Drunk and Full of Angst (Open)

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Back to this shitty place.  Just when Kodi thought he'd escaped the restricting hell that was the dormitories, he found himself right back in them.  Okay, so it had mostly been because of his own issues and uncertainties that had led him back here, but that didn't mean he couldn't be upset about it.  Or drunk.  Quite drunk.  

He thought he'd be okay with Gryphon's gender fluidity.  He'd managed to take it alright at first.  But... the more he thought about it, the more uncertain that Kodi became, until it was all he could think about and began straining the relationship.  It had been a struggle, but they'd come to the realization that it was best to take a break from being around each other constantly.  A break from their relationship.  It hadn't been easy by any means, though, which was what had led Kodi to his non-sobriety tonight.

He'd managed to stumble up the stairs after quietly passing by the dorm monitor rooms in an attempt to stay uncaught.  Fuck, he hated that he even needed to worry about being 'caught' again.  If only he had enough money to afford his own place by now, but nooo, his job had crap pay (it was only because he liked it that he was still working at the bookstore), and he spent most of his money on books and shit anyway.  Shit like the stuff that had him teetering against the wall once he'd reached the boy's hall.  Kodi wiped at his kohl-lined eyes, smearing the dark pigment on his cheek.  He couldn't remember which dorm he lived in.  "Fuck me.  Fuck this," he hissed.  Normally, the dentokinetic was a little less snarly when intoxicated; tonight, that didn't appear to be the case.  

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It’d been almost two months since Jackson came to live permanently in the dorms. It wasn’t that he hated living there, but he liked the idea of having a home to go back to. Since his grandmother’s death, though, Jackson felt like he didn’t really have one anymore….

Of course he stayed out with Rue sometimes, but since he wasn’t family and just his ‘tutor’, Jackson had to abide by the curfew the dorms had in place. Well….if he had to follow the rules and couldn’t stay out late, then nobody else could either, hmph! Spiteful much? Jackson didn’t care. All these kids living here thought they could get away with all sorts of things. Of course, if Jackson did those sorts of things, Murphy’s Law says he would get caught the first time he did it. Yeah…so without the sanctity of his grandmother’s home, there was a lot less that Jackson could get away with himself, and that was straining.

It was just after curfew(for the older students) and Jackson was monitoring the halls like a good boy. He volunteered for the position. He even got a badge to make him feel special, pinned right to his shirt. Gag.

Anyway, Jackson was moving from floor to floor making sure everything was in order - students were on their designated floors(as in no boys in the girls’ or girls in the boys’ dorms), that there were no unauthorized parties and rowdiness and public displays of stupidity. Smoking was a big one he had to police, there were a couple kids who didn’t know how to read the ‘no smoking’ signs, apparently. Any anybody he noticed coming in past curfew got their names jotted down in his pretty little hall monitor pad so he could report them to the dorm monitors. Nyeh heh heh heh….take that you hoodlums!

He was making yet another round of the top floor(the boys’ dorms) when he spotted a student stumbling down the hall rather haphazardly, in the tell-tale fashion of…well, a drunk. Oh joy! Jackson was going to have fun with this one! He put on a smirk and lifted his chin authoritatively as he approached the student. “You there,” he called to the kid. “You gotta lotta guts to be coming through here like that. Come on, straighten up, what’s your na—“ When he saw the kid’s face, though, Jackson stopped. And stared, mouth gaping. “K-kodi? Wh-what the heck?” Considering their previous interaction, Jackson shouldn’t have been surprised…but he was surprised! And Kodi looked terrible.

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Kodi really did have a place he could have potentially stayed outside the dorms – with his mother and little sister. However, for their own sake, and his, Kodi had decided it would be better if he came back here. Alone. So he wouldn’t have his mom’s hawk eyes watching his every move and giving him a curfew of 8 pm or something ridiculous. No, as much as he hated it here, that would be even worse. He didn’t want his little sister to see him like this either.

Kodi wasn’t even sure if he was on the right floor. Third one, right? Or was it second? There wasn’t anyone nearby for him to ask, although he probably wouldn’t even if there was. He’d figure this shit out himself, sooner or later. Either that or he’d pass out in the hall and someone would do something about him eventually. Yeah… That was looking more and more likely, considering how unstable Kodi was. If he wasn’t leaning against the wall, he’d probably be on the floor already.

The dentokinetic didn’t even notice the blonde twerp until he was practically in his face. Kodi squinted up at him, wondering what kind of student would take the risk of dealing with his drunk ass. A stupid one, probably. “I c… can’t straighten up, asshole… I’m gay…” Kodi snickered stupidly, although it came out as more of a wheeze. “Not… that that matters… anymore…” Nope, not since Gryphon had turned out to be a girl. Or something. He was too drunk to remember how that entire situation was now. He finally managed to look up and get a good (blurry) look at the kid’s face, and his brow furrowed. “Oh hey…. It’s you…” He prodded Jackson’s shoulder and snickered again. “What? Surprised t’see me?” Kodi took another step and wobbled; he had to reach out to the wall again to stay upright. “What’re you… some kinda… hall monitor troll? Dweeb.” Wasn’t this the kid that had spray painted shit with him way back when? When’d he become such a… a… Dweeb? “Tell ya what, I’ll make ya a deal,” he slurred. “Don’t report me, an’ I won’t beat you up next time I see ya.” Another step, and another near-stumble. Fuck, his dorm might as well be a mile away.

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“Yes…yes I already knew that,” he replied blandly. Even drunk, this guy was a jerk. Well, what did Jackson expect him to be? Warm and kitten-cuddly? Though….Jackson wasn’t sure how to take his incoherent ramblings. Kodi sounded a lot more gloomy than usual.

For the moment, all Jackson could do was stand there and wait for Kodi to recognize him. If this were anybody else, any other student, Jackson would have called the dorm monitor to handle the situation. Jackson was qualified to look around and find out if there was any funny business going on, but he was not qualified to be handling drunks(even though he’d done so several times, when his uncle had a few too many). “Surprised…you could say that. Kodi, what’s—?” Jackson stepped forward to tentatively catch the unstable boy should he happen to lose his footing or hand on the wall and smash his face on the floor. Which might be an improvement for Kodi, but Jackson wasn’t going to say so. “Hey, it’s a respectable position. I’m respectable.” He pointed at the badge on his shirt. “See, it says so right here.” While Jackson was engaging, he wasn’t sure what point there was to it. Kodi was wasted, how likely was it that he was even going to remember this once he sobered up?

Jackson shook his head and stepped forward again this time to actually catch Kodi from a near fall and wrap his arm around Jackson’s shoulder. “You are drunk. A better deal would be to promise to not tattle on me for the tagging thing, and I make sure nobody finds out about this.” But what else could he expect from someone who was only half there? Jackson hefted Kodi up as best he could then stared down the conveniently empty hall. “What’s your dorm number? I gotta know where I’m going if I’m gonna get you out of sight before someone else sees.”

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Kodi usually wasn’t as big of a jerk when he was drunk. He still wasn’t nice, per say, but he thought he was somewhat more likeable (or at least less hateable). But this was different because of obvious circumstances, so the dentokinetic was likely going to either explode with frustration and angst (more likely if he wasn’t so wasted), or get uncharacteristically honest and depressing. With lots of sarcasm.

He was fortunate that it was this kid he’d run into over anyone else, because most students would likely report him without a second thought. Kodi would be thankful for it later. Probably. “M’not disabled,” he grunted sourly as Jackson moved forward as though to catch him. Clearly he was more unstable than he realized. “What’s what, huh? Ain’t ever seen a drunk ‘fore?” Kodi’s voice was slurring something terrible at this point, his accent coming through thicker than usual. “Respectable?” he snorted. “Since when? Last I ‘member, you were paintin’ a cartoon blowjob at a kid’s playground… but my memory ain’t all that great right now,” he admitted dizzily. Then he did remember something. “Hey…. Your nipples… how’re they doin’, huh? Ain’t rotted off yet, right?” Kodi was sure he would have heard if they did. “You show ‘em t’Rue? Did he fuck you yet?” Now he was just rambling drunkenly. He hadn’t seen Jackson since then, he wanted answers and gossip! Even if he was wasted.

Yep, he definitely would have tumbled that time if Jackson hadn’t caught him. Kodi groaned, fighting sudden nausea. Shit… How much had he had to drink? He had a high tolerance level, it took a lot to get him this drunk. “Right… Sure… That,” he agreed, looking pale and maybe a little green. “Heh… twerp… you sure got a two-face thing goin’ on, huh? So what are you really, naughty or nice?” He leaned heavily against the blonde as they walked down the hall. Kodi’s mind went blank at the question. “…. I don’t ‘member,” he admitted after a moment. “I think… it had a… 7…?” He was fairly certain of that much. His lip suddenly began to wobble. “Or m-m-maybe that was Gryph’s apartment…”

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“Keep telling yourself that….” Jackson said. Kodi couldn’t walk half a step without stumbling, he may as well have been disabled. He shook his head. “Of course I have…” Why was he arguing with a drunk anyway? Everyone knew that was pointless.

How much did this guy drink, anyway? He was worse than anything he’d seen even from his uncle. At least his uncle could still walk. Most of the time. Otherwise, he just passed out on the recliner. “Yeah, you must be remembering someone else, there’s no way I’d do something like that.” This was Jackson playing innocent. It’d do no good for anyone else to accidentally overhear Kodi’s ramblings, however unreliable they might be. Jackson wasn’t sure how to respond to Kodi, though. It wasn’t like he was in a state to be engaging in merry conversation, even though Kodi was clearly trying to do that. “This is not the place, nor the time Kodi.” Jackson sighed, running his hand through his hair. The blonde was starting to show some pretty dark roots. Jackson wasn’t sure he wanted to bother redoing them. “If you be a good boy and work with me here, help me get you back to your room, maybe I’ll tell you allll about it. Sound fair?” Jackson wasn’t sure he’d live up to that promise though. Anything to get this drunk kid out of the halls.

Yeah, Kodi was just rambling at this point, Jackson convinced himself. “I don’t know what you’re talking about,” he said with yet another sigh. “And neither do you, apparently. Just…try to focus, okay? Focus.” That was the only way they were going to make any progress, it seemed. Jackson listened to Kodi’s mumbling, figuring out a ‘7’ from his slurring. “Seven? Okay, 507, gotcha.” At least, he hoped that was the right one. “Come on, let’s go before someone sees.” Jackson started leading Kodi down the hall to the aforementioned room, taking care not to go to fast for Kodi’s motor skills to keep up with. It seemed to take forever, though in reality wasn’t long at all. When he got there, Jackson tried the knob. “I really hope I’m in the right place. Which one’s your room?” he asked once they stepped across the threshold.

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Kodi’s brow furrowed in deep thought as Jackson denied his claim. “Y’sure? I coulda sworn it was you… Mebbe it was some other blonde…” He tried to remember for a good while, until the memory went fuzzy in his head and he just snorted and shook his head. “Huh, guess I am a bit tipsy, if I can’t ‘member that…” He was so drunk he was actually believing Jackson’s lies. He was fairly certain he at least had pierced the boy’s chest, though. And of course that became more important than going and laying down and getting some water and food in his churning stomach. “Why not?” he grunted, swaying with a pout. His eyeliner had somehow become more smeared. “I ain’t seen you in like, years. You never called, you never texted…” Jackson must hate him, surely. Just like everyone else. He considered the boy’s ‘deal’, and after a moment, decided it was fair. Kodi nodded. “A’ight. Prob’ly better t’talk in private anyway,” he slurred, suddenly remembering they were in the hallway. How had he ever made the stairs up here?

All Kodi could do was take Jackson’s words as truth by this point. He couldn’t trust his brain to remember things. “Focus… Fuckus… Heh… Fuck us… Fuck me.” He continued muttering out curses as Jackson led him to, fortunately, the right room. He was practically leaning into Jackson’s side, and eventually closed his eyes to stop the world from spinning around him. Somehow they made it there, and Kodi blinked blearily inside as he was asked which room was his. “Uh… that one… I think…” he mumbled, pointing to a door with suspicious-looking scratches in the paint. Once they got inside, Kodi would collapse onto the bed with Jackson’s help or not, groaning loudly. “Where’s Fang?” he uttered dumbly. He’d forgotten that the bunny was still with Gryph. He’d only brought Aragog back with him, and the spider was curled up inside it’s burrow in the small container he was in on Kodi’s shelf. “Fangy… Daddy’s home… Guh…”

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“Yeah, I’m pretty sure, I wouldn’t do something that stupid.” Lies lies lies. But Kodi was probably too drunk to notice anyway. “A ‘bit’, huh? I’d say a little ‘bit’ more than that.” Jackson was no stranger to drunks or taking care of them. To get this bad…Kodi must’ve had quite a bit. And from the smell…it was mostly hard liquor. Didn’t smell like beer breath. “You never gave me your phone number,” he explained as to why he hadn’t called. Or texted. Now that he thought of it, Jackson just up and left the apartment back when they hung out that night, and they hadn’t seen each other since. Neither of them bothered to exchange a means to contact the other. Why was that? Maybe because Jackson thought he’d see him at school at some point, if he was a Hammel student. Sure enough…

Jackson didn’t expect the kid to be piss drunk though. “Uh-huh…” he replied to Kodi’s nonsensical mumblings. At least he was cognizant enough to tell him where his bedroom was. At least, he hoped he had the right one. Once inside, Jackson let Kodi flop across the bed however he did, and took a seat in the desk chair. “Fang?” Who the hell was that? Jackson looked around the room, seeing nothing to indicate there was anyone or anything else in the room. Jackson sighed. “You’re talking nonsense,” he grumbled. “Hang on, I’ll be right back with some water.” Jackson really didn’t want to take care of his drunken ass here either. He stood and started towards the door. Jackson wasn’t gone for but a minute, deciding to invade the small fridge in the common room rather than going all the way to the vending machines outside to get something. Like hell Jackson was spending his own money on this jerk. When he returned, it was with a bottle of water and a bag of pretzels. “Hey…you’re not dead yet, are you? I brought you some water and food. You can thank me later.” He opened the bottle and set it on the nightstand beside the bed. Jackson wasn’t going to feed the kid either.

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Kodi wasn’t really processing all of what Jackson said anymore anyway, so he could have said he was part unicorn and the dentokinetic might have believed it. “Okay… Mebbe a lot…” he slurred, hiccupping slightly. He hadn’t been this drunk in… A very long time. Since he’d started dating Gryph seriously, he’d only ever gotten tipsy on occasion, maybe a little more than tipsy once or twice, and most of it in good fun without consequences. Tonight he’d managed to find a party and crash it for their strongest booze. Kodi needed it (in his opinion). “I didn’t?” he grunted dumbly. “Huh… Wonder how I managed t’do tha’.” Maybe because he wasn’t used to giving people his number because he never made friends. “I can… give it t’you later…” Once he could actually remember what his number was. At least Jackson hadn’t just forgotten about him, right? It would probably be hard to, considering the blonde had a constant reminder pierced in his skin….

“Yeah! Fang! He’s got a pattern in his fur shaped like a penis an’ big floppy ears…” Kodi trailed off as he finally remembered why the bunny wasn’t here. His lip began trembling again. “Oh yeah… he’s not here… only me an’ Aragog…” The Chinese boy looked up at where the tarantula was, wondering if he could cuddle the spider like he used to cuddle Fang. Probably not. “Mmmm….kay….” He wasn’t paying too much attention to what Jackson was saying, having half-forgotten he was there in his own lonely thoughts. Kodi just laid there, half-asleep, while the younger boy was gone. At least he didn’t feel quite as sick now that he was laying down. “I dunno, am I dead?” he mumbled when he came back, squinting up at the blurry figure. His mouth slackened a little in surprise. “You… Brought stuff… for me…?” he asked in surprise. Kodi managed to push himself up enough to take the water bottle and start swigging it down like it was alcoholic. Once his thirst was quenched, he began nibbling on the pretzels. “… Can I thank you now?” The drunk boy turned big, gracious eyes up at his savior, and offered him one of the pretzels. “No one’s ever this nice t’me….” No one except….

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“Definitely a lot,” he agreed to the slurring. Jackson was surprised he could even understand half of what Kodi was saying. He chuckled when Kodi seemed legitimately confused over their lack of sharing contact information. “Well, I forgot too, so it’s not completely your fault.” At the time, Jackson was more worried about getting home to his Grams before she pitched a fit and…

Oh yeah…for a moment, Jackson had forgotten that he’d stayed out late that night too. Really late. And his grandmother had stayed up waiting for him to come home then as well. Jackson was feeling all sorts of shit that night, but he still remembered to call. He still remembered to come home. Not like when he was with Rue…

That guilt was going to stick with him forever, wasn’t it?

“Are you trying to describe an animal?” Jackson wondered, creasing his eyebrows in his confusion. Jackson hadn’t seen any animal at the apartment when he was there and Jackson was half-inclined to believe that Kodi was dreaming about…whatever he was dreaming about. Vampire bunnies, for all he knew, considering the floppy ears with a name like ‘fang’.

The only reason Jackson went and got those things for Kodi was because…because….he didn’t want Kodi to choke on his own vomit and die or something! Not because they were actually good friends or anything. If this was what Kodi was like(not that he didn’t know it before) then Jackson didn’t want to have anything to do with the delinquent. Jackson was respectable. He had a hall monitor badge that said so… “Don’t go celebrating yet, I’m just doing what anyone would do,” he tried to tell the drunk boy. Though…Kodi did look ten kinds of pathetic, looking up at him with those eyes Jackson didn’t think he could have. “It’s fine, just eat those and…we’ll sober you up in no time, okay?” Jackson took a seat off the edge of the bed and offered Kodi a couple of ‘comforting’ pats on his back. Jackson was about as bad at comforting people as Kodi was. The best he could do last time he had to was offer….well, offer sex, and there was no way Jackson was going to do that with this kid. He wasn’t even that good looking…

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“You’re right! S’your fault too,” Kodi agreed at Jackson’s reassurance. At least he hadn’t been the only stupid one. Unless Jackson had forgotten on purpose because he didn’t want to see him again…. Hmmmm…!

Nope, he was too drunk to think about this any longer. Kodi was already distracted with other things that were more important than wondering if a baby twerp hated him.

And because they hadn’t kept in touch, Kodi had no idea about Jackson’s grandmother’s death, or that he was still dealing with the consequences of that. Maybe, eventually, he would find out and express some form of sympathy. He was an asshole, but not so much of one that he would make light of a relative’s death.

“’Course I am! What kinda person has fur??” Kodi demanded with slurred sarcasm. “He’s a bunny rabbit. A big one. Gryph an’ I raised him all by ourselves…” And now it was just Gryph taking care of the bunny. Kodi wondered if he would ever be allowed to see Fang again… It almost made him cry to think about it. “I m-miss him already…” he whined into his pillow.

Sober Kodi wouldn’t have admitted that he liked Jackson, probably. Drunk Kodi was already thinking that the blonde was his beeest friend, for taking care of him like this. Who else would? No one, not anymore… “Anyone, huh? Ain’t no one that wants t’take care of me…” he mumbled sadly. “Not no more…” His eyes were still feeling moist. Kodi nodded sadly and continued to eat the pretzels until the bag was nearly empty. By the time he’d guzzled some more water down, he was feeling just a tiny bit more clear-headed. “M’okay,” he assured Jackson as he leaned wearily into the younger boy. The pats on the back made him feel stupidly attached to the blonde. “C-can you stay here with me?” he pleaded with those same eyes. “I’m… S-so alone…. I don’t wanna be alone…” Not tonight. What if the nightmares came back? “I’ll… I’ll give you a kiss….?” Kodi drunkenly leaned forward and planted one smack on Jackson’s lips before he could protest.

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“Mmhmm, yeah, my fault,” he repeated in a voice as though he were talking to a child. Or a drunk. Kodi didn’t know what he was saying anyway, it was pointless talking to him seriously like this.

“Uhh….clearly you’ve never met my Tia Guadalupe.” That woman had a mole with enough ‘fur’ to make a hamster out of. Though listening to Kodi go on about that bunny, and the way he was talking about…Gryph? Did Kodi ever mention a Gryph before? “W-wait, I think I’m lost here. Gryph is….your boyfriend?” he asked uncertainly. As far as Jackson knew, Kodi never mentioned his boyfriend’s name, hence the confusion. Though…Jackson had a bad feeling about the way Kodi was acting….no, no, it’s not good to make assumptions. It probably wasn’t as bad as he thought, Kodi was just…drunk and emotional.

There was definitely something wrong with the way Kodi was acting. So…self-depreciating. Emo.

Lonely.

Jackson could relate to that.

It made Jackson feel awkward. What was he supposed to do about a drunk person feeling sorry for himself? At least he was eating the pretzels and drinking the water. “Stay? I ca—“ Damn, those pathetic eyes. What was he supposed to do, say no? No, he didn’t care enough to stay when a person was feeling this down and out? Jackson was terrible at comforting.... “Fine….I’ll stay until you---“ Jackson didn’t get to finish his sentence, because before he could object to it, Kodi had crawled up and kissed the blonde right there on the lips. Jackson was baffled. Befuddled. Bewildered. All the ‘b’ words that described being positively dumbfounded. “I….I didn’t say you could do that!” he protested after the fact. Jackson wasn’t even attracted to this guy(not like he was to Rue), what was he expecting? What was he….? “Just……lay down…or something,” he directed, turning his head to hopefully hide the reddening in his cheeks. Kodi was probably too drunk to notice it anyway, but still….

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“Tia Guwadaloopa?” Kodi slurred, totally confused. “Hey…. We’re in ‘Merica, we gotta speak English!” Yup, he’d already forgotten what he’d been talking about previously. At least until the subject of Gryphon came up. “My boyfriend…?” he repeated in a pathetic whine. “No… N-not... not anymore… He t-turned into my girlfriend, an’ I’m too gay for tha’, so… So…. I had to…” The lip trembling turned into a small sob and Kodi turned away, hiding his face behind his hands. “It’s all my fault,” he whimpered. “Why can’t I be straight for him… her? It’s not faaair…” Even though Kodi had been the one to say they should take a break, it wasn’t because he really wanted to. He was just so confused and torn up over the unexpected situation that he’d ran like a child. He just wanted Gryph back…

So he was acting pathetic. At least Kodi had effective puppy eyes when he wanted to, and looked slightly less pathetic when Jackson agreed to staying. “You’re the best~!” His excitement led to that smooch on the lips, which was more friendly than anything else. “O-oh, sorry…” he pouted when the boy complained. Still, Kodi kept giggling despite this, and flopped down on his back when Jackson told him to. “Do you want me to ask again so you can say yes?” he slurred after a minute. Kodi scooted over slightly so he could wrap his arm around Jackson’s waist. “… Hey…. You said you’d tell me about stuff when we got here… Tell me things!” he demanded vaguely, mostly because he couldn’t remember exactly what he’d been asking about. “An’ I wanna see your piercin’s,” he added hopefully.

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Of course Kodi would butcher the name. He suspected even sober, he would have. Most people did. “Says who?” he countered. “And that gibberish you’re spouting is hardly English you should be proud of.” Especially when Jackson knew he could do better.

Jackson didn’t understand. What? He turned into a girl? What? “What?” he asked, completely confused at Kodi’s ramblings. Was his boyfriend…a gender shifter, like Bunny? And this guy…. “You broke up with with him because he’s half girl? That’s just…” That was awful of him to do! And here he was crying about it, he brought it upon himself as far as Jackson was concerned. “If you really love him, then that sort of thing…you should be able to work past it. And heck, maybe even be grateful that you don’t have to be completely gay.” Then maybe he’d stop thinking he was going to hell for it.

That was a little harsh, yes, but fuck, this guy was annoying when he was whining.

But…Jackson was too nice a guy to just abandon Kodi when he was feeling like this. Though after that kiss, he was starting to regret it. “No, I don’t want you do ask again so I can say yes.” Because he wasn’t going to give permission, not to a drunk. “Hey! Stop being so clingy!” he griped when Kodi wrapped his arms around him, about ready to push the dentokinetic away from him. Or punch him. “Huh? Oh….right…” he said, calming down only slightly. Grumble grumble, maybe if he told him about it, Kodi would calm down. Like a bedtime story. Maybe. “You won’t get to see my piercings, I’m not taking my shirt off for you again. But I will tell you about…about….” Yeah, he couldn’t suppress the blush nor the nervous stammering. “T-the….s-se—“ Nope, couldn’t say it. “We did it and it was great, there you happy?” he finished quickly.

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Kodi gave Jackson and indignant look. “I dunno watcher talkin’ ‘bout, my English is good,” he slurred. “Ever’one knows southern English is best English.” Ironically, Kodi could speak more properly and with better vocabulary than most people, but he had always chose to dumb down his speech to seem like less of a nerd.

“You heard mee…” Kodi whined. He was making total sense. To himself, at least. Of course Jackson had no idea what the dentokinetic was talking about. “He ain’t half girl! He… I dunno… I was so confused… He said sometimes he is, and sometimes he ain’t, and sometimes he’s neither…” Yes, it was all Kodi’s fault, which was one of the reasons he’s gotten wasted. He knew he was a total asshole for doing what he’d done, but did that mean he would fix it? Nooo, he’d just drown in his sorrows. “I know I should,” he whimpered, pathetically clutching his pillow. Tears were dripping down his cheeks by now. “But he… He’s better off…. With someone who can ‘ppreciate alla his genders… Not just… the guy one…” And besides, Kodi knew he was completely gay. Even just thinking about touching a girl made him shudder.

But he needed someone to touch tonight, and Jackson was the only person who’d come close enough to let him. Kodi clung to the blonde for dear life. “O-okay, I won’t ask…” he whimpered into Jackson’s back. “I sorry…” The Chinese boy sniffed and peered up at the younger boy, kohl-stained lines of tears trailing down his cheeks. He at least perked up a little bit in interest at the ‘story time’. He giggled a tiny bit when Jackson stumbled over and failed to say the big “S” word. “It was, was it??” he gleed quietly. “I told you! Gimme details! Was his cock big? What position didja do?” Drunk Kodi was an easily distracted Kodi. “Didja use any toys? How long was it ‘til you could walk without a limp?” Because obviously Jackson was a bottom. Kodi looked up with wide-eyed expectancy.