Empty words (Noah/Fer)

[Mia Bell]

Mia walked out of the cafeteria, oblivious to people following her. Right now she didn’t care either, she was just too focused on trying not to cry. She was heading to the dorm building but completely stopped at the front doors to it; she couldn’t go to her dorm, no she wasn’t going to do it. She placed a hand on her stomach; she shook her head it wouldn’t be a good idea for her to be in her room right now. Instead she walked to the auditorium building, it was the only place she knew where she would be safe to cry. No one really went into the auditorium, at least not the times she went there.

Mia walked through the doors and looked around the auditorium. She sighed heavily and went to sit in one of the seats in one of the middle rows. She pulled her knees close to her chest, rested her forehead on her knees and just started crying. It felt like Cameron had stabbed a knife into her heart. She just didn’t get it, was she really that worthless? Was Cameron playing with her heart from the beginning? What had she done to deserve all these empty words? She thought Cameron was different, that he wouldn’t be like her last boyfriend. But she guessed she was wrong.

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[Noah Washington]

Noah followed not long after she left. He watched from across the way as she got to the dorms but stopped, and he stopped too. He couldn't figure out what she was doing, but suddenly she was off again for the Auditorium. Well, that's where he was going then. He didn't know what was going on in her head but he wanted to help her as much as he could. She might have wanted to be alone, he didn't know. But it was the thought that counted the most.

When he walked into the Auditorium he shook the water out of his hair and ran down the aisle, seeing her sitting by herself.

"Mia, hey!" He called out finally, catching up to her and falling into a seat beside her. Instantly, he moved to pull her in for a hug. Obviously she was more hurt by this than anyone had expected and he wanted to be there for her.

[Fer Reyes]

Not long after starting to chase Mia, Fer noticed he was not alone in the endeavor. That blonde he had been introduced too that day downtown shared it with him. Good, now Fer knew Mia wasn't going to be alone and that she had a friend to check on her. He thought for a moment about returning to Cam, then, and share the happy moments, and maybe getting to know the lucky boyfriend. Nah, it wouldn't be fair. He thought to himself. After all, the day he met Mia, she did help him with his little problem in the gym, figuring out if a guy that he like was gay or not (and he was). Fer not only felt compelled to help Mia too, but he wanted to.

Fer walked into the Auditorium several steps after Noah, and followed him to the aisle where Mia was sitting with her face buried in her knees. He walked slowly but with confidence, and took a seat next to Mia, opposite to Noah's. He thought of remaining silent, he didn't quite know what to say and she probably didn't quite wanted to say anything. He didn't know, though, everyone was different, and maybe she did wanted to talk and explode her feelings outwards.

"Mia," He said softly. "it's fine, what happened?"

[Mia Bell]

Mia hadn’t expected anyone to follow her, or even care about her. Maybe she shouldn’t have slapped Cameron, at least not in front of everyone. But she can be very impulsive especially when it comes to something like this. She heard Noah’s voice but didn’t look up. She wasn’t sure if she wanted to talk about it or if she wanted to be alone. She wanted both, but right now she was grateful for Noah holding her. It reminded her of how her father had held her when she cried. Not something she should be thinking about because it just made her even more sad. She wrapped her arms around Noah; showing him she wanted him to stay.

It was obvious Noah was soaked, of course, it was raining; it rained every time she started crying. Soon after Noah came around though Fer joined, she looked at him and blinked; she hadn’t expected him to be here at all. She really didn’t give people enough credit.

Mia pulled away from Noah a little; but held onto his shirt. She gulped as she looked from Fer to Noah not really sure where to start. She looked at the ground “Why is it that every guy who says they’re in love with me don't mean it?” She wondered if that might be too random. But she really didn’t know where to start. “Er.. A few weeks ago Cameron came to my Uncle’s music store and long story short he sang me a song he wrote and in the end he told me he was in love with me…” She wiped her face with her free hand but it didn’t help at all. She had no idea that Noah knew anything about that day...

[Noah Washington]

Noah looked up briefly to find that someone else had come looking for Mia. He recognised the guy, but couldn't really remember where from. Maybe they met or something. It didn't matter right now anyway.

Noah allowed her to stay near him. He was just glad that he hadn't been told to get out or anything like that. Two people were better than one, too. So at least he wasn't trying to make her feel better on his own. He hoped it meant something that the both of them were there, but he had a strong feeling that it did. She didn't need to say it. It wasn't a random place to start, because Noah knew the story already. Cam had told him, after all.

He didn't say anything. He looked up to Fer, wondering what his reaction was.

[Fer Reyes]

So he was right. Fer swallowed saliva, he didn't want to be right. Clearly, it was a case of heartbroken-ness. He sighed slightly. What Mia was telling him was quite a moving little story, also one that he couldn't quite believe. True, Cam was a flirt, a very good one, but Fer didn't quite thought that he'd be... this evil. Playing with someone's feelings was not something that people should do. Because of that, Fer usually kept things very straight forward, he never intended for people to get hurt because of him.

"Cam's..." Fer said softly, noticing Noah apparently wasn't going to say anything. "pff... he's just..." Ok, Fer, remember, heartbroken-ness 101, you always insult the other person. "he's a complete jerk-twat." Fer said with confidence, even if he didn't really believe his own words. "He's a manwhore. Just you wait, that ginger kid doesn't know what he's in for." He wanted to say that it was Mia's fault for believing his words, for not noticing that Cam flirted with everything that had legs, but it was not the moment. Not today. "You don't deserve a guy like that, and he definitely does not deserve your tears." He looked at Noah before looking at Mia again. "Plus his dick's like really small," He said, attempting to cheer up the situation. "you don't want that."

[Mia Bell]

Mia was a little worried that Noah didn’t say anything. She wondered what he was thinking… She hoped it wasn’t anything bad. But before she could go on, because of course there was more; Fer spoke up and she frowned at him. No, she wasn’t looking for someone to down grade Cameron, she wasn’t that type of person and was happy that he was happy. Sort of, she still thought he was an ass but not for the reason Fer seemed to think. Or maybe that was part of the reason. It was all really confusing

She shook her head “Please don’t down grade Cameron just because of this or for me.” Cameron has helped her a lot and she still believed he was a great guy which is why she was happy for the redhead. Mia smirked at Fer’s comment to Cameron’s parts but shook her head “I’m not having sex till I’m married… So I don’t really care..” That was the truth.

Mia shook her head, she was getting side tracked “But that’s not the whole story…” She sighed again. “I kind of freaked out on him when he told me he was in love with me… and I had questioned him about it… For a lot of reasons but mostly because of past experience.. Anyways.. The main reason why I had my doubts was because I knew he was interested in and dating other people…” She took a deep breath but didn’t stop there. “But he didn’t seem to be interested in being exclusive with me, at least that’s the vibe I got… I mean we were openly talking about how he was dating a bunch of people and he actively said it wasn’t fair to me that he was dating other people and yet he didn’t say anything that made me believe he wanted me to be his girlfriend… So I thought he didn’t want to be exclusive at all.. So in the end I told him that I couldn’t handle being with him while he was dating other people and he said he understood, said we were still friends and he just left..”

Mia sighed “Why I’m crying now is because…” She looked at the ceiling “He apparently wants to be exclusive. So now I feel like I’m just…” She stopped thinking of the right word “worthless? Not good enough?” She didn’t get it. “I just don’t get it..” She was utterly confused and didn’t know what to think or feel. “Do You think I did something wrong?”

[Noah Washington]

Noah was luckily successful at stopping himself from laughing at all the things Fer was saying. Whether it was true or not, he still understood what the guy was doing. It was designed to make her feel better. Everyone had their flaws, after all. When she said she wasn't having sex until she was married, Noah was glad she couldn't see his face. He was surprised.

Yeah, let's go with that.

He nodded when she expressed her doubts about what had gone on. He could understand why she was skeptical if he was willing to date other people at the same time. "You had no idea he would seriously drop everyone else, huh." He noted. After all, why would she think he would? Going off his word, he could see why she wouldn't be sure.

"You're supposed to do whatever you feel like doing. If you weren't sure, then you shouldn't have gone with it." Noah pointed out. Noticing how drenched in water she had become, Noah raised a hand and started to draw the water out of her clothing. "Sometimes the risk isn't worth the gain. And if he's going to be with someone else despite being in love with you... I just hope he actually likes the guy." And that he wasn't just the next person in line.

[Fer Reyes]

Fer's eyes widened. He even scratched his head a bit. Was Mia defending Cam? Her comment on the subject of sex made it more clear: she was indeed defending the blonde. Mia was probably too good of a girl to even play with the idea that Cam was indeed a player. Maybe it was just denial to avoid thinking the fact that she had been played. It was a good strategy, but would it help her on the long run? True, maybe Fer had been a bit abrasive with his words, but he hadn't lied exactly, and he wasn't going to. He felt the need to correct Mia on her words, to show her how he was not downgrading Cameron but just stating facts, but he decided to let her continue her story on what had gone down.

The Brazilian boy swallowed saliva. Yeah, she had been totally played with. Fer didn't need to know Cam's side on the story to tell it was a classical "I just don't like you enough." Maybe he was judging too quickly, thought, but he had seen this story a thousand times over. It was a shame Mia had to be in the losing party here.

Noah was offering a support opposite from Fer's by playing nice and being good with everyone. But for Fer, both sides could not be good, one had to be wrong, evil, bad, and he was not going to be afraid to keep at it, even if Mia was going to defend Cam. She needed to open her eyes to the fact that she had been hurt, and that it wasn't her fault, it was his. His and his only, otherwise, she'd go to a dark hole.

"Of course there's nothing wrong with you!" Fer exclaimed loudly. "Look, Mia, I know you think I'm downgrading and treating Cam as shit with what I said, but I wouldn't do that, Cam is my friend too, after all." He sighed. "I'm not downgrading Cameron, I'm stating facts. I lack fingers to count just how many people Cam's been dating up to now, and I'm not saying that's bad, because it alone isn't," He placed his hand in her shoulder. "but he shouldn't have said that, that he loved you, knowing you... had feelings for him too. Specially when, clearly, you both wanted different things." He shook his head. "He did wrong, Mia. He doesn't know what he's missing. Plus we don't really know what kind of relationship he's having with the ginger, maybe they're boyfriends with an open relationship."

[Mia Bell]

Mia shook his head “I told you, he didn’t seem interested in being anything more with me… Unless I was reading something wrong… I guess it doesn’t matter now anyways…” Noah’s words did not make her feel any better, or maybe it should. If he was actually willing to drop everyone else for one person, than he apparently didn’t want the person to be her. She was so fed up with guys playing with her. She was also fed up with letting them; was she really that stupid?

Mia gulped and she stared at the water, Noah was controlling as she felt herself become dry. “thank you.” She looked at the ground; “I’m happy for Cameron and the redhead I really am.” She was going to push her feelings aside when it came to that. She wanted Cameron to be happy, that was the end of that. “Slapping him kind of ruined our friendship didn’t it?” She doubted he wanted to still be friends with her. She sighed heavily.


“If there’s nothing wrong with me; then why is this the second time I’ve been in this situation…?” She looked at Fer, what was she suppose to say? She sighed “What should I do now?” Should she apologize to Cameron? Should she even talk to him again? Then again she worked with him but she guessed she could quit the Holey land and just actually work at the Quarter note. “Eh… Cameron said he was off the market…” Didn’t that mean they were exclusive? “Besides why announce that? What’s the difference between an open relationship and dating?”

[Noah Washington]

"It was wrong." Noah said decisively, "He told you he was in love with you, and then days later he's in a relationship with someone else. Regardless of whether you said yes or no, that isn't fair." Noah nodded along with the things that Fer was saying. Having both sides of the story made things interesting, that was for sure. "Who knows? Maybe he just wants to be in a relationship." And didn't care who it was with.

With a small wave of his hand, the water was gone from the three of them and tossed aside onto the ground in the aisle. At least it wasn't on them anymore. "I don't think slapping him ruined anything. Maybe he deserved it." Noah shrugged, "And besides, he'll get over that." Because he would.

"I can try and talk to him, if you want. Because he better not be holding a grudge." He doubted the guy did.

[Fer Reyes]

Fer was glad Noah was agreeing with him. He didn't want to look like a bad guy here, specially because he was not. Sometimes people just didn't like to hear the truth. Having the support of Noah, he nodded along with his words as well. It was also nice of him that he was drying them all by controlling water with his hands, something he hadn't notice up until now. As Mia thanked him for that, Fer smiled and nodded to agree with her, but soon returned his attention to her.

"Does it matter?" Fer asked. "Why would you want to keep being friends with him after this?" Fer was was a friendly person, he didn't believe in hating people and the such, but there was a difference between that and just, not being friends with someone. "He might get over you slapping him, but will you get over him... hurting you like this?" Fer sighed. "Maybe you should just step back for some time, and consider if you want to be friends with him, knowing that it would be understandable if you didn't. I know I wouldn't."

Mia touched a good point. Cameron did say he was off the market, which implied exclusivity. Then again, he said it in front of the boyfriend, so it could mean he only did so to appease the ginger. Maybe the ginger knew of Cameron's... past and want to assure that things were serious by making him do a public declaration of their status, so nobody would get too close to Cam. Who knew if Cam could be a monogamous person? Who knew if he could resist the urge of going back to his now previous lifetime? Only time would tell, really.

"All I'm saying is that we really don't know anything." Fer shook his head lightly while looking away. "In Spanish we say that words get carried away by the wind, actions speak louder than words." He nodded in silence for a moment. He was touching a good point there. "Which is the point of it all. Can't say about last time, but this time, it's not your fault at all, it's his: he said many things but he didn't do them. He talked the talk, but didn't walk the walk."

[Mia Bell]

Mia shook her head slightly; she just couldn’t accept the fact that it wasn’t her fault. Maybe it would have turn out differently if she had just tried instead of seeing if Cameron would. But her last relationship she gave all she had in it and she had just ended up crashing and burning. But apparently when she didn’t put enough effort into it she still crashed and burned. It was either she tried to hard or hadn’t tried hard enough. She really didn’t get relationships; she looked at Noah thoughtfully she wondered if she should just give up on relationships all together.

Noah’s last statement about Cameron wanting to be in a relationship didn’t make her feel better. “But why him and not me…” She mumbled; she wasn’t hung up on Cameron. She just kept wondering if there was a reason why he hadn’t asked her to be his girlfriend. What was wrong with her that she wasn’t good enough for anyone? Was all she really worth was empty, meaningless words?

“Nothing is going to be the same between us..” That much was for sure but then again it wasn’t the same after he said he loved her either. She looked at Fer, why would she want to be friends with him? That was a really good question. Cameron knew how hard getting back into dating was for her, and knew that she already had gotten her heart broken and now it seemed like Cameron didn’t care about it. “I guess you’re right. I should think about what I want in this….” She didn’t think she could go back to being friends with Cameron after this; this wasn’t something she could forget about as easily as Cameron could.

Tightening her grip on Noah’s shirt as she shook his head. “If you want to talk to him than go ahead; but don’t do it because of me… If he wants anything from me he can talk to me himself or show me himself.” She was tired of Cameron not showing her what he wanted; it was his move if he wanted anything from her. “As for me, Fer is right. I need to think about what I want… And if I want anything from him than I need to take action myself. I’m not going to hide behind excuses or people. No offense.” She was done playing games; if Cameron wanted anything from her than he needed to come to her himself and the same with her.

“I know that saying…” She did have Hispanic heritage, she wasn’t sure how much or which ancestors but her grandmother had once said the family carried Hispanic blood. “But if I tried harder than it could have been different…” She couldn’t believe it was just Cameron’s fault, she wasn’t trying to defend Cameron in anyway. Mia sighed “I guess what happened, happened.. I can’t change anything.” She was just going to have to get over this. Staying away from Cameron would probably help her do that.

“Thanks guys..” She looked at Noah and then at Fer. “For being here for me… And Helping me and listening to me complain..” They were both great friends, and she was so grateful to them.

[Noah Washington]

"Because. You had your reasons for not wanting to. Whatever they are are yours for a reason. You can't lose sight of that." Noah pointed out. He couldn't help but nod when she finally talked about thinking of herself. It was an attitude she would be wise to adopt, considering all that had happened. "If everyone else is, you might as well too." Protect herself and all that.

But he had to shake his head when she said she could have tried harder to make things different. "Okay. Do you want to know something?" He asked, unable to believe he was going to tell her this, "When I first met you and I found out from Ray that you were into Cam, I couldn't believe it. Someone as great as you? With someone like him? You deserve so much more than that. And if this is how he's going to be now then you are better off." He shrugged. There, now it was out in the open.

"Don't worry about it." Noah said, giving her a side hug when she thanked him. He was grateful to be friends with her, "But if you want advice, he's probably not going to come to you for a while. I mean, you did slap him." Rather than sounding sombre or anything like that, his face cracked into a smile and he tried his best not to laugh. "And it was a good slap too. Buuut he probably thinks you don't want him anywhere near you."

[Fer Reyes]

"You don't need anything from him anyway." Fer said. "And I have to agree with blondie," He nodded after Noah's words. "you are too good for Cam. The guy's slept with half the school and you're waiting until marriage, you're far too different."

Fer laughed a bit Noah's following words. He was right, it was indeed a good slap, and most likely Cam wasn't going to get close to her for the time being, which Fer thought was for the best for both of them. He was happy that he had come here with Mia, and clearly, she was too. He smiled a bit and nodded at her.

"Oh come'on, Mimi," It was about time Fer nicknamed her, as he does with everybody he knows. "you know you have our backs." Well, he didn't actually know Noah, but the fact that he was here probably meant that, right? "I don't know about you, but I think this entails several tequila shots."

And as a matter of fact, Fer had just the thing to for that. He had been out the night before, and yes, it was weekday, don't judge him, and thus, he placed his hand inside his shirt and almost-magically pulled out a bottle of Jose Cuervo Especial, which he quickly waved for the other two.

"Or vodka," Fer placed his left, free, hand inside his shirt and pulled out a bottle of Absolut. "I'm not picky."