a leg, but that means the same thing in the theater, and I just felt so happy. The whole cast is amazing and for some reason they all like me and they all believe in me and this show and seeing that just pushed all those fears away.
Being on stage like that... it was beyond words. I don't even know how to describe it. It was the most amazing that I've ever felt.
I can't wait to do it again.
May 18, 2006
Tonight was the cast part for the show. I'm so sad that it's over. It's so weird to think that that's it, that we'll never do that show again. But it was a great show and we had so much fun celebrating it. Everyone loved it, and apparently everyone really loved me as Alice. I got so many flowers these last weeks and tonight alone. I'm just amazed beyond words. I never thought I could feel this good. I spent so many years before I came here, wishing I could be anyone but me. Now, I can't imagine being anyone else.
I also have a secret. Tonight, at the party, Jonathan kissed me. He was a techie for the show, he helped with lights. I guess that gave him a lot of time to spend staring at me and listening to me, especially since he was the one in charge of Alice's spotlight. I guess he liked it though. I'm blushing just thinking about it. He's sweet and I think he really likes me. I think I like him too.
It's so weird. I never in my life thought that a boy could like me like that. I mean, before two years ago, no one liked me at all! I have been growing a lot lately though, and I've lost a lot of weight now. I'm actually pretty skinny. And I'm finally starting to look like a girl. Maybe it's just because I finally don't hate myself. Maybe people can just tell and it helps them like me. I don't really know.
I'm just really happy that it's happening.
July 15, 2006
Jonathan is a jerk. I mean, things were going great for awhile. Then summer break started and he went back home. I don't even understand what happened, but he just stopped talking to me entirely. Then after a week of not hearing from him, he calls me up and says that he changed his mind and he thinks this isn't a very good idea. Ugh. I am so mad right now. Literally, everything was fine before the break. Jonathan was really sweet. He carried my books for me and walked me to class. We had even sort of gone on a date or two. Then he just goes and pulls this out of nowhere.
Fine. Whatever. I don't need him. I was happy before he came along and damn it, I'm going to be happy without him too.
October 31, 2008
Wow, it's been forever since I looked at this. I feel like I should catch you up, even if you are just a book. Who knows though, someday I might look back at this and want to know all these silly little details.
Life has been pretty busy. I'm still heavily involved in the drama club and I have more friends than ever. I'm not sure there is anyone at this school who doesn't like me. It's a weird thought. I know, it sounds totally vain and shallow to say it like that, but I don't mean it that way. I just feel a bit bad... I barely have time for everyone... Okay, that's not the point tonight though. But yeah, like I get invited to a lot of parties now, and I even go to most of them.
Like tonight, I went to this awesome Halloween party some kid was having in town. That's where I saw him.
His name is Rowley. He's sort of a legend at the school. He's a few years older than me and he literally rules the school. I've heard his is super good with his power too. Some kind of shapeshifter I think? Which makes it even more impressive. I mean, don't get me wrong, controlling the cold and ice is badass, but shapeshifting is supposed to be sooo hard. To be so good at it... it's a big deal.
He's a real troublemaker though. He skips class a lot and he always seems to have a cigarette. I know it's bad for you and all, but still, he is totally hot.
He was at the party tonight. I wasn't looking for him or anything, but I accidentally ran right into him. I don't think he even noticed me though to be honest. Like, he didn't even glance at me, he just kept on walking.
Still, I can't stop thinking about it. I know I'm dating Brad and all but... Rowley is just so much hotter. He's way out of my league though. I'm too much of a goody goody. Besides, I think I heard that he's gay. Doesn't that just figure. It's so unfair.
Not that there is anything wrong with Brad. I'm not saying that. I mean, he's pretty cool. He's a total jock, even if his taste in teams sucks. Seriously, who roots for the Celtics? Really? But he's cute and we have fun together. Even if he has a tendency to ditch me at parties to show off with his friends. But I don't need to be glued to his side or anything. I can have fun on my own too.
I dunno. Pointless crushes are weird.
April 12, 2009
Well, my friends didn't disappoint. They got one of the local kids to host, though I have no idea how they managed it, but the party was an absolute rager. It was insane! Especially because I think most the people actually knew it was my birthday party and actually showed up on purpose. Of course, there were a couple people who I think just heard there was a party.
I saw Rowley in the crowd. I know he didn't come for me. Hell, I don't think he would even know my name. Or my face. Or me at all. Anyway. I was going to say hi to him, but Brad was like, glued to my side all night. I mean, I guess it was sweet, but it was kind weird. Like, normally he's really chill, but all of a sudden tonight, he was being like weirdly possessive of me. Like everyone had to know he was mine. Maybe it was some stupid football thing. I don't know. I wish he could have just relaxed and had fun though.
Still, it was a pretty awesome night. Lots of dancing, a little drinking. Everything a good party should be really. Sixteen is going to be an awesome year, I can feel it.
May 23, 2009
Tonight was... eventful to say the least.
So Brad turned out to be a dud. He dumped me today. I guess he finally made up his mind on where he was going for college. He got offered a football scholarship so he's heading out to the Midwest after graduation. Michigan or Minnesota... something like that. Anyway, he decided that since he's going away, it'd be better to just break up.
Basically, he wants to be free to hook up with as many people here before he goes.
Whatever. I don't even care. I refuse to wallow over someone so damn shallow.
So I did what any reasonable girl would do. I got dressed up in my hottest clothes, curled my blonde hair, did up my makeup, picked out some killer heels and went to the local party in town. If he wanted to hook up with whoever, then I was free to do the same. Or I could at least dance my ass off and look hot doing it.
Besides, you never knew who you might run into at a town party.
It was a pretty crowded party, so I stepped out so that I could enjoy my drink without some asshole spilling it all down my dress. I hadn't been out there more than a minute or two whenever suddenly Rowley came around the corner. At first I was excited to see him. I mean, I just wanted to talk to him once, you know? I mean, everyone knows him and Grayson are a thing, so I am totally not his type. He'd never look twice at me.
Technically, he's never even looked once at me.
Anyway, moving on before I depress myself, Rowley came around the corner but I noticed he seemed kind of... I dunno, upset or something. He was walking with a purpose and his face was kinda scrunched up like he was pissed or something. I asked him if he was okay, but I'm not sure if he really heard me or not. He just kinda kept going. I think he might have shrugged at me, but it's not like he even looked in my general direction. He just kept going. Just like always.
I know it's stupid to get upset that a guy you have no chance with didn't look at you, but I also just got dumped today so I get a free pass, okay?
Anyway, I went back inside, and suddenly Julie was running up to me, telling me how Grayson had some new boytoy and the two of them were practically going at it in the entryway. I guess that's what had Rowley so upset.
The night gets a bit blurry from there. Usually I just pretend to drink and only have a couple sips, but tonight, I actually drank a couple cups. I remember being by the keg when Mr. Assface himself showed up. I have this image of dumping a beer on his head and kneeing him in the groin and calling him a douchecanoe, but I think that was probably a dream...
Still, I kind of wish I had done it.
May 24, 2009
Okay, I did do it. Not sure how I feel about this, but apparently everyone thinks I'm a hero for it, so...
Apparently I also made out Mason. Not that I'm complaining, I just wish I remembered it.
April 12, 2011
I can't believe I'm 18. Time has gone by so fast. Graduation is almost here... Everything is changing.
I barely have time to do anything for myself, let alone spending time with other people... But at the same time, we're all graduating. We don't really have much time left to spend together. So I have to find the time. I'm playing Emily in a production of Our Town this year. It's an intense role, but I'm really enjoying it. Mason and I are still together, for almost two years now. He graduated last year, but he went to University of Vermont, so I still get to see him a lot. Lots of partying on the weekends, trying to squeeze in all the fun we can before we end up parting ways.
A lot of people are going back home for college after this, but I'm staying in Vermont. The north is just better for me. Going back south just isn't an option. I enjoy acting but I think I've decided that I want to go into broadcasting. Acting is too hit or miss and I just don't have the energy to be a starving artist. I want to reach people right away. Being a radio DJ would be awesome, or maybe a newscaster or talk show host... I don't know what for sure, but I know that's what I want to do.
Finals are coming up and I'm just kind of polishing my powers now. I think I had them mastered about a year ago. Lately it's been all about finesse. Using them so often that it is practically second nature. Classes are going well. Somehow every seems to be shocked that I'm actually pretty good at school. I mean, I'm no valedictorian genius, but I got a few scholarships lined up. Enough that combined with financial aid, my tuition at University of Vermont will be covered in full. That's one less thing to stress over.
I'm looking forward to all the new things that are coming, but at the same time, I just want things to stay the same.
June 26, 2011
Graduation went so well. I can't believe I'm done. Really done.
Of course, that's not the only thing that's done.
Mason decided that the best way to celebrate my graduation tonight, was to propose! I didn't even know how to react. I mean, sure, I love him, but I'm only 18 for God's sake! I'm not ready to be married. I tried to tell him that, but he just got all upset and told me that if I didn't want to marry him, then we were over.
I love him, I do... but I couldn't agree to that. That kind of ultimatum... it was pointless. I don't understand it at all. I mean, why does our relationship have to be completely over just because I'm not ready to be married right now? How can he not see what a huge decision that is? Saying no doesn't mean I don't care but... I guess to him it does.
I just wanted to be happy, but I guess that's not going to happen tonight at least.
I'll be fine though. It's not the end of the world. I'm just looking forward to going to University. I'm starting with a summer semester, just for the housing really, but I think it'll be a pretty welcome distraction here.
July 17, 2011
Adjusting to University life is proving more difficult than I thought. I guess I just need to figure out a new normal really. Back at Hammel, I could just be me, without worrying. Which meant walking through the party, chilling everyone's drinks and just letting loose. Now, I have to be careful about my power and not be so blatant with it. I dunno, it's weird to me. I guess I just have to find some new friends and adjust.
May 4, 2012
Freshman year was rough, but I survived! Honestly, it's not so different from Hammel after all. Dorms are pretty much the same. Parties are pretty much the same. Classes are a bit tougher, but no more training helps lighten the load a little.
I've made a lot of friends here. The party scene is crazy here. Literally every night you can find a party somewhere. I try not to party too much, but what can I say, I like having fun. I've been taking a break from guys though. I mean, I might make out with someone at a party, especially if I get a little too tipsy, but I'm just not looking for a relationship. I mean, an occasional date maybe, but even that... I feel like I'm just leading them on them. I've done the serious relationship thing three times now. Especially after Mason... casual is just what I need. I want to focus on me. I have so much going on now. The last thing I need is some guy to complicate things even more.
December 5, 2014
Honestly, I think I'm in a bit of a rut. My life is just the same old schedule. Even the parties are predictable. I want to spice things up, but I don't even know how. Maybe I should give the relationship thing a go again. I mean... it's not that I need a guy. I'm perfectly happy with my friends and my classes. I don't need anything else. It would just be nice to have that kind of a connection again. Does that make any sense? I don't want to be one of those girls who needs a guy to be happy. But I can still want that, right? That doesn't make me any less independent. Just a little lonely is all.
And that's okay too. That's part of life. But so is change. And I think it's time I found a little change.
Behind the M A S K . . .
Name: Faraday
Age: 23
RP Experience: many many years
How did you find us?: Been around for a while now
Show your S K I L L S . . .
See Alanna Darlington, Zo Heroux, Talia Spencer and Sydney Emerson.
