Look, We Gotta Talk (Xavier)

[Talia Spencer]

December 6, 2014


It had been a week since she found out the truth. She and Xavier had texted a little, here and there, not much more beyond an occasional hi just to make sure they were still on good terms and still existed and all. 

Talia had a lot on her mind. She liked Xavier - she truly did - that wasn't the question here. But she was concerned about Jaxon and part of her wondered if it might not just be better to get out now, before they took this any further. It had only been one date after all - they hadn't even kissed! 

She had to consider all of this. At this point... she had pretty much made up her mind. But she needed to talk to Xavier first. She needed to ask him some questions. For a moment she considered calling, but there was something about text that was more straight forward... seemed more appropriate for this conversation.

To:Xavier
Xavier? I think we need to talk about things

[Xavier & Jaxon Wright]

It had been a strange time between Jaxon, Xavier, and even Talia. The eldest soul hadn't the heart to ask her out again, mainly because of the fact that Jaxon had such a clear dislike for her. After what it took the first time to go out with her in the first place, and what had resulted in it, Xavier had to wonder what it truly was worth.

But then he mentally slapped himself for thinking that, because as it so happened, it was worth everything. On the single date, there was something about the girl that he was willing to fight for even just friendship, but he wouldn't just let that /go/. However, in the span of things, he just didn't know how to go about starting it up again.

Lucky for him, Talia apparently did.

To: Talia
Yeah? What's up?

Because he didn't know what else to say.

[Talia Spencer]

Talia bit her lip, trying to figure out where to begin. She didn't want him to feel like she was trying to move things along too quickly or put too much pressure on something so new. So new it was barely even a thing yet.

To Xaver:
Things just got complicated so fast, you know?
I mean, obviously your brother doesn't like me. Which is kinda a problem. Would you even want to go out again? I mean, you have to live with him after all...
I don't want to come between you two.

Maybe that was being a little arrogant, assuming she could matter enough to cause problems between the brothers, but it still worried her.

[Xavier & Jaxon Wright]

For a moment, Xavier was glad that this wasn't all being said over the phone, because the silence he wore then would probably have ruined everything. How was he to respond to such a question without sounding unsure of himself. It would have been complicated because of the fact that Jaxon didn't like her, but Xavier had a feeling that Jaxon wouldn't like anybody he had taken out.

'Not True.'

Just shut up, Jax. My conversation, stay out of it To which Jaxon hushed, and turned his attention away, idling himself in the back of their mind, finding something else to do with his wasted time.

To Talia:
Look, there is literally nothing getting in our way. I can't live without him in the most literal sense, and it's the same for him to me. He can get mad all he wants, but in the end, I'm going to do what I want to do with my life.

He figured that text in itself was long enough for the first, and the rest could be said in the second message. The scoff came loud and clear from Jaxon, but Xavier ignored it all. He was being broody and bitchy, and it wasn't his job to comfort him in that moment.

To Talia:
And after all, I still have to get my jacket back.

[Talia Spencer]

Talia was a little surprised by his response. Was she overthinking things? The second text came through then, and that made her smile. Her gaze shifted to look at the jacket, which was laying on the chair nearby. 

To: Xavier
You really don't think he'll have any effect on us at all? I mean, wouldn't having someone in your head who is always mad at you be irritating at least?

It wasn't that she didn't want to believe him. She was just having a hard time thinking that it could go back to being that simple now that Jaxon was involved. Then again, he had probably been involved from the beginning... she just hadn't known about it. Damn, this was confusing.

To: Xavier
True. I'll be a little sad to see it go though, I've started getting attached 

She really had. She wore it more often than she'd care to admit in the days since he'd left it with her, especially this week when she had been trying to figure out what she wanted. 

[Xavier & Jaxon Wright]

Her concerns were valid, most definitely, but the fact still remained that it was his life and Jaxon shouldn't be concerned with what he does, and should more than definitely not interfere with whatever he decides to do. The fact that he did only irritated him beyond belief, and frankly, Xavier hadn't even considered dating for a long time because of Jaxon.

To: Talia
I think that he's not as bad of a guy to try and make me miserable. I know you didn't get the best impression, but he really isn't that bad a guy.

Because despite it all, it would always be Jaxon and Xavier, even if this thing with Talia didn't work out. Even if nothing worked out for them, it would always be Jaxon and Xavier.

[Talia Spencer]

Talia couldn't help but think that his assessment that she hadn't gotten the 'best impression' of Jaxon was a bit of an understatement. Of course, the more she thought about it, the more what Jaxon had said to her seemed harmless... and yet... It still resonated with her. But she also remembered the dream and what insight it had given her. Not that Xavier knew about that.

To: Xavier
That's fair. You'd know better than I would.

She just hoped that Jaxon did care enough for Xavier that he would respect his choices. After all, he might hate her, but surely he loved his brother.

Her second text was a little more selfish.

To: Xavier
Do you think he'll ever stop hating me?

Normally she wasn't much of one to care how others felt about her. If they didn't like her, fine, she didn't need them in her life. But if Xavier was in her life, by default Jaxon would be as well. Which meant his opinion did matter in the end, much as she might prefer to ignore him entirely.

[Xavier & Jaxon Wright]

Xavier did know Jaxon far better than Jaxon might've cared to admit, and the same went for vice versa. It wasn't like a convention brother to brother love where true secrets could be held back and distance could be made by way of not seeing one another. Despite the fact that the younger soul tried to hide, the eldest soul always knew something was wrong. Memories might have been hidden from moments under stress and in the haze of the Hybrid dreams, but in the end there would always be eachother who could feel each others emotions and hear the thoughts that one tried to hide.

To: Talia
I can't speak for him, but I can say he hasn't put in any effort to get to know you. But if he did, he wouldn't be acting the way he is.

It was the best Xavier could do, because Jaxon could hold a grudge like a motherfucker if it warranted, despite the fact that he said he couldn't care any less if somebody hated or loved him. He, on the other hand, could hate and love as much as he wanted. And for some god forsaken reason, it had to be Talia that he chose to enact his wrath on. Gotta love how the world worked, right?

[Talia Spencer]

She had to trust Xavier's assessment of the situation. He had far more basis to judge than she did after all. He knew his brother, and she... she had only seen a glimpse. Admittedly, a very unpleasant glimpse but even so... She had to have hope that maybe things between them could change. At least to get to a more nuetral ground. After how things had started between them, she didn't dare think there could be anything more.

She just didn't want Xavier to end up resenting her someday because of all this. Of course, that was assuming things continued to go really well with them. After one date, it was probably a bit much to start predicting a future or any such thing. Besides, Talia wasn't in a rush.

To: Xavier
Thanks for that. I hope you're right.

She wasn't sure her concerns were completely dismissed, but she at least felt a bit more comfortable with the situation. That was a start.

To: Xavier
So then should I expect to be swept off my feet on date #2 sometime soon?

[Xavier & Jaxon Wright]

'Thanks for speaking for me, Xavier. Really do appreciate it,' Jaxon had been quieted earlier on, so it hadn't occurred to him that he would even be paying attention to the text messages being sent. Then again, Jaxon was especially keen on this whole situation as a whole, and considering the sarcasm in his tone, it was evident that Jaxon did not like what he saw.

Will you please give it a rest, Jax? Honestly, all I want to do is try and be happy. We're 28 and haven't been in not one single relationship. Don't you wish that could change?

'No, Xavier, I don't. Why would I when I'm nearly 100% sure she'll just leave you, and then who will be there to pick up the pieces? Nobody's guaranteed a forever in this situation.'

Seriously? Give me a break, Jaxon. I've held back for so long because I know you, and yet when I finally find someone that'd I'd like to explore a bit with, you can't even give me the courtesy that I've given you? Maybe she will leave, I don't know. But I'll be damned if I didn't even /try/. Fuck you.

'You know what, fine. Do whatever the fuck you want with her. I won't get in your way. But don't come crying and asking for my comfort when she stomps all over you.'

Will do.

And that was it - Jaxon had left, fallen under the spell of dreams that Xavier would never know about. In all honesty, the strain between them had never been as extreme as it had been now, but maybe this was a long time coming. Seventeen years of living together, and it was all finally stressing the two. The only thing Xavier could hope was that all of this was worth it, that everything worked out in his favor. Because for christ sakes, Xavier wanted to be happy.

To: Talia
Maybe From what I hear, maybe you should expect a knock on your door next Saturday. But that's just hearsay.

[Talia Spencer]

His text had her grinning from ear to ear and for a moment all the worries and complications were forgotten. She was just looking forward to seeing him again. She liked the way he made her feel and the time they'd spent together - limited as it was - had made her happy. That was enough for now. She could hold onto that. It gave her something to look forward to

To: Xavier
Well I do like the sound of that so I guess I'll just have to take my chances