I'm A Boy, You're A....Boy (Zeke)

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The collection of cereal that Kodi had brought over the other day was still there, only half finished. Gene didn't think he'd be able to get through it himself before a number of those boxes expired. On the bright side, he was eating a lot, which Kodi couldn't dare complain about, even if it wasn't exactly the diet the dentokinetic insisted Gene adhere to. What did he know anyway? He was an idiot, and a dummy, and just plain stupid...

And wasn't here to enforce it, so nyeeehh~

Still....Gene didn't want that cereal to go to waste, so surprise of surprises, Gene texted his...friend he supposed...Zeke, to come over and help him with the task under the promise that they could spend the day playing more Fallout 4. Or Minecraft, whichever Zeke wanted to do. Or maybe binge watch a new anime Gene hadn't seen yet. Maybe.

The boy opened the door to an older boy standing out in the shadow of twilight, as the sun had just descended over the hills to the west. Gene dimmed his aura, as he usually did when company came over, and scratched the back of his neck. "Why doesn't anybody ever use the doorbell?" he complained immediately upon seeing the taller boy, who had made himself known by rapping his knuckles against the hardwood of the door. As usual. He left the door open for Zeke to come in, returning to his comfortable spot on the couch. "Close the door, it's cold," he instructed with barely a greeting. Or complete lack of one, actually.

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Another day of gaming over at Gene’s. At least, that was what Zeke was planning. He was hoping there would be none of the awkward, weird conversation they’d had the last time he had gone over; he likely wouldn’t even bring up Rina, his sort-of girlfriend, for fear that even that would make things awkward somehow. No, this would be much quieter and more relaxed, he was counting on it.

He hoped Gene was thinking along the same lines, that he wouldn’t bring up the… ‘depraved being’, or whatever he had called the other boy. Hopefully Fallout 4 and Minecraft and whatever else they wanted to play would keep them occupied enough.

He shivered on the porch until Gene opened the door, whereupon he gave a small smile and gratefully stepped inside out of the cold, blustery weather. “Uh… I-I guess I never really think about it, our apartment doesn’t have a doorbell,” he offered quietly, doing as the younger boy asked and closing the door behind him as he came inside. Zeke took off his shoes and draped his coat on the hanger before wandering further inside and plopped down on the couch beside Gene. “So, what are we going to play today?” he asked, smiling a little tiny bit larger as he looked over at his friend. “More Fallout 4, or something else?”

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Regarding the conversation they had last time, Gene too was hoping it wouldn’t come up. No, he had no intention of bringing it up. Why would he want to bring it up? It was an awkward subject, and not really any of Zeke’s business, first off. Even if Kodi did keep leaving welts on his collar, it wasn’t going to come up and Gene wasn’t going to be the one to do it either. He was wearing a shirt with a higher neckline for just that reason too….

Wasn’t that a stupid thing that girls practiced when they wanted to hide their hickeys? So other people wouldn’t know they had a sex life?

When did Gene turn into a girl…? FUCKING——!!

He vowed right then and there as he flopped onto the couch that he was going to murder Kodi next time he came over, for making him have to do such a thing.

“Whatever you want,” he said with a sigh, ignoring Zeke’s response about the doorbell. It didn’t matter anyway. Gene was grumpy now that that stupid turtleneck cliche popped into his head, and now all he could think about was that stupid stray pup and his stupid kisses and what was the best way to neuter his ass. Gene had his arms crossed as he grumbled to himself. He’d completely forgotten about the cereal already….meh, they’d get around to it eventually.

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Zeke would be lying if he said he didn’t glance at Gene’s neck to see if there were any bruises there again today. He couldn’t help it – he was curious to see if there was evidence that the stranger had been allowed to come back, but he was too shy to ask directly. All he saw was a turtleneck, though, which he wasn’t certain was there for warmth, or… would Gene try to cover them if they were there?

…. Why was he thinking about this so much?? It didn’t matter at all! And neither did Danny when he got hickeys…. Mehhh…

Anyway. “Um… Alright,” he replied, tapping his lower lip thoughtfully. “I haven’t played Minecraft a lot this week because of my work schedule, so maybe we can play that? If that’s okay with you.” It was Zeke’s favorite, really, so he would normally choose it over anything else if there wasn’t a new game out that he wanted to try. “Want me to get it set up?” he asked, looking over again at the younger boy flopped on the couch. He looked…. Upset. Dare Zeke ask what was wrong? “…. Is everything okay?” he asked meekly, hoping he didn’t regret asking.

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Gene needed to get that subject off his mind…somehow. And video games seemed like the perfect remedy. “Minecraft sounds great,” he said, forgetting to take the grump out of his voice. “You wanna play survival or adventure?” Either one worked for Gene, though he didn’t do multiplayer very often. Usually only when Zeke was over.

There was a new game to try, but Gene didn’t want to try it yet. He was building up to it. It had gotten a lot of good reviews, but looked crappy and stupid and the graphics sucked(as if Minecraft’s were any better). Though instead of moving to get his computer set up for their little LAN party, he continued to sit there with his arms crossed, staring exactly straight ahead.

Gene bit his lip. “Zeke….” he started cautiously. “Come here…” Gene pulled a hand out from his arm-wrap to wave his companion over with a finger. Pending Zeke did as he was told and got close enough, Gene would grab him by the collar of the shirt and pull him in for a prolonged touch of their lips…a kiss, if you will.

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Zeke managed a small, soft smile again. “Minecraft it is, then,” he said quietly, eager to get things going. He didn’t get to play multiplayer that often either, except when he managed to pull Danny into his room to play with him, so he was looking forward to something different. “Oh, um… How about… Survival, then adventure?” he suggested with a tilt of his head. He didn’t care too much either way, but he didn’t want them to sit here undecided if neither of them knew which to choose.

He waited for the younger boy to get his computer, but when he didn’t move and continued to look vacant, Zeke started to get a little worried.

“Huh?” he replied dumbly, not sure what he was supposed to do. He hesitated before leaning inwards slightly, wondering if Eugene was going to, like… Whisper a secret to him, or something. What else would he want? Apparently something Zeke was totally not expecting, because he let out a small squeak when the younger boy snagged him closer and pressed their mouths together. Zeke stayed there, frozen and wide-eyed, completely lost on what to do, until Gene eventually pulled away. He gawked at the other boy in stunned silence, mouth gaping dumbly like a fish, before he finally managed to sputter,”Wh-what was that for??”

Gene had never seemed to express romantic interest in him before, but Zeke couldn’t think of why else he would do something like that. Zeke tentatively touched his finger to his lips, still staring at the younger boy in shock. He’d only ever kissed Rina before, and that was only recently.

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Great, they were doing both. And at least Zeke picked the order so Gene didn’t have to think about it. Great. That was great. Perfect even. Because Gene didn’t want to have to think about things. Then again, wasn’t the point of playing so he could think about things that were not other things? And by other things, he meant more specifically a thing who did things? (Apparently Kodi had now graduated to being a ‘thing’.)

Why was he still thinking about this thing? Because it was a thing that that thing kept doing to him and Gene wasn’t sure if he wanted to continue the thing with the thing because of a thing and…

That’s why he did the thing to Zeke, in as close as the way that thing did it as he could remember…which was still about 10 times less forceful, with less tongue, and definitely less tooth. When the thing was over, Gene narrowed his eyes at his ‘friend’, disregarding the other boy’s question completely. “I still don’t get it.” What the hell was so appealing about pressing two people’s mouths together and exchanging spit(Gene hadn’t gone that far)? “Is your heart pounding? Are you dizzy? Weak-kneed?” he asked, just to make sure.

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This ‘thing’ was much more than that to Zeke. It was a kiss. His first one from a guy, even. Well… Okay, that wasn’t necessarily true, Danny had kissed him a couple times, both on the lips and not, but that wasn’t… Those were friend kisses. Was this a friend kiss? Or something else? Did Gene… Had Zeke been blind in noticing that the younger boy felt attracted to him? He knew he was sort of blind in that regard, but… He didn’t think there had been any signs at all, and Danny had never voiced that possibility after all that Zeke had told him about Gene, so….

So he continued to stare in shock and bewilderment , waiting for an answer to his question, but none came. “D-don’t get what?” he stammered, completely lost. He didn’t know how to take that statement at all. And what was with these questions? “I… I don’t know… I g-guess my heart is…? And maybe a little dizzy…?” But that was from shock and confusion more than anything else. Zeke didn’t have romantic feelings for Gene… at least, he didn’t think he did. Did he? “Gene?” he mewled. “What’s going on?” Zeke finally moved a little and swallowed hard, but still didn’t know what he should do. Run away? Kiss him back? What was the right response in this sort of situation?? “I-I don’t understand…”

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Gene just had to make sure. What the hell was it about him that Kodi kept wanting to kiss him? Why did he even like it? And then…the other way around too. Gene wanted to know if that was just a general effect of kissing. Like, would his mind go blank and would he lose all senses if he kissed just anyone? And the general appeal of kissing too, because he still had less than any desire to engage in the act of kissing for something like ‘pleasure’. What was pleasure anyway?

“So it’s just…because I kissed you? Really?” That might explain some things, but Zeke hardly looked like he was on the verge of swooning.

So again…Gene didn’t get it. And kissing Zeke had left him with only more questions with absolutely none answered.

Gene sighed into a groan and grabbed at his head in frustration. “I don’t know,” he growled. “I don’t get this stupid kissing thing. I don’t even know why people do it anymore, it’s just wet and nasty and unsanitary.” And yet if Kodi did it to him, Gene would…

“Maybe I’m supposed to use more tongue?” he mused to himself. He motioned again for Zeke to get closer. “Come here.” Gene’s glare was not very inviting, however.

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Maybe if Zeke had been prepared, or had been paying more attention, he might have noticed how soft and full Gene’s lips were, or how warm his mouth felt, or any other number of things that would have made the experience more pleasant and less… shocking. Danny never gave him any warning either, though, it seemed, so the same went for him too. Rina was the only person he had kissed first, and he enjoyed that with her. She smelled nice and felt sweet and tiny in his arms.

He wondered if he should tell Rina about this…. They still weren’t exactly exclusive, but Zeke didn’t know how comfortable he was with it. It didn’t really feel like cheating or anything, though, because he didn’t plan on doing more with Gene….

“I… I don’t know,” he stammered. “I th-think I’m just a little surprised is all.” And that was putting it lightly. “S-so it m-might not have just… been the…you know…” The only swooning he might do was faint from shock.

His brow furrowed in more confusion as Gene continued to speak, still seemingly making no sense. “S-so… why did you do it…?” Zeke asked uncertainly. Was this about the guy that Gene seemed to dislike so much?

His eyes went wide with shock again at Gene’s musings, and he was about to excuse himself or something, but then the younger boy was glaring at him in a way that Zeke was far too meek to say no to. “O… okay…” he mewled, shutting his eyes tight as he slowly leaned in again, shaking from nerves. He had no idea what he was doing. Hopefully Gene would just do all the leading.

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Just surprised….so it wasn’t because of the kiss, it was because of the shock. Gene glared in disappointment. “Right…” Gene nibbled on the nail of his thumb as he processed this information. So what was it that Kodi did that made him….swoon, or whatever you want to call it? Was it the tongue, where he put his hands, the time duration…?

“I’m testing something,” he muttered in response to Zeke’s question, finally giving him a straight answer…more or less. Gene wondered if there was anyone else he knew he could test this with? No fucking way was he going to try any of this on Kodi just to have the dentokinetic make fun of him for it. Because of course that’s what he’d do. Why did Gene even give a damn anyway? That filthy mutt was just a pain in his rear end and should be left out on the street!

At least Zeke was being more cooperative this time. Maybe if he knew it was coming, he could react to it better? Gene stared down the older boy as though he were preparing for a battle…a face battle, if you will. Gene grabbed his shirt again and pressed their lips together more gently this time, trying to remember how Kodi did it with him so he could mimic the movements. He pushed his tongue inside. It was wet and slimy and Gene still wasn’t sure he liked it.

When he pulled away, his expression had not softened in the slightest as he continued to stare at the other boy, thinking hard about the brief experience. “……I’m gonna go brush my teeth,” he said after a moment, pushing himself off the couch and walking away to the washroom. He needed to get the taste of spit out of his mouth, ew.

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Why was he glaring so much? Had Zeke done something wrong? How was he supposed to know to expect the kiss to happen?? He didn’t think he had reacted any differently than anyone else would. He was so confused…

“Testing something?” he repeated meekly. “What…?” Obviously Gene wasn’t much in the mood to talk, though, so Zeke fell into silence and stared down at his lap. He supposed he would just let the younger boy do what he wanted because he was far too shy and submissive to stop the more aggressive male. What was he going to tell Danny…? And Rina?? Because she was more important, of course….!

He kept his eyes shut as he felt Gene’s breath come in closer, continuing to tremble until he felt the other boy snag his shirt and pull him in again. Tentatively, he tried to mimic the movements, using his little experience with Rina to try and keep up with Eugene. It was difficult, especially when he found the tongue slipping into his mouth, which Zeke had no experience with. It was… Weird. Wet. He wasn’t sure how he felt about it. But he was in too deep now to say no, so he just continued to let it happen until the other boy decided he was done.

He wanted to wipe his mouth, but Zeke didn’t know if that would be considered rude or not. And the way Gene was still glaring… “Sorry,” he whispered, feeling like it was somehow his fault that it hadn’t impressed him. He winced when Gene made his announcement, and waited until he was gone before he curled up against the back of the couch. Should he leave? What would Eugene think? Why did he have to care so much?? He would keep sitting there staring blankly into the opposite wall with his lips reddened and slightly swollen when Gene (hopefully) eventually returned. “… Do you want me to leave?” he asked quietly, twisting his hands together in his lap.

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Testing what indeed? Now that Gene thought about it, it was all stupid anyway. The whole thing, he didn’t need to know anything about kissing, because he never planning on kissing again! Yes, that was the easiest solution.

Of course, Gene was too wrapped up in his own head and grumpiness to respond to Zeke’s questions, though even if he’d been paying attention, Gene wouldn’t know how to answer either.

Dangit! He had to see, though. What was it with this thing called kissing? Why did people like it? Gene’s first one hadn’t been pleasant. Nor had his second. Or even his last one with Kodi. But every one of them still managed to make Gene feel…weird. Like he was going to faint. Like he couldn’t get his heart to stand still. Like he couldn’t breath. Like he had a fever…he must be sick, that’s what it was…people who were sick got fevers, so that must be what it was..

HIs second kiss with Zeke, admittedly, was better than the first. Slower. Not rushed. He could feel a little more of the plushness of the other boy’s lips, the hot breath coming from his nose, and the gentle scrape of Zeke’s teeth across Gene’s tongue as it slid inside…

It was still gross, sharing spit. Who knows what kind of germs other mouths had? Hence why he felt the great need to brush his teeth afterwards. Gene was gone for several minutes while he filled his mouth with spearminty freshness, and rinsed with an equally refreshing mouthwash. When he returned, and was finally able to focus on Zeke’s questions, he stared at the older boy in genuine confusion. “No. Why?” he replied, finally moving to get his computer set up for gaming. “You just got here.”

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All that Zeke felt when kissing Gene was…. Wrong. Not the right person. He liked the younger boy alright, but not… Like that. Even as he sat and mulled over whether this changed anything between them, all he could think about was how awkward it was going to be now. Zeke still wasn’t sure if this was a sign that Gene was interested in him that way or not… And that in itself made him feel uncomfortable, which was why he asked if he should leave. He didn’t want to have to awkwardly turn him down…. That was, even if he could.

He might’ve liked the second kiss if tongue hadn’t been involved. That had just been…. Too much. He could hardly even imagine doing that with Rina! Should he be prepared for it to happen soon, he wondered…?

He could hardly believe how calm and normal Gene was appearing after… After that. He gawked for what felt like the hundredth time that night as the rich boy came back and started setting up the computer with such a casual response. “W… Why??” he repeated in amazement. “Because you just… we just… how am I supposed to look at you the same way now?” His cheeks were still flushed from embarrassment and response to the intimacy. “I’ve never even k-kissed anyone that way before….” Zeke wondered if he should actually be upset about that. What would Danny say when he told him? He hid his face in his hands. “… I don’t think I can concentrate on gaming anymore today…”

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Maybe that’s what it was? It was just wrong. Not the right person? That would make sense to him, that those feelings and any sort of likability were related to whether or not you wanted to kiss the other person. Whether you liked them.

Of course, Gene would never admit who the right person was supposed to be. Because that would mean admitting that he enjoyed even for a little bit the company and attention he got from a certain stray dog, and the vile things said dog would do to him.

Whatever, the experiment was over, he got it out of his system, Gene didn’t plan on thinking about it any more. The two of them could just go right back to whatever it was they were doing before, which was…getting ready to play Minecraft. However, Zeke didn’t seem like he was capable of moving past an event that meant essentially nothing. “How?” Gene repeated, a furrow creased between his eyebrows. “That’s you’re problem.” He barely listened as he continued to set up his computer. “Huh….well, since it sucked, it doesn’t have to count,” he advised. “You have my permission to forget it ever happened.” Because that’s exactly what Gene was going to do. Gene raised his head, his face fixed into a permanent glare when Zeke continued to be discouraging. He sighed and scratched back on the nape of his neck. “Fine. We’ll do it another day, I guess.” Maybe that was for the best, considering Gene didn’t feel like he was able to relax either.